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LEXX
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posted August 13, 2011 02:24 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Yeah its me grousing......
again.
Physical Pain, the knock you down omg kind;
how to you deal with it?
Do you know anyone with it?
How do they manage and still have some quality of life?
I mean chronic near unrelenting disabling agonizing pain. Not the ongoing uncomfortable kind that you can kind of still function somewhat with, or the stuff that totally lets up.
The kind that often leaves one coiled in fetal position with mind screaming
"oh god make it go away or kill me!"
as back, legs, feet, even hands and face spasms go wild and guts feel like steel claws are twisting and gripping and an alien is jumping around ready to burst out my chest.
The kind that needs zombie making drugs like Vicodin, and others like even Morphene and such on worse times. Those leave me so zombie but do not work at times on pain.
Rather be alert in pain than zombie in pain.
The doctors want me on up to 20+ pills a day.
I do not do them all.
Most of the time I do 4 max.
I hate the agony, but I hate the zombie brain and lethargic side effects of meds.
I hate yelling and clutching the wall when the torsion spasms hit and pain drops me to floor. It is also distressing and stressful to those around me.
But without meds at least my brain works in betwixt the clang clang bang bang pounding trembling loss of body control moments.
I have internal and external nerve damage.
Sometimes even the pressure of my clothing is unbearable.

Please folks,
tell me how you or anyone you know copes with chronic pain from just bad to the omg kind.
I want quality in my life.

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posted August 14, 2011 04:43 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for cathy     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Dear Lexx I feel so bad for you. I have clients that are always in pain they don't cope very well, some don't get out of bed,all take painkillers. I wish I could help you.

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posted August 14, 2011 06:27 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank you Cathy
Are you a nurse?
Yes, it is hard to cope.
Oh I have my better days but do not remember
any pain free days in my life to date.
I just hate how it often takes over and there is nothing I can do about it.
People say cheer up, think positive thoughts!
Well these folks are usually in perfect health.
I'd like to see how cheery and optimistic they would be if they had to wear my shoes.
And the depression is further increased by folks saying it is my fault because of incorrect thinking or Karma and I deserve it.
Oh they try to act all spiritual but are actually feeling superior because they feel fine and in that mind set they look down on folks like me who must of course be spiritually un-evolved.
I have known of such folks who when their health or lives take a sudden turn out of the blue for the worse, totally lose their yippy skippy happy joy joy outlook and become some of the worse pity poor them types.
I feel I am a strong and yes even optimistic person.
How many if in my shoes would give up?
Many I suspect, and some have actually said they would rather die, and some have suggested I should just kill myself.
I do my best to help folks and live my life
despite how I feel.

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posted August 14, 2011 06:28 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
It is hard too because folks do not want to hear our pain sounds.
It really upsets folks and we are further alienated and as I have experienced, even yelled at to be quiet because it is depressing for them to hear.
I am like, so sorry, but I am not doing this on purpose. So have learned to crawl off in silence and scream into a pillow when I can.
But the vocalizations of pain often jumps out without warning like when a spasm catches me by surprise.
I usually refuse pain killers for short term intense pain like when I had my nearly severed thumb sewn back on or wisdom teeth extracted or plastic surgery after severe damage giving birth. So yeah, I have a very high pain threshold so when I cry out it means it hurts worse than those things did.
Now imagine dealing with such intense chronic pain nearly daily, sometimes only minutes here and there, but other days hours or more.
I wish doctors could figure out better pain reduction that does not turn us into zombies.

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posted August 14, 2011 11:18 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for mochai     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
MBSR still has the highest efficacy rate in treating chronic pain for a pain management program. The book centered around it is here: http://www.amazon.com/Full-Catastrophe-Living-Wisdom-Illnes s/dp/0385303122/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1313333669&sr=8-1

Some of the statistics taken directly from the book..

Pain Outcomes in the Stress Clinic

Before looking further into the ways we can use mindfulness to work with pain, we will review some of the results obtained from our studies of people with chronic pain conditions in the stress clinic. These studies have shown that there is a dramatic reduction in the average level of pain during the eight-week training period in the clinic, as measured by a pain questionnaire called the McGill-Melzack Pain Rating Index (PRI). This is a reproducible finding. We see it in every class, year after year.

