posted April 01, 2009 01:47 PM         

I'm gradually starting to embrace the dark side of my capricorn moon; after all of the endless crap that's happened, I feel like my soul is slipping away. I can't take it anymore. I know people say that when life knocks you down, then you're supposed to stand up. But what do you do when life is still pummeling you when you're on the ground?

Meanwhile, I see people around me completely happy and I mean, genuinely happy. I can usually tell when people are faking emotions and these people are not faking it. They cheat, lie, refuse to work hard, are selfish and yet everything is just handed to them on a silver platter.

posted April 01, 2009 02:34 PM         

I don't know if this helps or not, but either way I hope that you find what you're looking for

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It's just another day in the life of Aquarius.

posted April 01, 2009 02:55 PM         

there was a time in my life when i felt the same. it took a lot of pain to admit that life is painful and that mature behavior wouldn't always be returned with good outcome.

i've been to the dark side... it's overrated too.

i try to accept that life's not fair and have as much fun as i can. i've let go of mature behaviour... trying to seize the moment as much as i can, trying to enjoy anything i can get.

just try to get over the bitterness of it and let loose

posted April 01, 2009 09:52 PM         

It seems like you're grappling with a lot definitely.

posted April 01, 2009 11:51 PM         

Thanks for your comments. I'll try to hang in there, but it's getting hard.

Sevannah,

See, the problem isn't that I don't think I deserve better. I think I deserve a lot better than what I'm getting now. Despite this, I just attract chaos, misery and one tragedy after another. I am glad to hear that your life is improving though. At least there's someone decent out there who is being treated fairly (at least occasionally) by life.

Atlenta,

I'm sorry about your manipulative friend. I know what you mean. I do help people a lot if they prove to be trustworthy. I know how it feels to be stuck in a horrible situation with no one to turn to or to simply be confused at how to proceed, so I do help them when I can.

Normally, some people foolishly mistaken me for being very nice and try to take advantage of me. When this happens, I immediately tear them to pieces leaving them to wonder what the hell happened. Sure they end up scared and regretful, but they finally learn not to cross the line.

Evander,

Life is certainly painful and it sucks. I wish I could let loose, but I have family depending on me. I have no choice, but to be as responsible and mature as I can because I don't just have myself to worry about. This is what hurts the most: life is dragging me down and my family as well. I do get what you're saying though. I'll try to find some way to incorporate fun into my life.

No, pluto isn't transiting my moon yet, but I have moon square pluto natally, which does suck. Right now, pluto is transiting my 12th house, conjuncting my neptune and sextiling my pluto.

triplecancer,

Yeah, it's hard seeing these rotten people have everything they want. It's like they just wish for a new car and it appears in front of them. Meanwhile, I've had to save my money since I was 5 in order to be able to buy my first car at age 22.

MyVirgoMask,

No, you don't sound cliche at all. I just hope things turn around soon because my heart is almost frozen at this point. I've got pluto squaring my moon natally, so I feel its affect all the time. It's too intense to put into words accurately.

posted April 02, 2009 08:03 AM           

i was also thinking of the Law of Atraction when i saw your words.

i can assure you it is not easy...but once you start seeing the results,it will start to be a natural process for you.

you already think life is unfair and it is no worth - see? the minute you think this deeper and deeper,Life will present you that!

you feel worse and worse as days passes by dont you?why do you think depressed people have more probability to die,than others?Cause they are in a low mind state,they strat to create unhealthy cells and everything can fall apart.

if you can,please read converstaions with God and the secret.

thos books are improving my life in a way i could nto imagine.im becoming a better person and people who dont bring me sincere and happy feelings,they are throwed in distance from me,by circunstances.

why do cheaters prosper?they only have one thing in mind:be prosperous.be rich.they atract people and situations that eventually brings that to them.the LOA doesnt think if they are "good" or "bad" persons.

the LOA responds by vibracional energies.

