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lionseye***
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posted May 14, 2009 04:52 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for lionseye***     Edit/Delete Message
Just wondering if anyone has heard from him, or keeps in touch with him. I actually think about him. He affected me somehow. He made me feel really sad, and mad, and annoyed and self-rightous, and sanctified and understood and bloody violated and etc etc etc. He made me feel too much and I didn't like it. But I didn't hate it either. Anyone know what's up with him?

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Writesomething
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posted May 14, 2009 04:58 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Writesomething     Edit/Delete Message
he's Valus now.

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blue moon
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posted May 14, 2009 08:03 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for blue moon     Edit/Delete Message
Yeah, where are you HSC? You aren't making enough efforts at being irritating in your current guise.

You also have a usurper. But somehow Coffee doesn't kick it quick like you do. But he's still quite punchable, all the same.

Politics, that's my suggestion. Good for bored brains, with plenty of opportunities to be argumentative with people who won't cry if you rip them to shreds. Ladies reading should be careful though, some of the old fellas get a bit excited if you get feisty. Expect to be chased around a couple of tables.


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Valus
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posted May 14, 2009 08:38 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Valus     Edit/Delete Message

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blue moon
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posted May 14, 2009 08:46 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for blue moon     Edit/Delete Message
You mean you don't do it on purpose? Not always, but sometimes.

I do, but not here. Like I say, politics, good outlet. Slightly more constructive than a bar brawl, just a notch.

Look at the pack of wasters we have now, Coffee, you should stand up for election. You've got more brains than most of them (not much of a compliment, I know), and it would solve any cash flow problems.

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Yin
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posted May 14, 2009 08:58 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Yin     Edit/Delete Message
Stephen makes this site exciting in a gut-wrenching, ego-shattering, dark-side-revealing kind of way.
I admire that.(secretly)

Edited: Sorry, Stephen, not Steven

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Valus
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posted May 14, 2009 09:18 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Valus     Edit/Delete Message
blue moon,

With aspects like these,
I dont have to try to stir sh-t up:

Uranus conjunct Midheaven by 6 minutes

(you dont need me to list
the rest of them, do you?)

On the contrary..

Its like walking through a minefield
trying NOT to ruffle feathers here.

Yes, I'm different.

Not trying, just being.

Love it, hate it, leave it alone.


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blue moon
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posted May 14, 2009 09:20 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for blue moon     Edit/Delete Message
It's O.K, I have to go to the Post Office now.

Some time later, maybe in a bar. I think actually your Sun/Uranus is Square my Mars. It would be a good night out.

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Valus
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posted May 14, 2009 09:28 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Valus     Edit/Delete Message

Thanks, Yin.

I'm really trying to keep the
gut-wrenching to a minimum.

What was it Nietzsche said
about people who think they are peaceful
just because they have no claws?

...and then there are folks like me.


Stephen

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Yin
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posted May 14, 2009 09:44 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Yin     Edit/Delete Message
You bring me into the corners of my soul where I really am afraid to look.
That's why I never participate in your threads.
Just getting over my own depression.

Keep on rocking the boat!

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Valus
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posted May 14, 2009 10:12 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Valus     Edit/Delete Message

I hear you.

I'm afraid to look, too.

But I'm like this guy:


I'd choose not to participate in my threads, too,
if I had any real choice in the matter.

Scorpios will be Scorpios.

And Uranian Scorpios will be...

rockin' the boat.

love to you,
glad to hear you are recovering,

live some life for me,
Valus

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LEXX
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posted May 14, 2009 10:46 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message
quote:
Scorpios will be Scorpios
It is not that simple.

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Everyone is a teacher...
Everyone is a student...
Learning is eternal.
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Yin
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posted May 14, 2009 10:47 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Yin     Edit/Delete Message
Chart Ruler Uranus in the 8th in Scorpio here.
I know all about poking people's shells until they start bleeding.

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Deux*Antares
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posted May 14, 2009 08:13 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Deux*Antares     Edit/Delete Message
Off-topic: What's wrong with Edward Zizorhands hair? No-wash philosophy?

