posted September 23, 2012 10:45 AM            

I had a great dinner last night with a few friends over at their place and we had a few bottles of some nice argentinian wine along with a great meal...

After the meal, i took a stroll......

That stroll in my car took me straight to that Cancer guys house. I have no explainations, really.. I have Mars in Aries and i did it. Well, like the south node in pisces that he is with his Venus in Cancer, he was out cold.... I snuck onto his property.

I didn't swim in his pool though i thought about it but, i did steal one of his towels that he had left outside..

Why did i do this? I don't know...

I guess i wanted to feel that i still have some part of him? Something to remember what we've shared? We became very close and very fast and it wasn't progressing at the speed that i would've liked for it so i gave an untimatum and broke it off.

I dropped off his tupperware and underwear on his doorstep one night and that was that,.. I thought that he'd come back for me.. That he wouldn't let me go.

I think about him so much and i've heard nothing from him since July 2nd when i wished him a happy birthday.

And now, i have his towel..

I somewhat wiped the gate down on my way out so that there'd be no fingerprints; do i have a sense of comfort now in knowing that i have his towel? Yes.

Reaching out to him has been a no-go (for several reasons that i'm aware of)... He won't communicate back. He's soooooo sensitive!!! I had gone on a rampage of drunken rants when he was trying to act so indifferent towards me when i knew otherwise....

I'm hoping that if nothing is gonna come of this that i at least am able to let it go.. Because i don't wanna be the wined-up, teary-eyed, "can't stop thinking about you", i-snuck-onto-your-property-and-stole-your-ralph-lauren-towel, person anymore.

This longing... It's deep inside me.

I miss him.

posted September 23, 2012 11:10 AM            

throw the towel

if its never gonna happen then keeping things that remind you of him will remind you how great being with him was...and thats no good now...

if somethings is going to happen....well ....you wont need any towels

posted September 23, 2012 01:21 PM            

I'd like to pretend that it doesn't but it hurts.

I have to put my game face on... I'm on my way to have a business meal. Be back later, guys.

Thank u !

posted September 23, 2012 08:26 PM            

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Originally posted by YoursTrulyAlways:
Men. A dime a dozen.

If he doesn't want you, he's not good enough for you. F him. The towel would be good enough to pick up dog pee off the floor. I learned early in my life to never grovel over anyone.

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Dog pee

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posted September 24, 2012 01:36 AM            

The Cancer hasn't gotten to me but i got notice that my message was received... I don't know why in the hell i've been so neptunian about these guys..

I'm seriously turning a new leaf.

posted September 24, 2012 01:39 AM            

F*ck neptune, f*ck men and f*ck women.

posted September 25, 2012 10:15 AM            

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Originally posted by sand:
i caught my seatmate once smelling my watchstrap when i left my watch on my desk to go to the bathroom. hawkward!

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Eeeeewww

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posted September 25, 2012 10:16 AM            

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Originally posted by YoursTrulyAlways:
We Asians prefer cooking in super high heat, and the more spicy the better.

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Oh Yea hot, hot, hot

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