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Topic: I Feel Angry At Many LL People
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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 06:30 AM
I feel angry at people who were my friends not standing up for me when I was bullied. 5 people did. AG Sunchild Popcorn Lonkake Mblake My desire to open myself on LL has gone out,to a large extent.
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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 06:33 AM
2 people gave me genuine apologies-MM and AB.They realized that they have no RIGHT to try to shut me up when I am expressing myself in the way that *I* do. I respect them. That takes maturity and guts. I don;t think either of them "like" me. However, they acted with character and integrity. I respect them.They don't have to like me. ------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I?
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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 06:38 AM
Firecracker tried to weenie out of her apology when she saw an out. Kat tried to tell me I was not being bullied but actually being helped and I should be grateful. I would not allow that.However,my point in bring them up is that FC and Kat and I have realized that we are not going to be friends. We, each,have our separate spaces on LL .We will interact as LL members,only. I think they respect me enough not to try to bully me ,again. That is FINE with me. Part of life is not liking certain people. Certain people annoy you or irritates you. You want to punch them or make them shut up lol This reality of not liking other people exists for every flawed human being on this earth. All that is fine .You just can't ACT it out, though. FC,Kat and I know who we are to each other and where we stand. That is cool with me. I am down with that . PS I wanted to add that Star of Venus Girl initially attacked me and then thought better of it. I think she realized she better modify her stance cuz I was an unexpected fighter . I think my strength was unexpected by her and everyone. I could not have been strong if the few people did not help me ,though. No one can be strong without anyone, I don't think. ------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I? IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 06:41 AM
This is what really got me to write this ,today. I HONOR what Bear Archers suffered with pregnancies. I want her to have a place she can share horrible pain and be comforted. As *I* was comforting her, I was getting angry. COULD she have brought HER pain here if *I* had not brought mine??In all humility, I think I blazed trails that other people can now take such as Bear Archers and other people.
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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 06:45 AM
4 people attacked me. FC,Kat,PS and Bear Archers( a half attack) I talked about FC and Kat.Pluto Square has violated my trust to such an extent that I have severed my relationship with her beyond simple LL respect which I strive to give everyone. BA half attacked me. She pig piled on but her heart was not in it. When she could weenie out of it,she did. I am angry about that. I am angry JUST to leave all this unsaid and go on as if nothing happened. I can't just do that. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 06:50 AM
Char and a bunch of people attacked me on the thread on LL2 I made the point to all of them that I have the right to exist and I am not going,anywhere. I don't expect any of them to ever like me but I do expect simple respect as I will try to do to them. My question in ALL of this is "Why didn't the people whom I love, here, reach out to help me?????" People whom I love and who love me saw me going under. Why didn't you help me?
That is my 8th house question,for today lol Any genuine answer is acceptable. Please don't start a fight JUST to fight. Then, I will have to close the thread. Any honest dialogue is desired.
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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 07:03 AM
I HAVE ASKED A SERIOUS QUESTION.PLEASE GIVE SERIOUS ANSWERS,ONLY. Thank you IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 3112 From: Columbus, GA USA Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 12, 2010 08:22 AM
You have to have a tough skin to be a Mod here. It comes with the territory. Some people don't like me. You just have to roll with it. ------------------ "Everything I eat has been proved by some doctor or other to be a deadly poison, and everything I don't eat has been proved to be indispensable for life. But I go marching on."--George Bernard Shaw IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 08:25 AM
Is it OK to ask this question,Randall? If not, erase my thread,please ------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I? IP: Logged |
Amphitrite Knowflake Posts: 165 From: Registered: Jun 2009
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posted December 12, 2010 08:31 AM
I think that is just generally true in life. Sometimes people will like you and sometimes they won't. It can sometimes hurt though when you think people are your friends and their actions don't necessarily make that clear. Don't be angry, Ami. Just continue to post what you want to post, say what you want to say, and be who you want to be. You still have friends here, and people who appreciate you and your contributions, so try not to feel sad about what you are unable to control. Amph IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 4179 From: Still out looking for Schr�dinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 12, 2010 09:46 AM
I am staying out of the dramas as much as possible and trying hard not to be not taking sides nor pointing fingers good or bad. There are a few here at LL who detest me too. Their problem not mine. Cannot please everyone. Hopefully the dramas will let up soon. Sorry if that offends, but I have enough on my plate without getting involved in these online dramas any more. I am here to share and learn. ------------------ Everyone is a teacher... Everyone is a student... Learning is eternal...LEXX ~Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known. ~Carl Sagan ~The present time is theirs, but the future is mine. ~Nikola Tesla" ~Love is the key to all that is good in life! ~But firstly, love thyself! }><}}(*>♥<*){{><{ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 09:53 AM
That is totally cool,Lexx. I can see you stayed out of it ALL the way. That has integrity,in my book! Thanks for sharing that. ------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I? IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 09:57 AM
Thank you ,Amph I did not do this thread FOR appreciation but I would not mind some cuz I DO feel bruised. I appreciate you ,right back!------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I? IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 4179 From: Still out looking for Schr�dinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 12, 2010 09:58 AM
Ami quote: This is what really got me to write this ,today. I HONOR what Bear Archers suffered with pregnancies. I want her to have a place she can share horrible pain and be comforted. As *I* was comforting her, I was getting angry. COULD she have brought HER pain here if *I* had not brought mine??In all humility, I think I blazed trails that other people can now take such as Bear Archers and other people.
