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I'm so cappy
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posted July 07, 2013 09:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for I'm so cappy     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Is this even possible?

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I'm sooo happy! I mean, cappy.

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Doux Rêve
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posted July 07, 2013 10:07 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Doux Rêve     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I think so.

That's pretty much what I've been doing lately.

There are some down moments of course, but overall, it's quite doable.

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Ami Anne
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posted July 07, 2013 10:27 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
It is so weird you bring this up, Cappy and Doux. I am doing the same thing( or trying to)
I used to be able to be content when I was young. I was kind of a happy kid. Thne, I got really lost. I am trying to get back to those quiet happy moments just going for a walk in a pretty place or going shopping for fun, that kind of thing. I bet you know what I mean

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PixieJane
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posted July 08, 2013 12:00 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for PixieJane     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Absolutely!

One of the "best" nightmares I ever had taught it to me. It was back when I held much higher standards for the world and inevitably disappointed until I had a nightmare of being hellishly stalked by a demon similar to the Creeper in Jeepers Creepers until it finally caught me and then impaled me on 5 swords as it needed me filled with rage and despair for its ritual to work. But once I realized I was going to die, I just let go and there was no more "should" ("I should," "People should," "Life should," etc) and as I let those go a tremendous sense of peace overcame me.

That peace was so intense that I meditated on it when I woke up. And then I put off the things I had planned to do that day and simply had fun all day after resolving to not worry about what I should do or how things should be for that single day. And it was one of the best days in my life.

Obviously if I lived like that 24/7 I'd have some real problems, but I do resolve to repeat this from time to time and having learned not to focus on what "should" be or happen I find a similar peace. And when people don't feel so entitled to constant pleasure then those rare gems can mean a lot more, too. I also liked reading an observation in Xenophon's Hiero about how people who scraped by became jubilant during the feast days while the ruler who was used to feasting every day became jaded to it all and could find no joy in the feast days.

I'll be back with something else...

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PixieJane
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posted July 08, 2013 12:05 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for PixieJane     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
This happened to me on December 18, 2005:

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I had gotten off the comp this morn when a friend that I had just emailed a few minutes before called (since she knew I was up). She wanted us to go surfing with them. Having just gotten over a flu, I was thinking of saying no, but my roomie really wanted to go, so I agreed.

I am so glad for that.

We surfed as normal and the lingering depression and such from fighting off the flu was banished and I really enjoyed myself and the company. The morn was cloudy, but it was still beautiful, with fog in the distant hills, and the ocean itself vanishing off into the distant mists. There was rain, but it was very light--I'm not even sure it counts as rain. And hardly matters when you're in a wetsuit anyway.

And then the wind picked up. Friends had a wonderful idea, to try windsurfing. This was interesting, and I wasn't sure about it, having never done it before. When I finally tried, it took me some minutes just to not fall over, though they said I picked it up really fast. It was difficult because I had to hold my feet differently, and dealing with the harness. But at some point, WHOOSH, the SPEED! I couldn't help it: I screamed with joy, and I was SO glad we had come.

And then the sun broke through.... not direct, but close. The water turned from gray to aqua, and I was suddenly recalling when I was like 6-10, how I'd get up before Mom & Dad (and often before dawn back then) and go outside and explore, play, go to friend's houses.... I felt so free and there was a stark beauty to life that I rarely feel (at least sober) since I guess I became a teen. And then I surpassed even that, and I reached a state that was nothing less than ecstasy, I'd say on par (though distinct and different in its own way) to mind altering dancing or sex, and perhaps even more fulfilling in its own way.

If there was any doubt about fighting to survive the dark times in my life, it was dispelled at this moment of utter beauty in which I lived totally within this miraculous moment, my shout and my heart praising the Goddess of Life and for this moment in Life, one that was worth every horror and ache I had endured just to be here. Tears came down my face (just a few), and I knew that when I die, should my life flash before my eyes, this exact moment will be replayed, and if it affects my body at all, I will smile then, at peace, knowing it was all worth it in part to this one ineffable moment.

