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Topic: Where is HSC?
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lionseye*** Knowflake Posts: 47 From: edmonton, ab. ca Registered: May 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 04:52 AM
Just wondering if anyone has heard from him, or keeps in touch with him. I actually think about him. He affected me somehow. He made me feel really sad, and mad, and annoyed and self-rightous, and sanctified and understood and bloody violated and etc etc etc. He made me feel too much and I didn't like it. But I didn't hate it either. Anyone know what's up with him?IP: Logged |
Writesomething Knowflake Posts: 642 From: meet me in montauk Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 04:58 AM
he's Valus now.IP: Logged |
blue moon Knowflake Posts: 139 From: U.K Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 08:03 AM
Yeah, where are you HSC? You aren't making enough efforts at being irritating in your current guise. You also have a usurper. But somehow Coffee doesn't kick it quick like you do. But he's still quite punchable, all the same. Politics, that's my suggestion. Good for bored brains, with plenty of opportunities to be argumentative with people who won't cry if you rip them to shreds. Ladies reading should be careful though, some of the old fellas get a bit excited if you get feisty. Expect to be chased around a couple of tables.
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Valus Knowflake Posts: 184 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 08:38 AM
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blue moon Knowflake Posts: 139 From: U.K Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 08:46 AM
You mean you don't do it on purpose? Not always, but sometimes.I do, but not here. Like I say, politics, good outlet. Slightly more constructive than a bar brawl, just a notch. Look at the pack of wasters we have now, Coffee, you should stand up for election. You've got more brains than most of them (not much of a compliment, I know), and it would solve any cash flow problems. IP: Logged |
Yin Knowflake Posts: 112 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 08:58 AM
Stephen makes this site exciting in a gut-wrenching, ego-shattering, dark-side-revealing kind of way. I admire that.(secretly)Edited: Sorry, Stephen, not Steven IP: Logged |
Valus Knowflake Posts: 184 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 09:18 AM
blue moon,With aspects like these, I dont have to try to stir sh-t up: Uranus conjunct Midheaven by 6 minutes (you dont need me to list the rest of them, do you?) On the contrary.. Its like walking through a minefield trying NOT to ruffle feathers here. Yes, I'm different. Not trying, just being. Love it, hate it, leave it alone.
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blue moon Knowflake Posts: 139 From: U.K Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 09:20 AM
It's O.K, I have to go to the Post Office now. Some time later, maybe in a bar. I think actually your Sun/Uranus is Square my Mars. It would be a good night out. IP: Logged |
Valus Knowflake Posts: 184 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 09:28 AM
Thanks, Yin.I'm really trying to keep the gut-wrenching to a minimum. What was it Nietzsche said about people who think they are peaceful just because they have no claws? ...and then there are folks like me. Stephen IP: Logged |
Yin Knowflake Posts: 112 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 09:44 AM
You bring me into the corners of my soul where I really am afraid to look. That's why I never participate in your threads. Just getting over my own depression.Keep on rocking the boat! IP: Logged |
Valus Knowflake Posts: 184 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 10:12 AM
I hear you.I'm afraid to look, too. But I'm like this guy: I'd choose not to participate in my threads, too, if I had any real choice in the matter.
Scorpios will be Scorpios. And Uranian Scorpios will be... rockin' the boat. love to you, glad to hear you are recovering, live some life for me, Valus
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LEXX Moderator Posts: 189 From: Still out looking for Schrödinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 10:46 AM
quote: Scorpios will be Scorpios
It is not that simple.------------------ Everyone is a teacher... Everyone is a student... Learning is eternal. }><}}(*> IP: Logged |
Yin Knowflake Posts: 112 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 10:47 AM
Chart Ruler Uranus in the 8th in Scorpio here. I know all about poking people's shells until they start bleeding. IP: Logged |
Deux*Antares Knowflake Posts: 77 From: No Permanent Address Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 08:13 PM
Off-topic: What's wrong with Edward Zizorhands hair? No-wash philosophy?IP: Logged |
D for Defiant Knowflake Posts: 34 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 14, 2009 10:05 PM
Hi Valus,Would you like to explain the definition of your new name for me, Steve? I would appreciate it. LEXX, I agree. It is not that simple. Just like saying "Aquarians will be Aquarians" (as I am a solar Aquarian)- that would be an extremely oversimplified and misleading statement. By the way, Valus- why did you decide to change your username? Would you like to share with us? Thanks. D ------------------ The opposite of love is indeed hate, not indifference, for indifference is a form of detachment, and both love and hate are two forms of attachment, and detachment is naturally the opposite of both the two forms of attachment. There are many theories of the relationships between love and hate, but ultimately, hate is death force, which creates untimely or chronic destruction; whereas love is life force, which brings life.
