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Topic: I can't do this anymore...
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tgem
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posted October 29, 2013 09:51 AM
  
I met my twinflame three years ago while my marriage was crumbling. I fell in love. Not ever being one for an affair, I cut off the "friendship" (not knowing he was my TF at the time,) tried to patch up my marriage, move away...but nothing worked. My marriage crumbled and my husband filed for divorce 6 months ago. I wrote my TF a letter asking for forgiveness for hurting him and told him I loved him but needed to respect the marriages. No answer. I tried to relocate back to my hometown in another state to heal from both relationship losses and have support of my family and friends, but my husband took me to court and has forced me to stay in the small town with him, our son, my TF and TF's wife!! I have no friends, no family, no job, and barely enough spousal/child support to keep me and my son afloat. Doing this on my own has been excruciatingly painful. My husband is still friends with my TF, which kills me because if I can't have him, then I want away from this horrible place to a safe haven where I can heal. The loss of both relationships is enough to feel like my heart has been ripped out and put through a shredder (Venus in Gemini, yes, I can love more than one person)...and TF won't contact me, even though I've been told he eventually would. I'm just so depressed, to lose your soulmate and the TF and have nothing. Astrology, tarot and intuition has told me we will ultimately be together, but logic/reality has only proven disaster in all areas of my life. I'm very spiritual but I'm starting to doubt my intuition and everything I believed. Yes, I'm the sort of person who needs validation that things will be ok..it's one of my character flaws. I don't know what t do anymore. Don't know where my life is headed and the pain is indescribable. Thanks for listening to me vent...IP: Logged |
LovelyAries86
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posted October 29, 2013 10:28 AM
Good God. I'm so sorry that you're going through this. And you're a decent person for not being a "cheater" and trying to do things the right way. This too shall pass. Keep pushing and focus on YOU for now. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted October 29, 2013 10:29 AM
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Ami Anne
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posted October 29, 2013 10:33 AM
On what are you basing that he is your twin Flame  ------------------
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tgem
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posted October 29, 2013 11:13 AM
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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
On what are you basing that he is your twin Flame
are you familiar with TF synastry/composites? We have all the soulmate aspects including soulmate pairs eros/psyche, Isis/ Osiris, composite NN conjunct psyche and quincux valentine. There's a yod in the composite with mats in 2nd house scorpio at the apex, along with asteroid Anubis on our composite ASC....big marker for TF's. Non-astrologically speaking, we have all the other signs- are you familiar with them?:
Similar physical features (both tall, thin, and leftys. I'm light hair/light eyes..he's dark hair/dark eyes.)
Both last names are verbs
Both born on a Monday
Numerology: We met on the 15th of the month (TF sign)
Both our birthdays add up to a number that breaks down to 11 (TF sign.)
We have had parallel lives: both attended a HS with the same mascot, both attended CC before transferring to a four year college, both got married the same year to a spouse who lost a paret early in life, both had children the same year, both worked in the same career field, both have only been sexual with our spouses (what are the chances of that these days??!!) They say the numbers 11:11 are markers of the TF union. I see it ALL ThE TIME!! To the point where I've started keeping track...I've seen it randomly pop up 14 times this month alone!!! I see his name everywhere and I don't even look for it...it's not a common name. Last, but not least, they say the number 22 is the number of a spiritual messenger. I was born at 8:22 am. His first six number of his cell phone number add up to 11:11. THat's for starters..
Oh yeah, one more thing, our Karma asteroid is very prevalent in each other charts- and my natal Karma is at 11 degrees Aries in my 11th house (11:11) too many hints to be coincidental. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted October 29, 2013 11:42 AM
This is one man's opinion. If things are supposed to happen, they will not be this kind of a struggle. That is how I look at it and it is not a TF kind of thing, just my way of looking at God. ------------------
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tgem
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posted October 29, 2013 11:56 AM
I just want to heal..why won't God. Let me leave this place to heal. Let everyone else heal..I don't want anymore conflict..I've prayed to God every night for a year and a half and here I am..I never asked for this, nor wanted it. If it's not meant to be, let me out...let me heal and move on...why can't I? I've asked to leave, I've asked for forgiveness, and I've asked to take myself out of everyone else's life so we can all move on..it just doesn't happen and in the meantime I feel like I'm going crazyIP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted October 29, 2013 12:10 PM
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Originally posted by tgem:
I just want to heal..why won't God. Let me leave this place to heal. Let everyone else heal..I don't want anymore conflict..I've prayed to God every night for a year and a half and here I am..I never asked for this, nor wanted it. If it's not meant to be, let me out...let me heal and move on...why can't I? I've asked to leave, I've asked for forgiveness, and I've asked to take myself out of everyone else's life so we can all move on..it just doesn't happen and in the meantime I feel like I'm going crazy
I totally hear you. This is one man's opinion. This is not from God. We have talked off line. God's way does not make a person get in the state you are in, in my opinion. ------------------
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tgem
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posted October 29, 2013 12:14 PM
I'm confused..what do you mean?IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted October 29, 2013 12:30 PM
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Originally posted by tgem:
I'm confused..what do you mean?
I mean that The Angel of Light can come to us as light and everything we want when, in fact, it is a deception.
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Swift Freeze
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posted October 30, 2013 11:57 AM
I'm sorry for your pain tgem, it can't be easy going through this. It may feel like there isn't much hope in this situation, but please know my thoughts and wishes are with you. I hope that a way is found that helps you heal.------------------
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted October 30, 2013 12:23 PM
I can't tell you what to do or what God's plan is. Nor can I opine on the astrology.What I do know is that in the middle of this mess, there's your son. I would advice you to place top priority on your son rather than any man at this moment. My own opinion is that both men have already shown their colors and have essentially dumped on you, if not dumped you. If I were in your shoes, which I am not, my assessment would be that both men are unworthy. My bottom line is that the welfare of your son is paramount. IP: Logged |
tgem
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posted November 02, 2013 08:43 AM
Thank you for all the support; yes, my son is my world and I agree he should be first. I try to enforce that everyday, but the deep pain inside still exists which I hope can soon be healed. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted November 05, 2013 03:52 PM
I have had you on my mind, tgem. I feel that this guy has become a super obsession. You have the twin flames thing in your mind as a way to make this something it is not. Please, be careful.IP: Logged |
DeepFreeze
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posted November 05, 2013 07:49 PM
Pardon me, but what is a Twin Flame vs Soul Mate?
Any links? That way no one has to do a lot of typing. Your TF is also married? Correct? Was he willing to cheat? Just a possibility here but maybe he took "working on your marriage" as rejection. "Losing out" or "coming in 2nd place" to your husband.
Maybe he had Romeo and Juliette kind of thoughts like nothing would ever keep you from being together and reality hit hard, and hurtful. Just a thought anyway. IP: Logged |
Randall
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posted November 05, 2013 08:22 PM
Basically, soul mates can be friends and family, and we have many, but a twin soul is one's other half. IP: Logged |
YoursTrulyAlways
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posted November 06, 2013 06:34 AM
Huh? Makes no sense to me. We're each made unique. Even if you don't believe in God, at least believe in the human genome. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted November 06, 2013 08:47 AM
TgemI think you need to talk to a person who is wise and centered. You need some wise counsel here because you are too much in your own mind. which can happen to all of us( and does) Find someone in your life to whom you can tell the whole story and who will be there for you. ------------------
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