posted March 25, 2010 03:38 PM         

I am searching now...
I don't know what I can do for work.
I don't know what kind of relationships I should be in.
I don't know what will get me focused on the positive again.
And many more unknowns... and wishes for things like positive and intelligent friends to get together with for walks etc.

I feel so lonely and just blah all of the time anymore. I started smoking last summer and have had five drinks the last 3 times I went out, instead of one or two. I need some insight, a kick in the butt, some direction, a miracle...

So, please analyze me. And don't worry you will offend me. I almost WANT to be offended because my life has been so devoid of intellectual stimulation and interaction. I am thirsting for growth and new energy to challenge this old, stale, sad energy. I finally figured out how to post the chart and included the transits, like a good girl.

What do you see, my wise friends?

posted March 25, 2010 05:29 PM         

Methinks it's the Saturn and it's been going thru these critical houses the past few years (7th, 8th). I'm thinking once it really hits your 9th you might go back to school if you haven't already.

The Pluto stuff seems hard
On your asc though, I would think this gives tremendous power, as well as power struggles, because as it opposes the 7th house it would do that. On your moon it might bring mom issues.

posted March 25, 2010 06:01 PM         

Mel..

I don't like to reduce a
complex problem to something
as trite as "Just Pray"

Nonetheless,
that's the best advice I can give.

Find a quiet place...
Take ten deep breaths...
Count to a billion...

Okay, don't count to a billion.
Just take some deep breaths.

Try to listen for something good,
feel something good...

Tell yourself that you love yourself.
Whatever your situation, you're loved.

Breathe...

Can you feel it?

The Presence

Let it settle..

Settle into it;
a warm, rejuvenating bath
for the Spirit...

Deep breath...

Eyes closed...

This is the place
where strength comes from.

Now is the time
to visit with Spirit.

You are so protected,
You are so loved,
So understood,
So looked out for...

This is the moment to remember
that everything you've gone through,
every smile you cracked, every tear you shed,
has been recorded by wise and compassionate angels.

This is not fantasy, but attunement
to a reality which exists, and will exist,
long after this world has been forgotten.

Hold your child,
count your blessings,
explore your interests.

I'll talk to you soon.

posted March 25, 2010 06:17 PM         

MyVirgoMask, you too? Do you have a lot in Virgo? Maybe it is Saturn getting us both. I wish I knew how to better make use of the energy. I have to go back to school this fall. It is costing me about a grand to defer or whatever the word is when you have to pay the interest, to put it off until this fall. I wonder if Saturn will be in the 9th that many months from now?

posted March 25, 2010 09:50 PM         

Also, and I don't remember who on this site recommended her work, or maybe I saw it elsewhere, but Florence Scovell Shinn wrote some good stuff in the Game of Life.

posted March 26, 2010 11:21 AM         

Lyrics to "Trees" by Marty Casey and The Lovehammers

I don't wanna go through this life
Without you by my side
And I got it all worked out
In my head here's how it's got to be

It'll be you and me
Up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answer
It'll be you and I
Up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster

We, we make believe
In a world we rule together
We can build our dreams
With a knot tied tight to last forever

It'll be you and me
Up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answer
It'll be you and I
Up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah
We got one shot
So let's use our imaginations
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah
You're all that I got
So where do we go from here

It'll be you and me
Up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answer
It'll be you and I
Up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster

I know there's more for us in this life
If we hold on, if we hold strong
I know there's more for us in this life
Can we hold on, can we hold on

posted March 27, 2010 10:24 PM         

But, I didn't want to complain so much as have myself analyzed astrologically to see if there are any trends I should be aware of.
, and any direction that I might do well to follow, and anything to look out for that is sort of an Achilles heel type of aspect. Your words mean so much to me... I just don't want to become a whiner. I just had never asked for input on my birth chart online so I thought I'd ask. Maybe I can find some free natal interp sites on the Free Online Readings thread in Personal Readings but I guess I've read those before and was hoping for someone who might see a general theme of danger or direction... I don't exactly know.