In one study 72 percent of the patients with chronic pain conditions achieved at least a 33 percent reduction on the PRI, while 61% of the pain patients achieved at least a 50 percent reduction. This means that the majority of people who came with pain experienced clinically significant reductions in their pain levels over the eight weeks they were practicing the meditation at home and attending weekly classes at the hospital.

In addition to pain, we looked at how much these people changed in terms of their negative body image (the degree to which they rated different parts of their body as problematic). We found that by the end of the program they perceived their bodies as approximately 30 percent less problematic. This implies that negative views and feelings about one's body, which are especially strong when people are limited in what they can do because of pain, can improve markedly in a short period of time.

At the same time, these people also showed a 30 percent improvement in the degree to which pain interfered with their ability to engage in the normal activities of daily living, such as preparing food, driving, sleeping, and sex. This improvement was accompanied by a sharp drop (55 percent) in negative mood states, an increase in positive mood states, and major improvements in anxiety, depression, hostility, and the tendency to somatize, that is, to be overly preoccupied with one's bodily sensations. By the end of the program, people with chronic pain in this study were reporting taking less pain medication, being more active, and feeling better in general.

Even more encouraging, these improvements lasted. In a separate study, which looked at how people with pain conditions were coping up to four years after their experiences in the stress clinic, we found that, on the average, most of the gains they had achieved by the end of the program were either maintained or improved still further..

In addition, the follow-up study showed that the pain patients continued to keep up with their meditation practice, many to a very strong degree. Ninety-three percent said that they continued to practice the meditation in one form or another at some level. Almost everybody reported still using awareness of their breathing during the day, and other informal mindfulness practices. Some were practicing formally as well when they felt a need. About 42 percent were still practicing formally at least three times per week for at least 16 minutes at a time three years later, although by four years, this percentage dropped to 30 percent; all in all, an impressive level of discipline and commitment considering they had learned the practice years earlier.

The pain patients in the follow-up study were asked to rate how important their training in the stress clinic was to them at the time they were being asked to respond. Fourty-four percent (at three years) and 67 percent (at four years) rated the program between 8 and 10 on a 1-to-10 scale (where a rating of 10 meant "very important"), and over 50 percent rated it 10 at four years. Responses for six months, one year, and two years of follow-up fell between these values, from 67 percent rating it between 8 and 10 at six months to 52 percent giving it that rating at two years.

In terms of how much what they learned in the clinic was responsible for their pain reduction at follow-up, 43 percent said that 80 to 100 percent of their pain improvement at follow-up was due to what they had learned in the stress clinic, and another 25 percent said that 50 to 80 percent of their pain improvement was due to what they learned there. So by their own reports, the meditation training had lasting effects in terms of their pain improvements.

In another study, we compared two groups of pain patients. All 42 people in this study were being treated in our hospital's pain clinic using standard medical protocols as well as supportive therapies such as physical therapy. But one group of 21 patients was also practicing the meditation in the stress clinic in addition to their pain clinic treatments, while the other group had not yet been referred to the stress clinic. Both groups were followed over a ten-week period, the meditators between the time they started and the time they finished the stress clinic' the other group between the time they started their pain clinic treatments and ten weeks later.

We knew from previous studies that we could expect the meditators to show large reductions in pain and psychological distress on our rating scales. The question was, How would the meditators compare with other patients in the pain clinic who were not practicing meditation but who were receiving powerful medical treatments for pain?

The result was that the nomeditators showed little change over the ten weeks that they were being treated in the pain clinic, while the meditators showed the major improvements we expected to see. For example, the meditators showed a 36 percent improvement in pain on the PRI, while the nonmeditators had no improvement; and they showed a 37 improvement in negative body image, while the nonmeditators had a 2 percent improvement. The meditators also showed an 87 percent improvement in mood, while the nonmeditators showed only a 22 percent improvement; and they had a 77 percent improvement in psychological distress, while the nonmeditators had an 11 percent improvement.

