posted November 13, 2017 07:18 PM            

I am more than some body
waking up to love
falling asleep to destroy myself
and the whole world

Shattered pieces crush into darkness
I see you in my head
Then my head is turned off
like everything else

Scars are turned into tattoo
which is my real business here
making pain seem like a painting
then ruthlessly shut my eyes

If you come any closer, I'll warn you:
Keep me aside
like a bitter pill
you would never take
knowing it makes it possible
to subdue all longing

posted November 15, 2017 07:55 PM            

(Your poem worried me.)

New Moon Scorpio will be feeling more like a FULL Moon. It's trine your Sun. There's a lot of going down DEEPLY into more shadowy seeming realms.

Your Progressed Moon recently changed into Scorpio too.... Tends to feel more depth, even some aloneness.

posted November 16, 2017 07:31 AM            

So, my progressed moon... Do you know since when? I would actually like to see your chart some day...

I have some really exciting news, but it would take a while, so I wait and keep silence... it may take a whole year.

posted November 16, 2017 08:49 PM            

awwww. Well, I hope it turns out to be just Right for you. I hope you'll be Happy.

IF the birth time you gave me (from Birth Certificate?) is correct, then please know that the change would have happened during the last week of September 2017.
Exact would have been ~27 Sept.

This P'Moon has just made exact contact to cross your natal MC. (Career point, public house).
tJupiter is working its way through that natal H10, along with support from tVenus.

tJupiter Scorpio is ready to contact your Uranus a month from now.

Your Sun is on my Jupiter 3-arc-seconds from a Partile conjunction.

Glad things are working out for you...

posted November 18, 2017 05:34 PM            

I know you've been through some terrible hurts in life. I think my self resonates with it somehow.

So *ahem* PARTILE!!

Partile is MORE than a Conjunction.
The planet/bodies have to be in the same Declination.

If you check your 'Positions in the Natal Chart', the first row of numbers (with zodiac sign indicated) after each planet has a heading called "Longitude."

If you go farther along, you find 'house' and 'Speed', then 'Latitude', and finally "Declination".

In YOUR chart....
Under "Declination" (last COLUMN)
I see you have Venus and Mars in the SAME Declination...
Venus 22.42'50" N
Mars 22.51'29" N

What counts as a 'Parallel' is that those numbers both have "N" after it. (Meaning, North {above celestial equator})

If one had an "N" and the other had an "S", that would be ContraParallel Declination.

Okay.... before I go too much over MY own head ...
Back to the meaning of Partile.

quotation ....
Fred Getttings, The Arkana Dictionary of Astrology, 1985,1990. Penguins. Page 367.

partile aspect
An exact ASPECT between two or more bodies.
In general astrological use, the term is applied to aspects which are in the same degree of Longitude,
but some astrologers insist that the term may be properly used 'only' when the aspect is exact and 'in parallel'

end/Quote

I don't know what time my Father was born.
What I do know (generally) is that his Sun was in 3-degrees plus minutes', of Scorpio, along with planet Jupiter.

Aside...
IF I had a friend-or-teacher relationship with a master-astrologer (with phone number), I would ask them a question right now regarding "Latitudes" and the Declinations. Of course tooooo, I don't know or understand really 'why' but, I've had a life-long problem 'phoning a friend' even, in time of need. It's stupid. I know it.
.. Once when I was seeing a counselor, he had given me his number to call. After a while, he noticed that his other clients called him and I wasn't utilizing the phone. He gave me an assignment to call him "for nothing" -- to just Call him, to say Hi.
(Can you believe it? A counselor who 'complained' that his client didn't call him enough? ROFL)
.. haha, Just telling you about myself, Ayelet. *Heart*

ANYWAYS....

Dad's Chart
(using 'NOON' as birthtime),

SUN Scorpio 3.35'22" Lat 0.0'1" Dec 12.43'5" S

Jupiter Scorp 3.35'06" Lat 1.0'44"N Dec 11.45'52" S

The Partile is Scorpio 3.35'
Latitude is close, and North.

Declination with Sun just arc-seconds ahead Longitudinally,

--- {but I don't understand Latitude difference because the Sun had skipped ahead of Jupiter?, but that Latitudinally the number is going downwards---- haha ignore that, Ayelet-- I'm musing out loud},

BOTH their Declinations are within a skinny degree of each other....

I think THAT is what's called Partile.

The Longitude {zodiac} AND the Declinations within one degree of each other.
It's a special close "Conjunction".

-- {what I don't get is why the Latitude is North, while Declination can be South? --- haha, forget that too!} --

So! -----------------
Your chart and mine.

Ayelet
SUN Cancer 27.19'54" with Declination 20.41'37" N

Me
JUPITER Cancer 27.23'29" with Dec 21.11'13" N

You + Me have a very close Conjunction.
I wonder if they would call it Partile?
It's IN the same Degree, and within 1-Degree of Declination.

Definitely ... We are Star-Buddies!!

Here's what else we have, that are "Conjunct" ...

You first, Me second.

Sun Cancer 27.19' H7 + Jupiter 27.23' H8

Venus Cancer 17.29' H7 + Vesta 17.25' H8

Juno Gemini 7.55 H5 + Sun 7.50' H6
{I'm in your 5th}

Uranus Scorpio 16.56' SD {station-Direct} H10, +
Saturn 16.22 RX H11

Now...... I have not studied 'relationship' astrology in any kind of depth??, but ... I'd say we have some 'pretty close ties' with some of our starlight energies!! LOL

Your other questions -----------

My Moon is Virgo at 24.56 in H(9) Leo
sextile my Jupiter Cancer (+ your Sun)

{using Placidus System of House Cusps}

Am I "Jupitarian" ....

My Ascendant is Sagittarius 11.30.
The planetary ruler of the zodiac-sign for Sagittarius is "Jupiter".

My Moon Virgo in the 9th House ...
The Natural 9th House {for everyone} is planet JUPITER.
The ninth house is also nicknamed 'God's House'...
Jupiter!

My Jupiter Cancer is in the 8th House.
My 8th house cusp is Cancer.
The planet ruler (for Cancer) is 'The Moon'.

Philosophically? ...
Yes. I could be regarded as Jupitarian.
Serious intense Philosopher, who can be Buoyant-Playful too, wanting to uplift and inspire. See the Bright Side.

And,
Sometimes, some days, .. I feel the Saturn-rx Scorpio serious side that weighs me down in responsibility-feeling, giving me more soberness, more seriousness.
(Scorpio on 11th and 12th Cusps).

My chart looks surprisingly similar to this one ...
Roseanne Cash
- http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Cash,_Rosanne

You're a Blessing, Ayelet......

For your Capricorn Ascendant.

posted November 20, 2017 06:06 PM            

And I'll hear the song... sometimes climbing a mountain can equal emerging out of a tunnel...