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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted August 25, 2012 08:19 PM
  
Dont mean to make this place a b1tching ground for my problems but September is almost here and my stress is back. It's been 11 years, but the trauma of 9/11 never leaves. At least the ghost horror dreams have subsided over years, but I still dream of unknown souls I've never met. I find out their names and individual stories in my dreams, and true enough, they existed when I investigate. The free falling dreams have returned. I was never in danger of falling out of the building, but I still free fall in my dreams. They seem to go away by the end of each September. This stuff will probably never really go away. But it's depressing the hell out of me thinking of my friends. Septembers have been extra special to me since then. I spend a lot of time in emotional isolation, but I eventually come to term with just how fortunate I am. Is this manifested in astrology? IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted August 25, 2012 08:28 PM
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Dont mean to make this place a b1tching ground for my problems but September is almost here and my stress is back. It's been 11 years, but the trauma of 9/11 never leaves. At least the ghost horror dreams have subsided over years, but I still dream of unknown souls I've never met. I find out their names and individual stories in my dreams, and true enough, they existed when I investigate. The free falling dreams have returned. I was never in danger of falling out of the building, but I still free fall in my dreams. They seem to go away by the end of each September. This stuff will probably never really go away. But it's depressing the hell out of me thinking of my friends. Septembers have been extra special to me since then. I spend a lot of time in emotional isolation, but I eventually come to term with just how fortunate I am. Is this manifested in astrology?
I don't know about the Astrology part but that is fascinating you get names and look them up and they are there! What are you tapping into, I wonder? ------------------
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted August 25, 2012 09:20 PM
Their stories too. Not just names. IP: Logged |
Saraintheski
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posted August 26, 2012 12:45 AM
I want to give you a big hug . I was really young I believe I was in 2nd grade I actually was in Ny about 2 weeks prior and have photo's of myself standing in front of the towers . anyway The absolute randomness of it all and the horror of people trapped in that building and the stories of people who witnessed always get too me HARD. This year I witnessed something violent and horrible in my own life, I actually thought I was going to die and since then every major tragedy such as the movie theater shooting has made me question what is the point ? I feel like a female Woody Allen. I still feel for those people who where forced to jump out of windows on the seemingly perfect day . I actually had a dream earlier this year about it. <3 I know it's just really overwhelming IP: Logged |
ail221
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posted August 26, 2012 12:54 AM
I remember that day I was walking to school and saw the planes flying over head, my middle school right across the water from the towers. Aside from the crying kids in the cafeteria waiting for the call that there parents were ok. The most vivid thing I remember is walking with my mother through that thick cloud of ashes, parts of the planes scattered across the road and flesh. -Window wipes that from my memory. IP: Logged |
YoursTrulyAlways
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posted August 26, 2012 10:30 AM
82nd Floor, Two World Trade Center, aka South TowerUpstairs at 8:46 am. I was among those who chose to exit via the plaza in the midst of confusion. It was the fastest way out, but Splatter was everywhere. IP: Logged |
ShyVirgo1979
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posted August 26, 2012 06:50 PM
Its comforting to me to know I'm not the only one who got depressed over that. I was nowhere near ny I live in ohio. But my bday is sept 12th. It was a depressing bday for a few yrs after that. I have the dvd of the movie they made about it. Every now and then I watch it and feel horrible all over again. So I'm careful not to watch it too much. Just the thought of how it happened from what thet showed via media and of course movies is too much for me. I'm afraid of heights so I've make myself shake thinking about it. I hafta ask u. Do u have an aspect between ur moon and neptune? I only ask bc in synastry it can produce telepathy. So logically speaking, maybe it could produce the same thing in one's natal chart. IP: Logged |
YoursTrulyAlways
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posted August 26, 2012 09:09 PM
No sorry. Moon in 3rd House is Opposite Neptune in 9th House but very wide.IP: Logged |
Saraintheski
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posted August 29, 2012 12:59 AM
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82nd Floor, Two World Trade Center, aka South TowerUpstairs at 8:46 am. I was among those who chose to exit via the plaza in the midst of confusion. It was the fastest way out, but Splatter was everywhere.