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posted August 14, 2011 11:24 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for mochai     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
MBSR and fibromyalgia

Kenneth H. Kaplan, M.D, Don L. Goldenberg, M.D., and Maureen Galvin-Nadeau, M.S., C.S., The Impact of a Meditation-Based Stress Reduction Program on Fibromyalgia. General Hospital Psychiatry 15, 284-289, 1993.

Abstract:

Fibromyalgia is a chronic illness characterized by widespread pain, fatigue, sleep disturbance, and resistance to treatment.

The purpose of this study was to evaluate the effectiveness of a meditation-based stress reduction program on fibromyalgia. Seventy-seven patients meeting the 1990 criteria of the American College of Rheumatology for fibromyalgia took part in a 10-week group outpatient program. Therapists followed a carefully defined treatment approach and met weekly to further promote uniformity.

Patients were evaluated before and after the program. Initial evaluation included a psychiatric structured clinical interview (SCID). Outcome measures included visual analog scales to measure global well being, pain, sleep, fatigue, and feeling refreshed in the morning. Patients also completed a medical symptom checklist, SCL-90-R, Coping Strategies Questionnaire, Fibromyalgia Impact Questionnaire, and the Fibromyalgia Attitude Index. Although the mean scores of all the patients completing the program showed improvement, 51% showed moderate to marked improvement and only they were counted as “responders”.

These preliminary findings suggest that a meditation-based stress reduction program is effective for patients with fibromyalgia.

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New Treatment

While fibromyalgia is the most common disease seen in women by their rheumatologists, it has emerged as a condition that is darn difficult to treat. To that end, a research group from the University of Basel has suggested a new type of treatment as an effective method for alleviating the symptoms of fibromyalgia. This new treatment is a systematic program called Mindfulness-based stress reduction (MBSR) that can reduce the suffering associated with a large number of medical ailments of which fibromyalgia is just one.

The researchers found improvement in a variety of aspects pertaining to the general well-being of fibromyalgia patients who used MBSR. Chief among these areas where improvement was seen were coping ability, a positive attitude, a lessening of depression and anxiety, decreased symptoms, and far greater quality of life (QoL). The researchers analyzed the effects of MBSR versus social support groups over a period of 8 weeks in 58 middle-aged women with fibromyalgia.

The groups formed according to the date of entry of the participants with 6 participants dropping out of the study before completion of the program. Those participating in the study measured their own progress by various means such as visual analog pain, pain perception, coping with pain, quality of life, and a checklist of symptoms.

The visual analog pain involves using common adjectives to describe the level of pain at a given point. The patient supplies the date, the activity performed at the time the pain is experienced, and records the beginning and ending of the pain experience.

Pain perception has to do with the particular sensitivities of the individual. For instance, most of us are not aware of the pressure of the clothing we wear on our skin.
Freaking Out?

Coping with pain has to do with our response to pain at any given time. Do we freak out, or act brave? Are we depressed or insist on being positive in the face of adversity?

Quality of life is the level of our ability to feel fulfillment as we go about living our daily lives.

The German study assessed the data as reported by the patients both before and during the treatment with MBSR. It was also possible to create a 3 year follow-up report on 26 of the original participants. MBSR appeared to offer far greater benefits as compared to support groups in terms of all the categories of measurement performed by the participants. The three year follow-up of the 26 participants suggested that the benefits seen in MBSR were of long-term benefit to females with fibromyalgia

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posted August 14, 2011 11:33 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for mochai     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I also personally think fibromyalgia is kundalini. Maybe you can ask your spirit friends if this is the case and you have a reversed shushumna (the central channel of your spine). People have reported doing well with David Wolfe's grounding mats with fibromyalgia, and grounding certainly works with kudnalini.. People have also commented that it has improved their pain for other conditions. http://www.amazon.com/Earthing-Universal-Mat-Cover/dp/B003RLOBOK

There are also good grounding visualizations that I use that should work along the same spectrum of the grounding mats.. Kundalini causes intense pains sometimes when parts of the energy body start moving out blockages. http://www.elcollie.com/st/symptoms.html

If kundalini is causing your fibromyalgia, it is best to not lay down for the body scans as laying down flat on your back increases kundalini. Also holding your back strait will help with psychological issues that arise. Frequently doing the gyan mudra will also help with grounding and will help your body handle kundalini better. Sometimes when my kundalini is really bad, I've been known to duct tape my fingers into this mudra and duct tape grounding stones on my feet.

