posted March 23, 2010 06:30 PM         

I have a very creepy freaky sort of...connection with this man that I hardly barely even know. He is now my colleague.

he is a very very difficulta person. Seems to have the ability to create emotions in others and manipulate them.

The horrbile thing is that he seems in some way fixated on me and I feel that we have a very strong bond. I sometime have even the feeling that I can hear his thoughts and feel his feelings.

I believe some feelings have built up at least on my side. I dont know about him but our friendship anyway ended before we got a chance to explore that. It ended abruplty last summer.

Ever since, we hardly speak again. The most disturbing thing is that I somehow feel responsible for him, because I admit I had secretly wantred him as a colleague and try a relationship with him. But when he came, he had gotten married, so I was just professional and distanced. The problem is that now h has very conflictual relationships with everyone at the work place and I am tortured with the thought that if maybe I had had a closer relationship wiht him, I could have helped.

I cannot put the finger on this feeling of guilt and responsibility.

So please, some insight and tell me please what forces are at work here, because I sm suspecting they are not all positive.

And also, I have dreams about him. But thez are very intense and unsettleting. The last one was a nightmare almost, where I dreamed there was another person inside of him. Creepy!

So, here is our birth info again

me

3 September 1980, 9.00 AM, Bacau, Romania

him

4 July 1979, 11.00 AM, Sibiu, Romania

We noe both live in Vienna.

The fact is I would like to help him in some waz but I do not know how to handle the difficult relationship.