posted March 28, 2010 01:19 AM         

Pluto transits square or opposition Sun

This transit marks a major growth period in your life in which you struggle with the buried elements of your personality and ego as you learn to accept, transform, or face them. You may be acting in a controlling, jealous, or overbearing manner which can alienate others or even push them away. This comes from a deep fear of letting go and surrendering to the idea that some things cannot be directed or controlled. As this fear surfaces, your behavior may be compulsive or obsessive; or you may experience these traits through someone close to you, especially a male. Either way, you are learning to detach yourself or let go of something, someone, or attitudes that are no longer serving you well. However, the process can be lengthy and challenging. Your higher mind may know better. You may yearn to live with a "what will be, will be" attitude, but it's very difficult to do so just yet. You may feel threatened in some way, and you might feel somewhat paranoid. This can be something you experience on a subconscious or emotional level in that you are unlikely to feel physically threatened. Instead, you might fear the loss of a significant other, a lifestyle, a job, or other significant part of your life. What you need to do is avoid turning this into a self-fulfilling prophecy. The fear itself may lead you to compulsive, suspicious, or difficult behavior; and this behavior might cost you the very thing that you hold dear. You tend to act on impulse and often don't listen to reason--even your own!

Pluto transits to the Sun challenge us to face up to unexpressed or poorly expressed traits of our Sun sign, house, and aspects. We discover our own power and strength, and we re-work our very sense of identity, which invariably affects our life path. How we have defined ourselves to date is now challenged. In some cases, women live this transit through key male figures in their lives. These transits force us to confront our will, power, assertion, and authority. Sometimes, the relationship with the father or other important male figures come into focus. We face the need to be more independent, assertive, and autonomous. Perhaps most importantly, Pluto transiting our Sun puts us face to face with exactly what it is that has been holding us back from living life more fully and meaningfully.

This transit calls you to redefine your value system and life attitudes, and generates intense energy in your life. You are likely to experience events that highlight the need to trust, let go, and have faith. You may have to deal with willfulness and issues of power and competition this year--in others and in yourself. There is an inner drama taking place, and a feeling that external circumstances are undermining your own feeling of powerfulness. In the process, you may be able to get in touch with your internal motivations. A tendency to want to control your life through some form of manipulation is strong during this influence. You may act in a more selfish or ambitious manner, and this intensity might even surprise you. Meeting with obstacles in your path, however, can force you into the position of using all of your resources to fight back, and you can discover resources you never knew you had in the process.

You are likely to emerge from this cycle perhaps feeling a little battered but certainly more in touch with your deeper needs. You may have learned to stand up for yourself or to have faith in your strength. You most likely have experienced some form of psychological transformation or rebirth of sorts.

Look for Leo in your natal chart, as the Sun rules Leo, and this is an area of life that will be directly affected by the transit (in addition to the house where the transit actually takes place).

~Power is the central issue of this transit. On one level, you may try to gain more control over other people, or they may try to gain control over your actions. At work, your boss may either give you more work and responsibilities than you think you can handle or he may insist that you do what you have promised to do in the past, but have up to now successfully avoided. Don't be contentious, although this may be your initial reaction. First try to discover how you can realistically handle the new duties; some new method of working may be called for. The transit will test your ambitions: how well you have planned your course of action, how hard you have worked in the past, how efficient you have become. Your energy is high now and needs to be directed into constructive channels rather than expended in reckless rebellion. If you are in a position of authority, don't expect others to keep up with your fast pace. You may feel like driving yourself past the breaking point, but employees or co-workers will rebel if you push them. On another, deeper level, you can use this time to gain control over your own actions. The challenge here is to understand why you do something in a particular way, not to repress those traits you don't like. Buried in your subconscious, they may smolder and suddenly burst into flame. Bring hidden facets of your character to the surface, so you can examine and understand them, then make needed changes. An aggressive approach now is not the best; try for an assertive one instead. Treat people in authority (bosses, policemen, IRS people) with velvet gloves; belligerence only brings you more problems.