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D for Defiant
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posted May 14, 2009 10:05 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for D for Defiant     Edit/Delete Message
Hi Valus,

Would you like to explain the definition of your new name for me, Steve? I would appreciate it.

LEXX,

I agree. It is not that simple. Just like saying "Aquarians will be Aquarians" (as I am a solar Aquarian)- that would be an extremely oversimplified and misleading statement.

By the way, Valus- why did you decide to change your username? Would you like to share with us? Thanks.

D

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The opposite of love is indeed hate, not indifference, for indifference is a form of detachment, and both love and hate are two forms of attachment, and detachment is naturally the opposite of both the two forms of attachment. There are many theories of the relationships between love and hate, but ultimately, hate is death force, which creates untimely or chronic destruction; whereas love is life force, which brings life.

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WinkAway
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posted May 15, 2009 01:53 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for WinkAway     Edit/Delete Message
awwww a thread for one of my favorite members!!

Howz are ya Valus?

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"I'm selfish, impatient, & a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control and at times I'm hard to handle, but if you cant handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marliyn Monroe

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WinkAway
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posted May 15, 2009 01:53 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for WinkAway     Edit/Delete Message
awwww a thread for one of my favorite members!!

Howz are ya Valus?

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"I'm selfish, impatient, & a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control and at times I'm hard to handle, but if you cant handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marliyn Monroe

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Valus
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posted May 15, 2009 03:12 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Valus     Edit/Delete Message
LEXX,

quote:
It's not that simple.

It never is.

"Truth is context;
the 'whole truth'
has never been spoken;
by anyone; ever."
~ Valus

But I've grown tired of providing context.
The more you give, the more "they" demand.
Some people just don't want to understand,
and I'm not going to exhaust myself trying
to justify anything to anyone whose esteem,
ultimately, means very little to me.

Some people have nothing better to do
than provoke, pick fights, and find fault.
Some people can't let anything rest.
Peace, to them, is anathema.

They will never understand simplicity,
or the grace of meaningful understatement;
that some things are fine just as they are.

We have arrived at no consensus in the past,
and I see no reason to suspect that we will
accomplish anything new by comparing notes
once more on the ongoing contraversy that is HSC.

You disagree with me, my ideas, feelings, tastes?
Something I said (or almost said) once upon a time;
that's already been smothered, buried, prayed over,
dug up, dissected, and reburied in an unmarked grave?

Good for you. Tell a friend.


D for Defiant,

quote:

Would you like to explain the definition of your new name for me, Steve? I would appreciate it.

I coined it.
Its just my name.
But the root is latin,
valere --
"to be strong".

quote:

By the way, Valus- why did you decide to change your username? Would you like to share with us? Thanks.

I felt like it.

For one thing,
its easier to type.


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"The secret of Zen
is just two words:
not always so."

- Shrunryu Suzuki

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Valus
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posted May 15, 2009 03:13 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Valus     Edit/Delete Message
been better, wink

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lionseye***
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posted May 16, 2009 04:18 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for lionseye***     Edit/Delete Message
...so ummm. How are you Valus? Still tormented as ever, with the occasional glimps of sunlight? Still doing naughty, soul numbing things? NOT my business...I know. But I'm asking none the less. I still think you're frightfully insightfull and a born healer of some sort. What are you up too? Eh, you don't have to tell me. Just wondering if life is treating you ok.

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Valus
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posted May 16, 2009 02:10 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Valus     Edit/Delete Message

"naughty, soul-numbing things"

LOL, well, if you've got
as much soul as I do, sister,
you're looking to numb it, too.
Or, at least, to do
SOMETHING with it.

But I'm not sure what you mean.

You mean, like killing cows
and living off their flesh?

No, I gave that up.
There's some interesting stuff
in a book called "Spiritual Unfoldment"
(by White Eagle) which discusses,
among other things, how the consumption
of animal flesh dulls and dims the soul.

Still eating chicken, though,
but not in denial about what it is.
I'm not sure if that makes me
a hippocrite or a realist, lol.

