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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010

posted December 08, 2010 04:38 AM            

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Lonake had it right.
This is my thrown off part.
I have met it on the outside MANY times, too.
Hmmmm, this is the one to think about.

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It is either a blessing or a builder of intestinal fortitude,Bruh.

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From: Down the Rabbit Hole
Registered: Jun 2009

posted December 08, 2010 12:51 PM            

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Me too.

It is the monster that lurks within. An inner rage that seethes. I hide that part of myself a lot. It is ugly to me.

Mars in Fire.

I think Virgoan types are prone to eruptions. We surpress a lot.

I have been known to break things, throw things, say horrible, cruel words when angry.

I try not to let myself go there, I'm afraid of what I will do or say when pushed.

My fuse is shorter than I want it to be, sometimes I think anger management would be appropriate.

I seek positive outlets for that side. Calming music, etc.

My apologies are always sincere, I forgive easily, the storms blow over as quickly as they arrive.

I never forget though.

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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted December 08, 2010 01:07 PM            

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I realize that it is my aggression of which I am MOST afraid
Last night was a total blessing for me.
I am sooo glad I have been real on LL,everything from PDF ,to my angst ,to my literally wanting to jump through the computer and eviserate people lol
ALL that is real. All that has been suppressed so I could be "nice" and not "bad"
WHAT is "bad"?
Everything that is not "nice"

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If you want to understand other people's humanity,look at your own,Bruh

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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted December 08, 2010 01:08 PM            

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This is what want in a word. I want to be an authentic person.
I would do most anything to get there.

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If you want to understand other people's humanity,look at your own,Bruh

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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted December 08, 2010 01:15 PM            

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What is "bad"?
Selfishness
Pettiness
Wanting anything just for YOU
Needing anything just for YOU
Wanting to meet your basic ego needs
for acceptance and approval
Sexuality---VERY bad

To be continued

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If you want to understand other people's humanity,look at your own,Bruh

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