What else is there to say? My cold seemed to come back but it went away again, and it was hardly even noted (at least not by me--and we were all wet enough anyway). I found out that the wind was LIGHT (like how fast would I have gone in a HIGH wind???) Because we messed with the boards (including the beginner board I had borrowed), we failed to miss the churches getting out and ended up eating at a Pizza Hut for awhile to give the traffic a chance to die down more.

Now I am home. I've showered, dishes are now washing, warms are washing and hots are drying. Today was awesome, and I'm sharing. If you get a chance to try something new like that, and to be out in nature in a way that helps you to fuse with it, if just for a moment, then avail yourself of the moment. If more people did, psychiatry would be an endangered profession.

As the Wiccans say, Blessed Be (it seems appropriate to now).


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posted July 08, 2013 12:40 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for aquaguy91     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
IMO, Life in itself is neutral, it is neither good or bad, it simply is. However one's circumstances in life determine the quality of their individual life and make it good or bad. Living in itself is not intrinsically a good thing, Your circumstances at birth or hard work can possibly make life good or worth living.By that same token your circumstances in life can be soo bad that death would be preferred. These are the musing of a man with sun in the 12th conjunct saturn.

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posted July 08, 2013 01:15 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for aquaguy91     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I was pondering my two cousins (who are brothers) today and thinking how crazy it is that their lives have turned out soo differently. The older one, whom the whole family affectionately calls little jerry, suffers from an extremely rare condition called hurler syndrome. He is a dwarf, is almost completely blind and has soo many other health problems its ridiculous. The sad reality of all this is he will certainly die in the next few years, if not sooner. However his younger brother jacob is perfectly healthy, very intelligent, and a very good looking kid to boot. He already has big time colleges interested in him and he is only a freshman! Jacob will go on to be a success and live a full happy life while his brother will continue to struggle with all of the problems he was dealt at birth and die as a result of those problems. This just goes to show you how different the experience of
living can be for two people even if they were born
and raised in the same household.

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Ami Anne
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posted July 08, 2013 07:17 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
I was pondering my two cousins (who are brothers) today and thinking how crazy it is that their lives have turned out soo differently. The older one, whom the whole family affectionately calls little jerry, suffers from an extremely rare condition called hurler syndrome. He is a dwarf, is almost completely blind and has soo many other health problems its ridiculous. The sad reality of all this is he will certainly die in the next few years, if not sooner. However his younger brother jacob is perfectly healthy, very intelligent, and a very good looking kid to boot. He already has big time colleges interested in him and he is only a freshman! Jacob will go on to be a success and live a full happy life while his brother will continue to struggle with all of the problems he was dealt at birth and die as a result of those problems. This just goes to show you how different the experience of
living can be for two people even if they were born
and raised in the same household.

Wow--do you have the chart of the brother with the illness? Put it up in the Beginners Forum if you want. How tragic

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Ami Anne
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posted July 08, 2013 10:24 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
AG
If you want to put his chart up in the Beginners Section, put it attention to me so I am sure to see it.

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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted July 08, 2013 01:36 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for YoursTrulyAlways     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I have survived several times, so each day is a blessing.

I've been shot at (yes, with bullets), I've been stabbed at (no, they didn't manage to stab me thanks to some training). I escaped 9/11.

I was in an auto accident at 75 mph into a guardrail and then a wall, and walked away. I was in another auto accident where the car flipped over and spun around on its roof, and I walked away.

I was stung by a poisonous spider and was saved. I fell down a deep ravine and got rescued. I was in a boat which capsized in a river with crocodiles about 40 feet away and got to the river bank. I was lost in a deep Asian jungle by myself and found my way out alone.

I'm immune to that stuff now, and that is why I'm afraid of no one and afraid of no circumstances. People wonder why I'm so aggressive. Nothing phases me. I've walked through and dined in America's toughest ghettos.

So, whoever thinks a white collared office worker is a wuss, think again. This banker is a proud qualified soldier who has been on the terrain.

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Ami Anne
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posted July 08, 2013 03:09 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by YoursTrulyAlways:
I have survived several times, so each day is a blessing.