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WinkAway Knowflake Posts: 52 From: Murray, UT Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 15, 2009 01:53 AM
awwww a thread for one of my favorite members!!Howz are ya Valus? ------------------ "I'm selfish, impatient, & a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control and at times I'm hard to handle, but if you cant handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marliyn Monroe
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WinkAway Knowflake Posts: 52 From: Murray, UT Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 15, 2009 01:53 AM
awwww a thread for one of my favorite members!!Howz are ya Valus? ------------------ "I'm selfish, impatient, & a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control and at times I'm hard to handle, but if you cant handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marliyn Monroe
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Valus Knowflake Posts: 184 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 15, 2009 03:12 AM
LEXX, quote: It's not that simple.
It never is.
"Truth is context; the 'whole truth' has never been spoken; by anyone; ever." ~ Valus
But I've grown tired of providing context. The more you give, the more "they" demand. Some people just don't want to understand, and I'm not going to exhaust myself trying to justify anything to anyone whose esteem, ultimately, means very little to me. Some people have nothing better to do than provoke, pick fights, and find fault. Some people can't let anything rest. Peace, to them, is anathema. They will never understand simplicity, or the grace of meaningful understatement; that some things are fine just as they are. We have arrived at no consensus in the past, and I see no reason to suspect that we will accomplish anything new by comparing notes once more on the ongoing contraversy that is HSC. You disagree with me, my ideas, feelings, tastes? Something I said (or almost said) once upon a time; that's already been smothered, buried, prayed over, dug up, dissected, and reburied in an unmarked grave? Good for you. Tell a friend. D for Defiant,
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Would you like to explain the definition of your new name for me, Steve? I would appreciate it.
I coined it. Its just my name. But the root is latin, valere -- "to be strong". quote:
By the way, Valus- why did you decide to change your username? Would you like to share with us? Thanks.
I felt like it. For one thing, its easier to type. ____________________________________________
"The secret of Zen is just two words: not always so."
- Shrunryu Suzuki
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Valus Knowflake Posts: 184 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 15, 2009 03:13 AM
been better, wink IP: Logged |
lionseye*** Knowflake Posts: 47 From: edmonton, ab. ca Registered: May 2009
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posted May 16, 2009 04:18 AM
...so ummm. How are you Valus? Still tormented as ever, with the occasional glimps of sunlight? Still doing naughty, soul numbing things? NOT my business...I know. But I'm asking none the less. I still think you're frightfully insightfull and a born healer of some sort. What are you up too? Eh, you don't have to tell me. Just wondering if life is treating you ok. IP: Logged |
Valus Knowflake Posts: 184 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 16, 2009 02:10 PM
"naughty, soul-numbing things"LOL, well, if you've got as much soul as I do, sister, you're looking to numb it, too. Or, at least, to do SOMETHING with it. But I'm not sure what you mean. You mean, like killing cows and living off their flesh? No, I gave that up. There's some interesting stuff in a book called "Spiritual Unfoldment" (by White Eagle) which discusses, among other things, how the consumption of animal flesh dulls and dims the soul. Still eating chicken, though, but not in denial about what it is. I'm not sure if that makes me a hippocrite or a realist, lol. I'm not in any abusive relationships, either, which is a big one for some. Even relationships that are not frank and open, and relatively free of dissimulation, are soul-numbing. Relationships are the drug of choice for most of us, and they are certainly abused by a great many of us. I cannot imagine anything more suffocating to my soul than being stuck in a partnership with someone with whom I cannot fully be (fully express) myself. And yet, this is what most people do, constantly sacrificing the best of themselves in order to preserve an appearance of harmony. I'd rather be crushed by loneliness, any day. The same