As you start being grateful for what you already have; keep thinking of what you want and not what dont want anymore;and feel the feelings of having your dreams fullfiled....

your Lfie will start to improve.

dONT give up.

posted April 02, 2009 08:23 AM           

astra, dont feel guilty about your feelings. sometimes life hurts and i dont think that by pulling THE LAW OF ATTRACTION out of the hat things will go better.

posted April 02, 2009 03:12 PM         

there must be something great in your life right now and some way you can "bottle" the feeling of being happy. this goes a long way to creating more happiness around you. whether you call it LOA or not, attitude does shape your life. it may not bring you everything nice, but it helps you see the good things and deal with the nasty ones.

posted April 02, 2009 03:44 PM         

So past/future lives karma aside, reality is just like this - has its ugly and beautiful sides, and while some has better lives, others has worse luck. No matter how we can't accept it, things are how they are. But we can choose what to do, and that's important. We might choose to live like those cheaters we despise, but can we really accept to live it that way? Well, everything we choose and do has its consequences, so if we can accept these and that's the way we are happy..

Things might get better in the future, or it might not at all. But even so, no one knows how it will be, yet we still have the power to choose what to do. ^_^

posted April 02, 2009 04:57 PM         

However, the grass is always greener on the other side. It is very easy to think that other people are doing better than you and that they are happy. It is actually very easy to put up a smiley facade and trick people, by conduct or verbally, into thinking that your life is rosey. Every life has it's problems, including that of a cheater. Maybe it's done to psyche others out even, this appearance. I've often had the converse problem where people think that I have an amazing life and that I'm happy but I guess it's my facade and privacy that does not let them in. I think of a friend (who deservedly got a job) who has the same job as the cheaters and she has told me that she has sufferred a lot in the position - heavy and unrelenting work, dysfunctional office environment etc. She mustn't be the only one! ...And I don't have to go through any of this pain!

I think the only advice I can give you is to focus on yourself. Don't worry about what they are doing but think about what you want to do. Being certain in what you want to do and keep on aiming for it. When you do, it focusses your life and blocks out extra junk. Maybe this is one of the reasons that cheaters are so successful, because they don't think of others but only themselves.

BTW I don't believe in reincarnation and some members have alluded to "punishment" coming back in their next life. I believe in what goes around comes around and a lot of them just might be in pain now and don't show it or don't know that they are in trouble already.

posted April 02, 2009 06:44 PM           

Perhaps we are the only honest ones left. Sometimes I see it that way. Maybe those lying, lazy, and poor excuses for human beings that somehow get ahead will suffer in their own hell in the afterlife. Karma will surely bite them, at one point or another.

posted April 02, 2009 10:59 PM         

If you think things are bad now, remember that they can always get worse.

Remember the kindness of your loved ones who have just passed on. Did you ever receive any love or kindness from them? If you did you will be turning your back on their love which lives on after physical death. That's the greatest thing about love, that doesn't die.

I'd also like to give you a small gift for the kindnesses you have already given to anyone or anything in this world.

Here:

And also, this has been raising my spirits at a difficult time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NZJxL3PrrLM

Or the original version by Kermit The Frog himself:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RIOiwg2iHio

posted April 04, 2009 02:53 PM         

from my personal experience with Pluto transits, and a helping hand from a great article online, I can tell you that the point to all this is for you to stand up to such people, and willingly decide to let them go out of your life - and not become one of them. also, you need to make up your mind about what you consider right and wrong, where you draw the line and consider things unacceptable.

Sadly, in the face of such temptations from the dark side, you gotta decide witch side you wanna be on. who you want to be.

My decisions at that time seemed to come out of weakness. and yet, 5 years later, I’m so proud of myself. I know, the people from that time are very well off, status, career, money. But they’re not happy. they’re lost. and very lonely in their distrustful little worlds they’ve created for themselves.

posted April 06, 2009 10:37 PM         

Forget about them and work on yourself! Be grateful for what you do have!! Work on being more spiritual and positive. Material things are fleeting but the soul is eternal.

Let go, forgive and learn how to love yourself. You won't give them a second thought.