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Topic: i hope its a new life for start6030..lolz :)
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start6030
Knowflake Posts: 172
From: neverland:)
Registered: Dec 2011
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posted February 28, 2012 01:16 PM
  
hi everyone.. first of all >
lexi , ammi , anong , sagi , mysecondblade, ceri , little cloud and everyone , thank u so so much for such a wonderful support...it was such a tough period for me... but now i think i can actually feel why God brought it to my life... for the first time ever in life , am working !!..lolz.. my first job.. with such a good pay... i always thought so low of myself... i always thought i couldnt get a job easily... but i just applied for it after checking this advertisement for it , before i slept.... and wow , its in my hand today. am gonna join it in march.. going away from home... aww.. thats bad part of it.. but still , its ok.. feel like its a God gift. so officially , for a year , am no more a clinical dentist.. lolz..and am so so happy about it... coz i would be doing something i always loved and dreamt to do > teaching young people .
am happy (just a little nostalgic as well  ..i still miss him ...and am surprised at the way life has changed and plans have changed... so yes , it will be tough for me to overcome those past memories as i join the new job till i get involved with it after a few weeks) IP: Logged |
start6030
Knowflake Posts: 172
From: neverland:)
Registered: Dec 2011
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posted February 28, 2012 01:36 PM
on the other hand , in the beginning of february , i met someone... well , he said it was love at first "talk"....i kind of liked him... but was still busy with ex's memories... so though i convinced myself i should have moved on, i couldnt put all my trust in this new guy..but he seems so alike... this is for the first time that i didnt tell anyone about what i wanted. yet , what all he told about himself was surprisingly what i wanted in my companion.
he writes (Articles, journals etc), i write..
he reads , i read
what all he dreams about his wife, is what all i wanted my man to dream about me..
what all he thinks about family , is what exactly i wanted a family to be like...
he needs kids , i need kids...
he wants to enter politics(serious national political scene), i always dreamt to be a part of the life of sm1 with political background...lolz, crazy i know...
his business plans are exactly what i had planned for my life in my own mind... he has a social service organisation , i hav made a social service organisation... its unbelievable...every word he utters seems like he already knows each and everything about me , what i want , what i dream... he can literally read my mind... he knows how to calm me down... he knows what i need at the moment... he sometimes make me to shiver with his knowledge about me...literally , i get stunned most of the times.... i dnt know where it will lead to ... but he has helped me live life once again....he encouraged me to do job , to eat and stuff... and by chance , now i have got a job as well...
he already takes us as one.... he's ready to wait for me... he has actually started waiting for me...and he tells me just like husbands about sending me money (obviously , i refused.... but with my ex, even though we were married , i was alws uncomfortable about askign for money...but with this person , it feels so natural that i dnt feel like refusing him out of hesitation...the only reason i refuse him is becoz i really dnt need money at this point)... so u see, he is going to lawyers already to see when can we get married ... and since he is also (WHAT A CHANCE OF FATE) from the same country where my ex is living(and i hope u remember my ex cheated me and later refused me visa to block me), he is already going to lawyers to make sure that our marriage wont have any troubles later and i get visa.... but i told him , i didnt want to go there...and i was happy here... and wow, he agreed to come here and live with me  isnt it great ? who is he ? a twin flame ? he is more into me than i am into him... secretly , i still miss my ex sometimes , but so afr , things have happened as such that day by day , my ex's actions convince me even more that he cheated me with a pre planned thing.. so overall, yes , if things remain good , after my divorce with my ex , we r planning to get married.
just one problem is , i feel blocked most of the times now when it comes to sex... i mean , he literally behaves with me and takes my resonsibility as if he is my husband...i feel good the way he caresand holds responsibility... but then , when he is turning lovey dovey , and needs a response, he loses himself and i feel blocked... and cant even reply to his "love u" , most of the times....then later , i get scared that he is more sexually active and i wont be ..
i dont know if its the still fresh wound from the past relationship , or is it a real incmpatibility in the charts.... but overall , life has started moving on...but it takes a lot of energy to still push out ex from my heart but overall , its good IP: Logged |
jesstar
Knowflake Posts: 213
From: santa fe new mexico
Registered: Nov 2011
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posted February 29, 2012 01:27 AM
 ask and you shall recieve keep it up girl !!sounds like you got it going on . im happy for you------------------
"We'll go because it's Thursday,"he said,"and we'll go to wish everybody a Very Happy Thursday.Come on,Piglet"
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Lexxigramer
Moderator Posts: 127
From: The Etheric Realms
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted February 29, 2012 07:02 AM
Keep up the positive attitude!   ------------------
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start6030
Knowflake Posts: 172
From: neverland:)
Registered: Dec 2011
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posted February 29, 2012 11:58 AM
aww..thank u so much jesstar and lex...well yeah , am trying to be strong and keep trusting the magical love.... i cant giv up on hope .... i still miss my ex a lot... i must admit... and now that am moving to a new place , my first job , am missing him more than ever....the new guy has been around today... was so supportive...i like him ... its all fine between him nd me...but still , the old wounds are fresh. but anyhow , mum dad grandma and me too , we r hapy that i could think about a new job , and a new life...thank u all for such support... am gonna be all alone at this new lace...its far away from home sweet home..kind of a remote area i hav never been to... much different from big cities of India or USA that i hav lived in so far..... but its in Himalayas....they say its heaven in himalays' lap..lets see ... leaving tomorrow...gonna miss u all till i get internet connection....coz this place is so much liek home , i wont ever feel alone till i have LL people around.. lov u guys... !! IP: Logged |
jesstar
Knowflake Posts: 213
From: santa fe new mexico
Registered: Nov 2011
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posted March 02, 2012 02:45 AM
EXPECT A MIRACLE ------------------
"We'll go because it's Thursday,"he said,"and we'll go to wish everybody a Very Happy Thursday.Come on,Piglet"
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Randall
Webmaster Posts: 16071
From: Saturn next to Charmainec
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted March 04, 2012 10:11 AM
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"Never mentally imagine for another that which you would not want to experience for yourself, since the mental image you send out inevitably comes back to you." Rebecca Clark IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
Moderator Posts: 28078
From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted March 05, 2012 01:02 PM
(((Start))) Blessings Sweet One------------------
Passion, Lust, Desire. Check out my journal
http://www.mychristianpsychic.com/
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