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Topic: Do you fear dying?
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somethingexcellent Knowflake Posts: 1472 From: walking with my head in the clouds! Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 04, 2013 10:59 PM
I don't. I feel like if I were to die unnaturally, that'd be okay, if it was what was meant for me. If anything, I kind of don't want to die without seeing it coming. Could be my Scorpio.I'm not depressed nor do I WANT to die, just that I feel like I'd be okay with it. I love my life and I love my friends and family, but I have no regrets, my love. IP: Logged |
peregrine unregistered
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posted February 04, 2013 11:01 PM
yes. my greatest fear. some idiot at work told me i feared death because i was rich. he was a scorpio. #dumba$$IP: Logged |
somethingexcellent Knowflake Posts: 1472 From: walking with my head in the clouds! Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 04, 2013 11:14 PM
^Accept it mon frère! It could happen any place at any moment and it WILL happen. Enjoy what you can until then. IP: Logged |
Padre35 Knowflake Posts: 2070 From: Asheville, NC, US Registered: Jul 2012
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posted February 05, 2013 12:14 AM
Nah, have already heard the EKG make that noise..BeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeDefribs..kind of hurt What fills me with fear is..owing someone. when I finally check out, this is not what I want to leave behind. IP: Logged |
somethingexcellent Knowflake Posts: 1472 From: walking with my head in the clouds! Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 05, 2013 12:38 AM
quote: Padre35: BeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeDefribs..kind of hurt
Oh my gOD! I imagine they hurt... IP: Logged |
peregrine unregistered
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posted February 05, 2013 12:43 AM
scary thread..IP: Logged |
somethingexcellent Knowflake Posts: 1472 From: walking with my head in the clouds! Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 05, 2013 12:52 AM
I was just saying in another thread I was hoping I didn't traumatise you, peregrine. IP: Logged |
Padre35 Knowflake Posts: 2070 From: Asheville, NC, US Registered: Jul 2012
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posted February 05, 2013 01:09 AM
quote: Originally posted by somethingexcellent: Oh my gOD! I imagine they hurt...
It's like getting kicked by a donkey..in your ribs..OMG that hurts! Push comes to shove..could deal with that again..but..ventilation tubes..that is pain my friend. IP: Logged |
Faith Knowflake Posts: 4868 From: Registered: Jul 2011
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posted February 05, 2013 08:11 AM
quote: And though you be done to the death, what then? If you battled the best you could; If you played your part in the world of men, Why the Critic will call it good. Death comes with a crawl, or comes with a pounce, And whether he’s slow or spry, It isn’t that fact that you’re dead that counts, But only how did you die?-Edward Vance Cook
I fear it and I don't. I fear dying painfully (like through ritual torture) or very tragically. If I were being chased by a mad gunman, I would definitely fear him. I fear the sadness of my children...like if I were to die by cancer. Otherwise, no, I don't fear it, I look forward to it. Seems interesting. IP: Logged |
Xiiro Knowflake Posts: 1605 From: San Diego CA, USA Registered: Jun 2011
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posted February 05, 2013 01:06 PM
quote: Originally posted by Faith: I fear it and I don't.I fear dying painfully (like through ritual torture) or very tragically. If I were being chased by a mad gunman, I would definitely fear him. I fear the sadness of my children...like if I were to die by cancer. Otherwise, no, I don't fear it, I look forward to it. Seems interesting.