Bless you <3 I watch videos every so often of witness accounts , people forced to jump it's amazing that you got out. I often think of the people who thought they where going to be saved up on the roof and being trapped. IP: Logged |
ShyVirgo1979
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posted August 29, 2012 09:37 PM
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No sorry. Moon in 3rd House is Opposite Neptune in 9th House but very wide.
Oh ok. Just wondered. I'm sorry that happened to u. I can't even say 'oh I can just imagine what it was like'. It gives me goosebumps when I imagine so I try not to. Just from watching the movie about it several times, I have issues with high buildings. I took my 14 yr old son to the dentist Monday and I have to park in the parking garage right there in the building and I usually freak if I hafta drive past the 2nd level. Bc the parking garage is all concrete and I picture what I saw in the movie. I'm afraid it will all come tumbling down on me. My son thinks I'm crazy. I am grateful I didn't actually live thru the experience. IP: Logged |
ShyVirgo1979
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posted August 29, 2012 09:40 PM
What does ur 8th house look like? Any planets there like maybe pluto or uranus? What's its ruler? IP: Logged |
YoursTrulyAlways
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posted August 29, 2012 11:44 PM
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What does ur 8th house look like? Any planets there like maybe pluto or uranus? What's its ruler?
My 8th House in Libra is empty, but I understand Libra is ruled by Venus, and my Venus is on the 12th House (at 11th cusp) in Aquarius. My Pluto and Uranus are in my 7th House in Virgo, ruled by Mercury in Capricorn in the 11th House. My Neptune is in the 9th House in Scorpio. This is my Chart Ruler for my Pisces ASC. Scorpio's ruler is Mars, which is also in Capricorn in the 11th House. IP: Logged |
YoursTrulyAlways
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posted August 29, 2012 11:47 PM
Like clockwork, the dreams have become rather bad. I'm free falling again. Or burning to death. I've moved into the guest room away from my wife to give her peace and much needed sleep. I do this every September when the nightmares return. I pretty much stay up all night without sleep. IP: Logged |
Saraintheski
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posted August 30, 2012 12:41 AM
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Like clockwork, the dreams have become rather bad. I'm free falling again. Or burning to death. I've moved into the guest room away from my wife to give her peace and much needed sleep. I do this every September when the nightmares return. I pretty much stay up all night without sleep.
I don't know what to say other than cliche crap , but I have a pisces ac also . Earlier this year I witnessed a murder of someone I knew and was pretty close with , I was shot at but not hit and I was trapped/hiding NOWHERE NEAR AS URGENT as being in the world trade center but terrifying. I stay up every night replaying the 30 minutes that I thought where going to be my last and seeing someone fall with this blank look gasping. The chaos and the shock because it came out of nowhere really made me realize that I need to take time out everyday just to lay and breathe accept being born alone and dying alone. How are people like you or I or anyone who has witnessed the fragility of life via violence/terror supposed to heal? I guess our egos are supposed to die before physical death? Have you ever been to therapy or talked with other survivors?
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted August 30, 2012 10:00 AM
Being shot at is very traumatic! I have been accidentally shot at, but it was a military training accident. Your instance is a deliberate malicious act! And to see someone fall to the ground is extremely traumatic! I'm so sorry!Yes, I have talked to many survivors, but the most painful is consoling the families. I lost three personal friends and one ex-girlfriend. I attended more funerals and memorial services than I cared to attend in 2001. IP: Logged |
Saraintheski
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posted August 30, 2012 10:19 AM
Not enough sorrys and hugs I want to give you or anyone who lived or lost someone on that day ,oddly I was in 2nd grade and just about a week or two before I visited Manhattan with my family and I took a picture of me in Battery park with my arms up in the air the towers behind me in between my arms it's my default on facebook. I should stop watching 9/11 tapes on youtube , the only reason I am alive is because the person who shot at me was confined to the lower level of the house , sadly this was done by someone I cared about , someone who has purposefully toyed with my head and pretty much everyone's head . I now barely leave the house , I constantly think about death, always. Also the Aurora shooting in Colorado really got to me I know the fear I witnessed less blood but I know it and it's a pounding fear that makes you scream like you never thought possible , It also made me accept death/fate more than I ever have and that was somewhat beautiful? I had to hang out a window and silently get attention . That was the first day I murmured bless you ( to the woman who called 911) walking by . That was the first time I think I truly meant it .IP: Logged |
cappy1277
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posted August 30, 2012 05:35 PM
YTA...I suffer from PTSD too. I have tried meds & I was in therapy for 2 years. I still suffer from nightmares but not as frequent as before. I was diagnosed about 6 years but I have been dealing with it for the last 9 years. I have actually passed out from loud noises before. I think with our gemini moons, we are extra sensitive with our anxiety. No matter what I do, I still remember and feel like it all happened yesterday sometimes. IP: Logged |
ShyVirgo1979
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posted August 31, 2012 01:24 PM
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My 8th House in Libra is empty, but I understand Libra is ruled by Venus, and my Venus is on the 12th House (at 11th cusp) in Aquarius. My Pluto and Uranus are in my 7th House in Virgo, ruled by Mercury in Capricorn in the 11th House. My Neptune is in the 9th House in Scorpio. This is my Chart Ruler for my Pisces ASC. Scorpio's ruler is Mars, which is also in Capricorn in the 11th House.