If you want to read the MBSR book, and can't go to the library or interlibrary loan it, you can have my copy. You would make better use of it.

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posted August 14, 2011 05:50 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for lechien     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
LEXX, i'm so sorry you have to live with that... off the top of my head, i just thought of something... never mind if i'm just rambling.

my ex-BF's best friend was a Chinese masseuse, and he healed a man who was paralysed. his arms and legs were stiff and he could not move them. it took a long time, but in the end the man could barely walk on his legs.

now, i know it's totally different from having bodily pain, but i understand that Chinese massage can find out many problems of the body, and do amazing things. this friend once gave me a massage, and i laid down and he touched my back. really he just roughly touched my back! and he asked me if i was drinking too much coffee and not enough water.

maybe you can give it a try once and see if they can say anything about your symptoms, or even do anything about it?

hows your vitamin C therapy going?

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posted August 14, 2011 06:15 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for cathy     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Lexx maybe you could try those suggestions.I can't imagine what you are going through. I'm not a nurse but a registed care aide. I go to peoples homes.All I can really do sometimes is try to make them comfortable, Your health problems are in no way your fault,

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posted August 14, 2011 06:25 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
mochai
Thank you.
I have tried a similar thing and doctors say I have amazing strength to cope as well as I do.
Like I said,
they want me on 5x more pain meds than I will take.
If it were just Fobromyalgia it would be easier to deal with.
However it is muchly do to spinal nerve and other nerve damages, the hardest pain to manage.
Much scarring adhesions and collapsed spinal discs.
I have lost some 1 3/4 inches in height and the discs grate on each other, and the scars on crushed nerves and internal abdominal scaring affects it all and is untreatable.
The ripped muscles and tendons in back, legs, one foot left more scar/adhesions of which nothing will fix. Three head injuries/fractured skull have left their mark too.
Add in severe osteophytes,
thorny to small sharp knife blade/dagger like bony projections into the neural areas on all my ribs and entire spine and yeah, it gets bad.
Add in extremely easily bruised non tanning hyper sensitive allergy affected skin and even more trouble. I get bruised a lot but no reasons found.
Thank you though!
I will try and reply more concerning the Kundalini. That I feel is a good thing and welcome and not cause of the pain.
In fact I feel it has helped me as I am better than a decade ago before its activation and all.
PS.
I do know stress makes it psychologically and emotionally harder to cope with but does not seem to worsen the pain in any way.


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posted August 14, 2011 06:28 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by cathy:
Lexx maybe you could try those suggestions.I can't imagine what you are going through. I'm not a nurse but a registed care aide. I go to peoples homes.All I can really do sometimes is try to make them comfortable, Your health problems are in no way your fault,

Blessings to you Cathy
Oh yes I will give careful consideration to any and all suggestions!

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posted August 14, 2011 06:39 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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posted August 14, 2011 07:31 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mochai     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
The pain management program is designed just for people with your type of injuries. It has a very high success rate, and has been around long enough that you should be able to interlibrary loan it as an audio-book should you be having blind spells.

Not only that but it has a high success rate for treating emotional upheavel and anxiety given it's psychosomatic focus. It's still worth a look.. The fact that it's not a major part of every hospital pain management program is a travesty.

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posted August 15, 2011 07:29 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for lechien     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by LEXX:

Oh I would love to try Chinese massage and even acupuncture but such is not covered by my insurance and I cannot afford the costs.

i feared so. it's going to take many more years unfortunately till they start trusting the "results" of certain medical practices and not whether it's scientifically provable or acceptable. Chinese medicine has been around for longer than the Western medicine. but the "new-comer" cannot prove Chinese medicine using their own method, so that means it doesn't work and doesn't get covered by insurance! oh well...

well, all i can say is i hope you'll find a way... in the meantime, it may be worth it to look deeper into what Mochai is introducing. good luck!!!

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posted August 15, 2011 03:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by mochai:
The pain management program is designed just for people with your type of injuries. It has a very high success rate, and has been around long enough that you should be able to interlibrary loan it as an audio-book should you be having blind spells.