can be said about jobs and careers. I'd rather put the body underground, and check out the next incarnation scene, than sell my soul for security in some dead-end, self-sucking, soul-sabotaging job. I've always been prepared to live and die by the words: "give me liberty, or give me death". And, what else... I rarely ever even drink alcohol, one of the biggest soul-numbers known to mankind. I do, however, take psychedelics occassionally, but that is the opposite of soul-numbing. It always cheers me up, for a day or two, at least, when I can reconnect with those energies. Some info here, for the uneducated and propaganda-fed: Ram Dass talks about LSD: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum3/HTML/002252.html Terence McKenna talks about psychedelics and society: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum2/HTML/003790.html Ayahuasca, Sacred Healing Plant: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum3/HTML/002346.html CNN Study Shows Psilocybin Mushrooms Have Long-Lasting Positive Effects: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOszqH3N1SU As for marijuana, it may or may not be numbing. And I may or may not be benefitting by its use. Unless you live with a similarly highly sensitized nervous system, you aren't really in a place to judge. But there's plenty of propaganda to support any assumptions you might care to make about that one. Thanks for the good stuff. Yes, I am a born healer, a lover and dreamer and teacher. And, yes, many of my insights are, and ought to be recognized as, potentially mind-shattering keys to higher awareness. While biding my time on this rock, and trying to contribute something, I've written aphorisms that suffer nothing by comparison with some of the most respected and immortal utterances of man. Its nice when someone sort of notices. Thanks. Life is the same moody rollercoaster for me that it has always been. Everyday I make the journey from loving myself, and feeling priceless, to hating myself, and feeling worthless; from feeling hope in the future, to wanting to end my own life, (and back to hope, if there's time). Some days I get blindsided by the most incredible sadness. It doesnt happen more than once a week, but, when it does, I am convulsing in sobs, and feeling waves of the most delicious shame, self-pity and self-hatred. Don't get me wrong: I cry most days, but this is something completely different. I've described it as feeling like injections of ice-water, and that is hardly an exaggeration at all. Its really a symphony of melancholy. In the several years that I've been seeing a certain therapist, I never called her "off the clock" for anything, but the other day I reached out and left a message in the midst of one of these "attacks", and she called back, a little shocked, and said I sounded like I had a broken heart; just awful. And thats what it feels like. Retrograde Venus in Scorpio, anyone? I'm glad she got to hear it, because she only sees me when I am feeling capable of leaving the house, and interacting with other people, -- she almost never sees how bad it gets. Recently, I met someone who I am hopeful about, and that has made my days easier to bear. But that also comes with a new set of heartaches. Nevertheless, like the piano man said, "its better than drinking alone". peace, Valus
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Valus Knowflake Posts: 184 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 16, 2009 02:26 PM
If you want to respond to me more, I suggest using my thread in "Know Two.."This thread, in this forum, will mostly attract flies. -------------------------------------------
Aquila non captat muscas
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D for Defiant Knowflake Posts: 34 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 18, 2009 01:50 AM
Valus Yeah, it is much easier to type! And the root of the name has a very positive definition! I wish you brighter days and less tears shed, my friend! I will visit your thread at "Know Two..." some time later on. I must limit my time online each time I use the Internet, because my eyes are extremely delicate. But I will come onto that thread eventually. D ------------------ The opposite of love is indeed hate, not indifference, for indifference is a form of detachment, and both love and hate are two forms of attachment, and detachment is naturally the opposite of both the two forms of attachment. There are many theories of the relationships between love and hate, but ultimately, hate is death force, which creates untimely or chronic destruction; whereas love is life force, which brings life.
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