I've been shot at (yes, with bullets), I've been stabbed at (no, they didn't manage to stab me thanks to some training). I escaped 9/11.

I was in an auto accident at 75 mph into a guardrail and then a wall, and walked away. I was in another auto accident where the car flipped over and spun around on its roof, and I walked away.

I was stung by a poisonous spider and was saved. I fell down a deep ravine and got rescued. I was in a boat which capsized in a river with crocodiles about 40 feet away and got to the river bank. I was lost in a deep Asian jungle by myself and found my way out alone.

I'm immune to that stuff now, and that is why I'm afraid of no one and afraid of no circumstances. People wonder why I'm so aggressive. Nothing phases me. I've walked through and dined in America's toughest ghettos.

So, whoever thinks a white collared office worker is a wuss, think again. This banker is a proud qualified soldier who has been on the terrain.



You da man


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I'm so cappy
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posted July 08, 2013 04:31 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for I'm so cappy     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I don't think I will ever be able to appreciate life just because I have an opportunity to exist in this world and I envy those who can.

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I'm sooo happy! I mean, cappy.

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Ami Anne
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posted July 08, 2013 04:55 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by I'm so cappy:
I don't think I will ever be able to appreciate life just because I have an opportunity to exist in this world and I envy those who can.


I tell you that I had a period when I did. I keep trying to get back to that. I will tell you why I was happy.

I realized that everyone was self centered, so don't expect things from others. When you get them, it is great but don't need it or expect it.

I made my own fun by being crazy. Gemini is naturally crazy. I had a crazy, edgy sense of human and had a blast with it.

I liked myself because I thought I was a cool person. I was very fun but also very deep and soulful. I did not realize that this was a cancer Moon with a Gemini stellium.

I think I realized that everyone was selfish and everyone had a very flawed self so why not like myself.

Well, I lost that in trying to survive a mother who wanted me to exist for her, not for my own purposes.

I tried to please her, be what she wanted and I lost myself.

My quest has been to get it back.

I thought this might resonate with someone. xx

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7thGuardian
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posted July 08, 2013 07:33 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for 7thGuardian     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Yes! It's how I found God, he was always here... I just couldn't feel him anymore while being consumed by the Ego, which made me hate myself and that part (which i was hatting - the living part) it's what's connected with God, with love, with life, with creation - with the Universe... while the Ego - it's just a line of thoughts.

Love you all!

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Faith
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posted July 09, 2013 08:47 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Faith     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
*sniffle* Thanks, I needed that, 7th Guardian.

Oh wait, were you talking to everyone or just the people who already commented?

To answer the OP~

My goal in life is to enjoy it just because I'm here. Eating well has helped me discover that my natural state is to feel comfortably peaceful. It's not a mental state so much as a whole body state. And I can get healthier each day, that's a choice I have.

aquaguy, even though your cousin is plagued by these problems, and I have tremendous sympathy for his predicament, it doesn't automatically say that he cannot enjoy life. People who are dying do sometimes enjoy life. I've seen it happen, I know it can happen. So maybe things aren't as desperate as we would assume?

There are people whose outward circumstances make us pity them yet they have more love and joy in their lives than we tend to even hope for.

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jellyfishtry
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posted July 09, 2013 03:03 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for jellyfishtry     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by 7thGuardian:
Yes! It's how I found God, he was always here... I just couldn't feel him anymore while being consumed by the Ego, which made me hate myself and that part (which i was hatting - the living part) it's what's connected with God, with love, with life, with creation - with the Universe... while the Ego - it's just a line of thoughts.

Love you all!

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So glad to have read this in this thread.

Not everyone who is positive had such a great life, it's just someone who has realized what 7th Guardian wrote here.

I think most people on websites like this have read it, but Eckhard Tolle's "Power of Now" is one of the best books about this subject...actually almost anything Eckhard Tolle, and he like many here, realized what he did after one of the lowest moments anyone can be through (he describes it in his book, so i think if many here read they could relate)

N E way, very well said 7THGUARDIAN

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