Not only that but it has a high success rate for treating emotional upheavel and anxiety given it's psychosomatic focus. It's still worth a look.. The fact that it's not a major part of every hospital pain management program is a travesty.


I will see if I can get it from the library!
Thank you!

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posted August 15, 2011 03:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by lechien:
i feared so. it's going to take many more years unfortunately till they start trusting the "results" of certain medical practices and not whether it's scientifically provable or acceptable. Chinese medicine has been around for longer than the Western medicine. but the "new-comer" cannot prove Chinese medicine using their own method, so that means it doesn't work and doesn't get covered by insurance! oh well...

well, all i can say is i hope you'll find a way... in the meantime, it may be worth it to look deeper into what Mochai is introducing. good luck!!!


Thank you
And yes, as soon as I can I will look into all of these things!

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((( Hugs )))

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Hi Lexx
Having lupus, and rheumatoid arthritis, I can relate to a degree, but probably nothing close.
I probably won't add much than what you already know, but I'll give ya all I got.

Personally I TAKE my pain meds.
I am a woose and I can't stand being in the twisted creature kind of pain that you were describing.
I would rather be dopey than that, b/c how much are you really functioning while being in that much pain.
Also, over the years I've learned that taking the meds BEFORE the pain gets bad, makes them work a whole lot better, and in the end you don't need as much.

I've had different things wrong with me over the years that they couldn't figure out, and they always make you feel like you are making it up, and it gets so bad, you just wanna, well you know, EXIT.

I use to think, and this is awful.. but I use to think.. "Well, I can't wait til I die, and when they cut me open, FINALLY they will say "OH, No freaking wonder she was complaining all the time! X, Y and Z are wrong in here, and we didn't see it!"

Then they would go tell my family, and my family would feel sorry that they ever doubted me.
So, I guess what I am saying is that my negativity fed into more negativity, and it was just like an endless cycle. ugh.
I mean, not saying you, me, she, he,, them.. don't have cause, I'm just saying that what can you do, besides get through each day?

Anyway, the worst issues I ever went through were these migraines.. I mean, alot of people have migraines. I think I've read that once a month is EXCESSIVE, and some people confuse a really bad headache with a migraine, but I had these kinds where I could not see, speak, think.. I mean, it felt like someone was stabbing me violently in one side of my head.

I would go to the ER, they would dope me up, I would pray it was over, then I would come home and when the stuff wore off, they were back.
This was for about 3 weeks long, and at the tme I had a brand new infant.

On the last day, I sat on my floor and just thudded my head against the wall, over and over, and over.
I thought if I could just knock myself unconscious, I would get some relief!
What I did was scare the crap out of my mother and she called the ambulance.

They took me in and read my records, seeing how many recent visits I had. (my friend IS a nurse, and she said this causes suspicion b/c if you go to ER alot, the staff can think you are an addict out of drugs, and needing to get a fix, so you are pretending you have an issue.)
This time, I had a great internest that happended to be working that shift, and she was an and she taught me some things about pain control, but first she ordered a bunch of tests that are not normally ordered for migraines.
One was a spinal tap.. owwww, but that sort of turned everything around.

It came back with uber amounts of protein in it. Your spinal fluid should not have protein in it.
This led to the conclusion that there was an infection somewhere in my body.

Long story short..
I had had one for yearsssss and didnt know it.
The first few years of my life (13 of them) were with people who didnt believe in doctors, antibiotics, or anything but wives tale type of remedies.
I suffered alot in pain as a kid, but what do you know then?
I was told when I had an infection that "it will go away." so, I got no treatment.
It's just the way it was.

So, I stayed in the hosp for a long time and they gave me IV antibiotics and my headaches are now just a yearly, or bi-yearly thing.
But, what I learned to deal, I will tell you in the next post, lol. Cause you guys are prolly tired of reading my story by now.


Just wanted you to know you had company on this weird journey of mysterious sicknesses.

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((( Hugs )))
Thank you

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Originally posted by GypseeWind:
Hi Lexx
Having lupus, and rheumatoid arthritis, I can relate to a degree, but probably nothing close.

