posted October 29, 2011 10:53 AM            

Anyway, the first one I tried was from the Herbal Healer. I initially took the proper dose, but then moved it to once a day (and then, not every day), because I didn't want to affect my own body's production, and I was afraid of potential weird side-effects (not knowing anyone else who has taken it - other than my parents, but I'll get to that later). I was given another bottle, but didn't take it as I should have, and just used it here and there, which was silly, because it might have helped me during the more stressful times. We also couldn't really afford it, though, and I found myself resenting having to take anything to feel good (stupid, I know). I also felt guilty taking it, when my Bertie was dying in front of me, and nothing was helping him for long.

I'm rambling. My first week on it, September of last year, I felt great. I immediately felt more relaxed, and zoned out on the couch most of the weekend. I also thought that I'd lost a little weight, although I've been having trouble keeping most foods down, so that could have been it. My mother just gave me a different bottle, a spray bottle - and another homeopathic version - and I had the same response on the first day. I was completely relaxed for several hours, and ended up curled up on the floor, just in a half-snooze. (My Dad just said that Schnapps can do the same thing. ) I'm still a bit wary, though. Mum took it years ago (late 90's, expensive powder or capsules, and she said that at the time she took it, her dentist told her that she had the gums of a fifteen-year-old). I think she said that Dad was sleeping better, as well.