My feelings are similar, I have a fear of dying at the hands of other humans though mostly. I think being turned on by a crowd is a reoccurring past life theme (burnt at the stake, killed several times by invading tribes and cultures, killed in a concentration camp, etc..), I am wired to care very much about other people, so the idea of being turned on or misunderstood to death is soul crushing for me. I used to fear death a lot, but that resolved after I learned to meditate. My sister and I had a good conversation about this topic though and she said something I found interesting. She is not afraid of dying as much as she is afraid of either enduring infinity afterword or ceasing to exist. She is very religious, but admits the idea of heaven scares the hell out of her. People just being shiny and happy forever, and ever, and ever like some cosmic Stepford. My big fear was about transparency. I was scared of not having a body to contain/control all the energy that exists in me. The idea of being held accountable for all the intense feelings and thoughts which erupt out of my Mars/Plutonian personality in any given moment was terrifying. I am a naturally passionate being and without a filter how could I protect others from myself? Fortunately that's done though, way too much anxiety, panic, and depression surrounded those feelings for too long. I sketched this one day when I was feeling particularly done in. IP: Logged |
Florett Knowflake Posts: 59 From: Netherlands Registered: May 2012
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posted February 05, 2013 01:36 PM
I do not fear death. What I do fear is that I can't achieve my life goals. In my opinion, dying is nothing more than a transition from a physical to a spiritual existence. So what is then the meaning of 'death' ? (retorical question) Something to think about ... IP: Logged |
PixieJane Knowflake Posts: 2525 From: CA Registered: Oct 2010
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posted February 05, 2013 04:01 PM
No. And I know I confuse people with like saying I thought Buffy the Vampire Slayer should've ended with the death of Buffy in season 5, because I didn't see her story as over, I saw it as being COMPLETE. (And bringing her back also cheapened her sacrifice, IMO.)And this is one of my favorite songs, I used to listen to it everyday: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5waygXK3qYg ...To dance Within the frost To carry dreams of life away to dust To call Your name out loud To carry fear away cast down the shroud To die When summer fades to silence When winter's still a dream And solemn sleep to you is blind again And the Autumn comes with amber eyes Pale as the night To enthrall your soul... And I remember a dream I had in the summer of 2002 in which a demonic creature was chasing me. It finally grabbed me and impaled me on all these swords. And as I accepted I was going to die, I just let everything go--every should be, could be, and notion--and I was filled with something akin to peace. The creature demanded I give it my anger and I laughed at it, telling it I was too tired to be angry. I thought about that dream after getting up and then tried several meditations trying to let every preconceived notion (that used the phrase "should") that I have go. After a few hours, I realized I was trying too hard.... why not go to the beach? And so I did and the rest of that day, and the night that followed it, was one of the happiest of my life. That acceptance helped in many ways, and I think inspired me to make peace with my own mortality. IP: Logged |
PixieJane Knowflake Posts: 2525 From: CA Registered: Oct 2010
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posted February 05, 2013 04:05 PM
October has long been a month I loved and feared. So much that was bad in my life happened in October, and I used to have terrible "October nightmares" as a result. But good things happened, too, and it was the month I was born (but also feel it's the month I will one day die in). I love Autumn and Autumn foods and Halloween and October parties...Here's a poem I wrote years ago. It's on the long side but it explains it perfectly (IMO), though it includes mentioning the terrible October nightmares I used to suffer which I haven't suffered for the last couple of years. October in My Soul Sometimes I wake up the monsters just beyond my vision reaching, grasping, clawing, my nerves burning in terror of the past resurrected Even worse are those times I awaken feeling empty feeling nothing thinking life is loss for I've lost those I love and myself and yet if I hadn't I'd have lost that which I am and those that I love now All that is life requires sacrifice And beside my lover tonight I dream of two foxes loving in spring flowers that ends in Autumn one fox killed by merciless huntsmen as one fox heals alone through winter Spring reveals a new lover as the fox dances in joy but asks: will the huntsmen return? I awaken and realize I am that fox. October is the month I love and dread the most with its parties and nightmares with its joyful laughter in my life and the piercing screams that shatter my past and my sleep I admire the colorful dying world, love the hint of chill in the air but dread the tragedy I sense riding in the wind October is all around me Joy and Terror dance within me As it has been so shall it be again the seasons turn the passions burn stoking me sweetly burning me to ashes October reminds me that the joys of life are not without its toll The death and loss are our constant companions to life and love As we wander through a cornucopia of hazy mirages and shadowy images Life and Death, Day and Night in eternal dance The living surrounded by ghosts of the pasts and the future Ghosts calling my name from within my haunted soul I was born in October and surely I will die then, too From the witch's cauldron we all sprang and to the cauldron shall we all return the cauldron of the One we all can't help but to revere and fear The witch of my cauldron is named October. And as I join the witch in laughter, the nightmares spring from the shadows within me haunting me by the knowledge that they have their real life counterparts as these echoes of the past once again pounce I hold on, I hold on for I have felt their fangs before and yet I remain visible and invisible scars my badges my pride, my shame I know morning will come, frosty and promising and if it doesn't then the horrors will no longer have me to haunt dying with me or leaving me to find other game Though I wonder then, should I die if I'd ever haunt others just as others have haunted me? Or would I finally be able to truly rest the nightmares no more, my dance and my mosh ended? --B. Jane Cochran, 10-23-2006 IP: Logged |