So if I read ur post right and applied it correctly, u have ruler of the 8th in the 12th. I can't copy and paste very well from my phone but this may explain part of it.
http://www.skyviewzone.com/astrology/houserulerships.htm IP: Logged |
YoursTrulyAlways
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posted August 31, 2012 02:45 PM
Thank you ShyVirgo1979It has been described before that I have psychic abilities, but my abilities are undeveloped. I have visions about other things as well. Some have come true, others have just been nonsense. My point is that sometimes the visions are so real that they are insane. One of these visions are my wave dreams and income. Very strange. Anyway, just rambling. IP: Logged |
ShyVirgo1979
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posted August 31, 2012 06:00 PM
Go ahead and ramble its fine. Ur the 1st person I've ever spoke with that was actually there at the world trade center. I honestly don't mind u rambling. And from what all u've said it makes me wonder as well if this is something shown in a natal chart. I wish I was more advanced in astrology so I could help more. I wonder if there r any asteroids in connection with what u described. I bet iQ might know. U could always post in the asteroid forum (without giving all the exact details if u wish) since he is now a moderator there. Jus' sayin. IP: Logged |
ShyVirgo1979
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posted August 31, 2012 06:02 PM
My grandmother on my mom's side used to have premonitions in her dreams sometimes. Too bad no one has her exact birthdate so I could look and compare. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted August 31, 2012 06:12 PM
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Go ahead and ramble its fine. Ur the 1st person I've ever spoke with that was actually there at the world trade center. I honestly don't mind u rambling. And from what all u've said it makes me wonder as well if this is something shown in a natal chart. I wish I was more advanced in astrology so I could help more. I wonder if there r any asteroids in connection with what u described. I bet iQ might know. U could always post in the asteroid forum (without giving all the exact details if u wish) since he is now a moderator there. Jus' sayin.
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posted August 31, 2012 06:16 PM
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YTA...I suffer from PTSD too. I have tried meds & I was in therapy for 2 years. I still suffer from nightmares but not as frequent as before. I was diagnosed about 6 years but I have been dealing with it for the last 9 years. I have actually passed out from loud noises before. I think with our gemini moons, we are extra sensitive with our anxiety. No matter what I do, I still remember and feel like it all happened yesterday sometimes.
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted August 31, 2012 09:18 PM
That day, I couldn't call home till about 11 am because cell phones were knocked out and land line circuits were swamped. I walked uptown avoiding all possible landmarks but I had to catch the trains north, but then I was still determined to avoid Grand Central Station. When I got to midtown, I caught a taxi to Harlem to board the train there and was home at about 12:45 pm. I remember picking my kid up from school early. The scene at school was real real bad. My son was in kindergarten. One classmate was an instant orphan. Mom worked in One WTC. Dad worked in Two WTC. Neither came home. That afternoon, I was walking my dog along the street. Along came a mid-sized Ford F250 truck with a loud diesel engine (I think). I dove prone into the grass verge face down as though I was avoiding the blast of a hand grenade. My dog went WTF is wrong wuth him!! My army days came back to me. The PTSD was very real. IP: Logged |
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posted August 31, 2012 09:20 PM
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