I'm not in any abusive relationships,
either, which is a big one for some.
Even relationships that are not frank and open,
and relatively free of dissimulation, are soul-numbing.
Relationships are the drug of choice for most of us,
and they are certainly abused by a great many of us.
I cannot imagine anything more suffocating to my soul
than being stuck in a partnership with someone
with whom I cannot fully be (fully express) myself.
And yet, this is what most people do,
constantly sacrificing the best of themselves
in order to preserve an appearance of harmony.
I'd rather be crushed by loneliness, any day.

The same can be said about jobs and careers.
I'd rather put the body underground,
and check out the next incarnation scene,
than sell my soul for security in some
dead-end, self-sucking, soul-sabotaging job.
I've always been prepared to live and die by
the words: "give me liberty, or give me death".

And, what else...
I rarely ever even drink alcohol,
one of the biggest soul-numbers
known to mankind.

I do, however,
take psychedelics occassionally,
but that is the opposite
of soul-numbing.

It always cheers me up,
for a day or two, at least,
when I can reconnect
with those energies.

Some info here,
for the uneducated
and propaganda-fed:

Ram Dass talks about LSD:
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum3/HTML/002252.html

Terence McKenna talks about
psychedelics and society:
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum2/HTML/003790.html

Ayahuasca,
Sacred Healing Plant:
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum3/HTML/002346.html

CNN Study Shows Psilocybin Mushrooms
Have Long-Lasting Positive Effects:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOszqH3N1SU

As for marijuana,
it may or may not be numbing.
And I may or may not
be benefitting by its use.
Unless you live with a similarly
highly sensitized nervous system,
you aren't really in a place to judge.
But there's plenty of propaganda
to support any assumptions you
might care to make about that one.

Thanks for the good stuff.
Yes, I am a born healer,
a lover and dreamer and teacher.
And, yes, many of my insights are,
and ought to be recognized as,
potentially mind-shattering
keys to higher awareness.
While biding my time on this rock,
and trying to contribute something,
I've written aphorisms that
suffer nothing by comparison
with some of the most respected
and immortal utterances of man.
Its nice when someone sort of notices.
Thanks.

Life is the same
moody rollercoaster for me
that it has always been.
Everyday I make the journey
from loving myself,
and feeling priceless,
to hating myself,
and feeling worthless;
from feeling hope in the future,
to wanting to end my own life,
(and back to hope, if there's time).

Some days I get blindsided
by the most incredible sadness.
It doesnt happen more than
once a week, but, when it does,
I am convulsing in sobs,
and feeling waves of the most
delicious shame, self-pity and self-hatred.
Don't get me wrong: I cry most days,
but this is something completely different.
I've described it as feeling like
injections of ice-water, and that
is hardly an exaggeration at all.
Its really a symphony of melancholy.
In the several years that I've been
seeing a certain therapist, I never
called her "off the clock" for anything,
but the other day I reached out and left
a message in the midst of one of these
"attacks", and she called back,
a little shocked, and said I sounded
like I had a broken heart; just awful.
And thats what it feels like.
Retrograde Venus in Scorpio, anyone?
I'm glad she got to hear it, because
she only sees me when I am feeling
capable of leaving the house,
and interacting with other people, --
she almost never sees how bad it gets.

Recently,
I met someone who
I am hopeful about,
and that has made my
days easier to bear.
But that also comes
with a new set of heartaches.
Nevertheless,
like the piano man said,
"its better than drinking alone".


peace,
Valus

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Valus
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posted May 16, 2009 02:26 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Valus     Edit/Delete Message

If you want to respond to me more,
I suggest using my thread in "Know Two.."

This thread, in this forum,
will mostly attract flies.


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Aquila non captat muscas

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D for Defiant
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posted May 18, 2009 01:50 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for D for Defiant     Edit/Delete Message
Valus

Yeah, it is much easier to type! And the root of the name has a very positive definition! I wish you brighter days and less tears shed, my friend!

I will visit your thread at "Know Two..." some time later on. I must limit my time online each time I use the Internet, because my eyes are extremely delicate. But I will come onto that thread eventually.

D

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The opposite of love is indeed hate, not indifference, for indifference is a form of detachment, and both love and hate are two forms of attachment, and detachment is naturally the opposite of both the two forms of attachment. There are many theories of the relationships between love and hate, but ultimately, hate is death force, which creates untimely or chronic destruction; whereas love is life force, which brings life.

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