T Knowflake Posts: 9627 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 05, 2013 04:19 PM
"We are spirits in the material world." I'm looking forward to going "home" - back to the otherside from which we all came and shedding this sometimes stiffling bodily shell and being free.....not having bills. lol not having earthly responsitilities, or worries anymore. Seeing loved ones gone by before me etc. ..but not too soon....not ready to go to soon. There is still life left in me (sometimes). I still feel like there's a lot to do here and i have not completed my mission so-to-speak. I don't want to go in some kind of accident. I hope to go peacefully down the road. & to be honest, it is a bit of a scary thought when you really think about it, but I believe i've died many times before and after it happens I will remember that there's nothing to worry about. I just want to complete as much "business" (karma) here as I can and hopefully not have to come back again. IP: Logged |
teasel Knowflake Posts: 5315 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 05, 2013 04:55 PM
I fear the process. When I get stressed and need to get out of the house, I usually run into the woods, but for the past couple of months, I've walked around the neighbourhoods instead (where we have no pavements). I used to have an image in my head, every so often, of myself being left on the side of a road with no pavement, injured (or worse), and it spooked me the other night. There are times when I want to die, and times when I feel like I still have something to do - like T. this was why I was hoping the past-life regressions would help, but I barely got a thing, certainly nothing like the regressions I read in books. It was very disappointing, especially when I've felt so depressed, and needed some answers. Other times, I want to stick around to see how Breaking Bad ends , although I doubt it would bother me if I missed the end of it and made it to the other side. IP: Logged |
peregrine unregistered
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posted February 05, 2013 07:59 PM
so scared... IP: Logged |
Faith Knowflake Posts: 4868 From: Registered: Jul 2011
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posted February 05, 2013 10:19 PM
I really love this thread, thanks for your thoughts, everyone. And thanks for that stunning picture, Xiiro. I'm paying close attention and marveling at how much poignancy and beauty can come into a discussion on death.(edited) IP: Logged |
teasel Knowflake Posts: 5315 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 05, 2013 11:46 PM
Vent away! IP: Logged |
Venus Moderator Posts: 1747 From: Registered: Mar 2011
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posted February 06, 2013 01:22 AM
quote: Originally posted by Padre35:
What fills me with fear is..owing someone.
my biggest fear is leaving those who depend on me behind, namely my mother and brother. i can only imagine what my death would do to them and that terrifies me. IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 6856 From: tennessee Registered: Jan 2012
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posted February 06, 2013 01:42 AM
death in itself is not scary , its the uncertainy of what happens afterwards that is scary. imo no matter what belief system you have you are going to have doubts about this. i am a christian but i dont believe in hell, i just cant believe that a loving God would allow his children to burn for an eternity, but what if im wrong? IP: Logged |
somethingexcellent Knowflake Posts: 1472 From: walking with my head in the clouds! Registered: Nov 2012
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posted February 06, 2013 02:08 AM
quote: aquaguy91: death in itself is not scary , its the uncertainy of what happens afterwards that is scary. imo no matter what belief system you have you are going to have doubts about this.
I think assuming you have an idea of what happens is what causes you to be liable to doubts. I have no idea what will happen and that's okay, what happens will happen. No doubts on my end. IP: Logged |
PixieJane Knowflake Posts: 2525 From: CA Registered: Oct 2010
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posted February 06, 2013 02:18 AM
quote: Originally posted by aquaguy91: what if im wrong?
You should play Pascal's Roulette: http://www.patheos.com/blogs/friendlyatheist/2012/02/08/pascals-roulette/ Oh wow, I won on the first try! (Thor) IP: Logged |
Faith Knowflake Posts: 4868 From: Registered: Jul 2011
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posted February 06, 2013 07:52 AM
Thanks, teasel IP: Logged |
Faith Knowflake Posts: 4868 From: Registered: Jul 2011
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posted February 06, 2013 07:57 AM
quote: Originally posted by PixieJane: You should play Pascal's Roulette: http://www.patheos.com/blogs/friendlyatheist/2012/02/08/pascals-roulette/ Oh wow, I won on the first try! (Thor)
LOL!!! I tried being a Christian (cross) but guessed wrong, the real power is Freya! Funny coincidence...you've mentioned her before, and I was going to name my next daughter Freya, if I ever had another daughter. IP: Logged |
PixieJane Knowflake Posts: 2525 From: CA Registered: Oct 2010
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posted February 06, 2013 04:52 PM
^^Interesting. A guy first told me about this game because he tried (picking the flying spaghetti monster) and got Freya as well, which made him think of me. IP: Logged |