posted November 22, 2012 08:22 AM            

I am starting to come out of a horrible numbness. If you have been here for the last 3-4 years, you will know that I was stuck in this awful kind of numb ice cube.

I could not break it, so kept moaning about it and drove people crazy. I didn't mean to, I just didn't know what else to do.

Now, thanks to a lot of love, I am coming out of it.

I can detach and see what a Narc parent does to you.

First of all, your feelings get shut down to virtually nothing.

You can't feel and you dismiss what you DO feel as being a baby or weak,

Do you guys know what I mean?

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posted November 22, 2012 01:53 PM            

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Originally posted by mercuranian:
i do! (both of my parents are narcissists).

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posted November 22, 2012 04:34 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Do you have hard aspects to both Sun and Moon. I only have them to the moon and the Child Asteroid.

My Sun is well aspected. My father was good to me but would never stand up but he was a good figure to me.

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posted November 23, 2012 10:20 AM            

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Originally posted by mercuranian:
nope. ive cut him out of my life. no contact.

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Are they both cut out?

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posted November 23, 2012 05:09 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Do you have hard aspects to both Sun and Moon. I only have them to the moon and the Child Asteroid.

My Sun is well aspected. My father was good to me but would never stand up but he was a good figure to me.

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My sun is badly aspected...my mother is a narcissist and my dad was there for me but never stood up to my mother.

posted December 03, 2012 05:49 AM            

-lack of self-confidence yet you may become very determined
often times, the child of the narcissistic parent may feel not good enough for the parent as he/she may have been continually judged while growing up and this may not stop even until the child reach adulthood. As a result, the child may start to believe that what his/her parents tell about him/her are just the brutal truth (i.e no one likes you because of you're <insert characteristic here>, you are dumb because you never listen to me, you are hopeless, etc.) Because of the feeling of being inadequate or not good enough for the parent, the child may lose self-confidence and is constantly doubting him/herself. The child is likely to rely on his/her parent for the most part of his/her life. The child may then appear as being too dependent on the parent and is very indecisive or it could be the other way around. The child may realize that the parent is actually wrong and would like to prove that himself, hence the child might come across as a rebel and will become even more determined with a clear set of goals and attempts to prove himself that all these criticisms thrown at him aren't actually true. Because the child develops a greater sense of whats right from whats wrong, he/she may become a leader of his/her life.

- you feel like an emotionless robot
unsure of what you're supposed to feel anymore. Feeling like your life is at it's dead end and may feel like you are just going to live your life feeling sorry for yourself. You wonder if your feelings are even worth
considering for. You wonder why you even existed in this world to be only treated the way you are treated by your narcissist parents. And then part of you thinks, "they are my parents, they must really know what is right for me, maybe this is what I really deserve..."

- you have the ability to deal well with authority
...because you pretty much lived your life with a highly authorative figure(s), your parents

- you may become a bully or a narcissist yourself
some child who might not have learned how to pick themselves back up may turn out to have characteristics similar to his/her narcissistic parents. It's like one of those sayings that "what you learn inside your home, it's what you present in the outside world" kinda thing

posted December 23, 2012 05:25 PM            

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Originally posted by mercuranian:
not yet, we shall see...

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posted December 23, 2012 05:39 PM            

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Originally posted by mercuranian:
decision made - im cutting her out as soon as i can move out of state.

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I am sorry, mercurian. It is never easy when you have to get to this point, Sweetheart

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posted December 23, 2012 07:28 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:

I am sorry, mercurian. It is never easy when you have to get to this point, Sweetheart

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thanks Ami! it is what it is....
the worst is behind me!!

posted December 23, 2012 07:30 PM            

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Originally posted by mercuranian:
thanks Ami! it is what it is....
the worst is behind me!!

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Good

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