Ami..... the trails you feel you have blazed are not all new at LL. Dear BA has posted before many times about her pregnancies and losses. So have I. She has many times brought her pain here long before you were here. Thank you for starting topics on sensitive issues. However, fact is; these topics were not unheard of at LL. There is now simply a place to consolidate such adult topics. There have been many threads about childhood abuse, rape, suicide, depression, and more at LL started by many different folks, not just you. Sorry if I have offended you. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 10:03 AM
Dear Lexx I do think I opened up SOME doors and I will take credit for some part of it,only.If I did or not cannot be argued cuz it is unarguable cuz it is an intangible. So, we best just leave it in the realm of intangibles, Friend. ------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I? IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 4179 From: Still out looking for Schr�dinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 12, 2010 10:07 AM
Alrighty then. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 10:11 AM
OK, Lexx, You too I wish all good things on you in the days to come---only peace and joy in your life!------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I? IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 4179 From: Still out looking for Schr�dinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 12, 2010 10:26 AM
Peace and happiness to you! IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 10:31 AM
There IS something about great suffering which you and I have had ,for sure,Lexx, that allows you and I to love each other with differences and to walk away in love. Maybe, we have tasted the bottom in such a way that we know how and when to let go ------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I? IP: Logged |
BanxManx Knowflake Posts: 220 From: Venus Registered: Nov 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 10:35 AM
I love you Ami. IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 4179 From: Still out looking for Schr�dinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 12, 2010 10:40 AM
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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 10:53 AM
THANKS BANX That means everything to me, more than you could ever know or I could EVER say . I love you, too Glad you are back home lol------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I? IP: Logged |
MoonWitch Moderator Posts: 362 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 12, 2010 12:00 PM
I have debated saying anything, responding, etc. But I'm starting to get irritated by all the drama threads and manic energy. I applaud all the people that hold their virtual tongues and focus on other things. Usually I am one of those people. I was attacked plenty and completely unjustly when I first came to LL years ago. I never got apologies. People dont have to be sorry. I understand everyone reacts differently if someone doesnt like them but really... Time to move on. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 3945 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted December 12, 2010 12:07 PM
IF people don't like "drama threads" they don't have to participate such as IQ and Lexx do not. I never see either of them being offensive to other people, though. Their opinion to NOT participate in drama threads is noted by their respectful silence. Moon Witch ------------------ If I am not for myself ,who am I? If I am only for myself, what am I? IP: Logged |
StarrofVenusGirl Moderator Posts: 1159 From: Down the Rabbit Hole Registered: Jun 2009
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posted December 12, 2010 12:13 PM
I agree MoonWitch. But I *have* to say this: Ami, I didn't back off attacking you because I am "afraid" of you or recognized your strength. I decided to leave you alone because you aren't worth my time, as clearly evidenced by this selfish and immature "call out" thread thinly disguised as an effort to "make peace." Everytime things calm down, you or your minions find a way to stir the pot. Even though MysticMelody embraced her Higher Self and told you to do as you will, I agree with her sentiments. You are the problem at LL. You. This place is not about you. You didn't pioneer anything except controversy and rifts. If your so-called friends did not rush to your aid, perhaps they either recognized the wrongness of your actions or like LEXX, are tired of getting dragged into your drama. Have you thought about that? Maybe it's not them. Maybe it's you. And in case there was any doubt, let me be clear. I don't like you either. Not one bit. At best I have felt compassion for the losses you experienced as a mother, or pity for a person who so clearly needs help. I have defended you offline when I saw people toying with your emotions, because I can't stand cruelty. Don't ever mistake anything I do for fear or reluctance to engage you. Consider this the last direct interaction you and I will have. And before you label this an attack, realize that you can't ever play the victim when you go out of your way to provoke. FIN. ------------------ My Chart "The only real wisdom is knowing you know nothing."--Socrates "Love me or hate me, both are in my favor. If you love me I will always be in your heart. If you hate me I will always be in your mind."--Shakespeare "The [true] opposite of love is not hate but indifference..."--Elie Wiesel IP: Logged |