I would not want your ills, they sound awful too. {{{hugs}}}
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Originally posted by GypseeWind:
I probably won't add much than what you already know, but I'll give ya all I got.

Personally I TAKE my pain meds.
I am a woose and I can't stand being in the twisted creature kind of pain that you were describing.
I would rather be dopey than that, b/c how much are you really functioning while being in that much pain.


I get too zombie. Then I am down. So whether in pain or doped my quality of life suxs. At lowest pain I can function enough and even at higher a bit. Many meds screw up my eyesight, that being the worse thing.
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Also, over the years I've learned that taking the meds BEFORE the pain gets bad, makes them work a whole lot better, and in the end you don't need as much.

That is what my doctor said too. So wants me to take at very least some on a regular schedule.

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I've had different things wrong with me over the years that they couldn't figure out, and they always make you feel like you are making it up, and it gets so bad, you just wanna, well you know, EXIT.

I use to think, and this is awful.. but I use to think.. "Well, I can't wait til I die, and when they cut me open, FINALLY they will say "OH, No freaking wonder she was complaining all the time! X, Y and Z are wrong in here, and we didn't see it!"

Then they would go tell my family, and my family would feel sorry that they ever doubted me.[b]


Oh gods I know exactly what you mean! People look at me and say, "well you don't look sick". I am like wtf? Many ills do not show! You cannot see, or see clearly such things as neurological damage, IBS, spasms, neuralgia, fibromyalgia, arthritis of any kind, diabetes, migranes, seizures(unless having them), Narcalepsy, and so forth. And of course only those in my home would see me at my bed ridden diaper wearing partial paralyzed, with black blindness, in crying even screaming agony times.
Gods I hate that, "but you don't look sick" bullshite.
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So, I guess what I am saying is that my negativity fed into more negativity, and it was just like an endless cycle. ugh.
I mean, not saying you, me, she, he,, them.. don't have cause, I'm just saying that what can you do, besides get through each day?

Yes. But as you personally know it is so damn hard at times and the crap and not understanding from folks makes it oh so harder to cope and keep one's chin up. But yeah, gotta keep trying.
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posted August 17, 2011 03:01 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Anyway, the worst issues I ever went through were these migraines.. I mean, alot of people have migraines. I think I've read that once a month is EXCESSIVE, and some people confuse a really bad headache with a migraine, but I had these kinds where I could not see, speak, think.. I mean, it felt like someone was stabbing me violently in one side of my head.

I would go to the ER, they would dope me up, I would pray it was over, then I would come home and when the stuff wore off, they were back.
This was for about 3 weeks long, and at the tme I had a brand new infant.

On the last day, I sat on my floor and just thudded my head against the wall, over and over, and over.
I thought if I could just knock myself unconscious, I would get some relief!
What I did was scare the crap out of my mother and she called the ambulance.

They took me in and read my records, seeing how many recent visits I had. (my friend IS a nurse, and she said this causes suspicion b/c if you go to ER alot, the staff can think you are an addict out of drugs, and needing to get a fix, so you are pretending you have an issue.)
This time, I had a great internest that happended to be working that shift, and she was an and she taught me some things about pain control, but first she ordered a bunch of tests that are not normally ordered for migraines.
One was a spinal tap.. owwww, but that sort of turned everything around.

It came back with uber amounts of protein in it. Your spinal fluid should not have protein in it.
This led to the conclusion that there was an infection somewhere in my body.

Long story short..
I had had one for yearsssss and didnt know it.
The first few years of my life (13 of them) were with people who didnt believe in doctors, antibiotics, or anything but wives tale type of remedies.
I suffered alot in pain as a kid, but what do you know then?
I was told when I had an infection that "it will go away." so, I got no treatment.
It's just the way it was.

So, I stayed in the hosp for a long time and they gave me IV antibiotics and my headaches are now just a yearly, or bi-yearly thing.


Omg! Your experiences sound much like mine and my ex to be. Except for the newborn baby and the spinal tap. Yes near identical story! {{{hugs}}}
However his are still ongoing and may be seizure linked. Still awaiting test results.
I am glad you have so few now.
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But, what I learned to deal, I will tell you in the next post, lol. Cause you guys are prolly tired of reading my story by now.


