posted December 14, 2014 09:17 PM            

I can't go back to places of my past, avoid that cafe like the plague, never set foot in that high school ever again

If you are my friend I will love and support you but as soon as I get a whiff of the relationship's expiration date, I will let things naturally fizzle out. I let you go like I let the person I become with you go, I am not that person anymore and if you ever see me again, I will probably be unrecognizable. I don't know if this makes me a bad friend, to be honest, I feel I am doing both parties a favor. I can feel when there is no longer anything left to learn from each other.

I feel the same way about certain songs, movies and books. I just cannot listen, watch or read certain things again. I will inwardly cringe if a certain song pops up on the radio. It's like placing myself in a mindset where I was immature, reliving a me that I can no longer identify with.

When studying, I can't even look over things I have written from school notebooks from merely months ago, which are RIGHT THERE on my desk.. I would rather google the answers than revisit the person that sprawled those letters across the page with all their all thoughts, feelings and mindsets..

I'm a virgo sun, mercury and jupiter with aquarius moon and scorpio rising. I think this has to do with mutability but also my scorpio rising/1st pluto which wants to constantly shed itself..

posted December 15, 2014 07:38 AM            

Though I'm just slightly more mutable than fixed so sometimes I hold on to things that touch me for longer than necessary.

But eventually I get there and I'm done. I will only look back briefly once in a blue moon on things that were *really* special/important. I smile then I close the book again and put it away for another 5-10 years.

posted December 15, 2014 12:21 PM            

Everyone gets a different me. Some mes are easy to let go when the time comes. Others I fight to remember. I'm afraid I'll eventually forget all the great mes I've been and eventually be stuck with just the me I am.

posted December 15, 2014 12:39 PM            

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Originally posted by midnightvenus:
I'm a Sag Moon and I very much relate to this.
Sometimes I just wish I could simply erase all of my past and start again in a place far, far away where nobody knows me.

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I have moon in Sagittarius too, and I have very often felt this way! I daydream about starting over a lot...going somewhere where no one knows me and just starting over, never looking back. I've even fantasized about faking my own death, lol!

posted December 15, 2014 01:15 PM            

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Originally posted by wheresthemoon:
I have moon in Sagittarius too, and I have very often felt this way! I daydream about starting over a lot...going somewhere where no one knows me and just starting over, never looking back. I've even fantasized about faking my own death, lol!

My chart is mainly cardinal but my draconic chart is a LOT more mutable. I do relate to this. Pushing people out of my life, cutting all ties, and avoiding things that remind me of anything from certain unpleasant parts of my life. It's really the only way I know how to handle those painful situations where nothing is going to give. Purge and move on. The difference is that being mainly cardinal (with a lot of cancer influence) I never do let go of those sentimental feelings about things. I will always look over my shoulder at what I left behind.

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SAME. Since I can't really fake my death, I just keep thinking of ways I can somehow disappear.
Like, delete my Facebook account, change my phone number or something. lol

My Draconic Moon is also in a Mutable sign: Gemini.
I kinda have a Water 'void' though.
So it could be easy for me to let go, although my Fixed side hates to get out of the comfort zone.

posted December 15, 2014 04:24 PM            

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Originally posted by midnightvenus:
I'm a Sag Moon and I very much relate to this.
Sometimes I just wish I could simply erase all of my past and start again in a place far, far away where nobody knows me.

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posted December 15, 2014 04:44 PM            

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Originally posted by LucieLemonade:
I have a Sag moon and I actually did this. A couple of times.
But my fixed side likes that we now have Facebook. I can be superficially connected.

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I never got the $$$chance$$$ to do it.
But I'm still young, so I guess I've got time.

posted December 15, 2014 05:39 PM            

It's interesting that you mentioned revisiting media, I've been wondering about it the other day. Rewatching a movie or rereading a book would be an anomaly in my case but I think that's because I simply prefer to try something new instead. I may rewatch a scene on youtube if I liked it a lot/need it for some reason. I'm more interested in rewatching childhood shows I remember I enjoyed a lot but don't remember well.

posted December 15, 2014 05:41 PM            

But I kind long for old friendships though, and just because you're mutable you can also have old friendships? I look at it this way. A bee that is out to get it's nectar loves every flower, no matter if that flower change it's color, the bee will still love it, and the bee will still visit every flower every year. It might change, but it's still from the same "place". It might vary and differ from year to year, but it's not going to change fundamentally. Maybe it's a bad example. but I think just because you change through the year, you can still have many different faces that is all likable and you still love the basically same stuff, even though it change a little.

posted December 16, 2014 03:16 PM            

Yep, pretty much.
I don't go so far as movies, shows, or music.
Rarely do it even take it so far as a place that I like to eat or things like that.

posted December 16, 2014 06:49 PM            

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Originally posted by midnightvenus:
I never got the $$$chance$$$ to do it.
But I'm still young, so I guess I've got time.

I used to like Facebook, but it's starting to get on my nerves lol

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I don't know how young you are but i did it twice. First time i was 17, second time I was 27. Third....? We'll see! Those are just the times I was alone. My x and I also moved together twice. You might just get your chance.

posted December 16, 2014 08:56 PM            

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Originally posted by midnightvenus:
SAME. Since I can't really fake my death, I just keep thinking of ways I can somehow disappear.
Like, delete my Facebook account, change my phone number or something. lol

My Draconic Moon is also in a Mutable sign: Gemini.
I kinda have a Water 'void' though.
So it could be easy for me to let go, although my Fixed side hates to get out of the comfort zone.

But, I know what you mean.
My Sag Moon is in the 8th house, so I always end up looking over my shoulder as well.
And even when I'm over something someone did to me, I still make plans in my head to get back at them. lmao

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While I've never deleted my Facebook account, I have always been fascinated by the idea of a secret life. So I'll make secret accounts under secret made up names and just post whatever I want. I love the freedom.

My draconic sun is gemini, moon pisces, mars virgo=)

posted December 16, 2014 11:00 PM            

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So funny that you talk about making plans in your head to get back at someone! Hahaha. There are people who literally wronged me DECADES ago that I fantasize about punishing. I don't really know where this comes from...I thought Scorpio was the vindictive sign, and I only have pluto in scorpio. I do have a hard Venus/Pluto aspect though, and some water placements, including Mars in Cancer (passive/aggressive). But yeah I'll just sit and think up ways to ruin their lives. I'm not sure if I would ever do anything, but one can dream.

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