Just wanted you to know you had company on this weird journey of mysterious sicknesses.



Yes please do tell more! Not tired of reading your story at all dear one.
Just sad you have and do go through such hells too.

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posted August 18, 2011 11:48 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Cancer/Scorpio729     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Oh Lexx, I can't even imagine. I'm sorry I won't be much help for your pain, but I hope it lets off soon

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posted August 23, 2011 01:27 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for GypseeWind     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Normally I forget where I've written, but I remembered writing here!

hee hee, anyway, I just wanted to say, I had not forgot that I said I would be back with more, but IDK if this is maybe the place to go on with the story b/c I know many here are into holistic healing and I am not.
So, I don't wish to offend anyone.

I will add a few techniques that may be of some help, here when I'm feeling a bit better myself, and can put two thoughts together and actually have them make sense.

In the meantime, Keep your chin up, you are here for a reason, and you are reaching out as such & may be helping an untold amount of people!
I mean, who knows how many people read and lurk these forums and feel comforted that another speaks out about their illness.
For some, it's very difficult, its a pride issue..

My husband was raised in a home where it was shameful and weak to be sick.
If he didn't feel good, he was afraid to tell his mother b/c she would send him to his room the whole day and night.
She actually once said, "If you are sick, I don't want to look at you, go to bed."

These sort of perceptions of the sick are STILL around, no matter how we wish they were not.
Just look in the working world,
you are awarded for all the days you've shown up
you are reprimanded or even fired for the days you don't, even if you have a doctors note, I know, cause it happened to me.
So you may say,
"Well, a company can't run if the employees are off sick."
True, true..
so, we should just hire the healthy and hearty and throw the rest away, no mattter what they may bring to the table, instead of maybe thinking of more creative ways to accomodate them??

I'm not talking about kids who don't show up on monday mornings b/c they are hung over I am talking about legit stuff here.

I feel even MORE pity for the people who TREAT people this way, because if you've ever been around one when THEY get sick, OMG, you think the world is ending.
When THEY see what it's like, then it's a totally different story..
but, by then, youve probably already been fired.
This is sad.
And this is also TRUE.

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posted August 23, 2011 01:58 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
GypseeWind
I sure can relate to all you have said.
Yes, when I was growing up was treated the same.
And the rest you said, yes, totally understand.
And OMG yes! The people who treat ill folks badly or say its Karma or God's will or incorrect thought, or LOA,
OMG do most of them become the biggest whining cry babies oh poor woe is them when the become ill or injured.
All their self righteous opinions of they do not allow them selves to be ill, they have correct thought, yadda yadda, usually goes right out their window!
And jobs, oooh grrrs don't even get me started!
I was fired after I became disabled even with hospital excuses etc., and my ex to be has been threatened with losing his job because of his seizures etc.

I am doing my best.
And thank you for your kindness and caring last evening when I was having a bit of a frustrating/scary neurological episode. {{{hugs}}}
I was afraid at first that it was another mini-stroke but so far does not seem to be, but will definitely keep an eye on it until all symptoms leave and my motor skills return to my normal.


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posted August 23, 2011 02:18 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LEXX     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I think too, many folks are reluctant to post their ills here at Health And Healing because of the prevailing opinions of many new age folks' thinking.
It becomes very depressing to be told.
You asked for it, Law of Attraction.
You made a deal before you were born.
Karma, you have bad Karma and deserve it.
You have incorrect thought...hence again, all your fault.
Why would anyone want to post and ask for help only to be told one way or other that they caused all their ills?
Geeez!
I know I hated telling, because yes, I have been told all those things here at LL,
and even that I must be spiritually a low life unevolved soul.
Wow!
And yes, so interesting what big boo hooers the many become, who do look down their
"I am more spiritually evolved"
snobby self righteous noses,
when misfortune falls upon their lives.
I am like fraking walk a mile in my and others shoes before giving your holier than thou opinion.

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~‎"You have to be willing to give up the life you've planned for in order to live the life that's waiting for you." ~Joseph Campbell
The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change."
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