posted September 04, 2014 01:56 PM
But we're talking about the catalyzer here, huh? The composite is quite cute. This is why I'm here. I'm not going to kill myself, I just feel too much right now. Too. much.
So, yesterday. I crashed in my pillow hyperventilating. I almost suffocated but i didn't care. I cried and cried and cried and cried the whole night. I was breathing thanks to my mouth but the gasps and sobbing made it a lot harder. I am so tired today.
Why?
a message, a powerful connection, a repetitive dream and a never ending cycle which keeps happening.
Thank you Saturn+PSYCHE, for finally stabilizing that Neptune and giving some soul to that beautiful CIRCE+Sun-moon-mercury+CERES conjunction. Two beautiful souls kept alive by mercury - just communication, information. Though, afflicted by LILITH.
A pretty CUPID+NN-PALLAS-VALENTINE, but opposite the so well known spiritually transforming Uranus/SN/oh, KAALI! I missed you. Right in 12th, pisces. Wonderful.
More? CHIRON-NESSUS-SPIRIT+DEJANIRA, the wound, oh the wound, squaring the CIRCE+sun-moon-mercury+CERES poor couple.
Mars-pluto giving a little more intensity to those two, too.
FORTUNA+UNION-KARMA-VERTEX+JUNO... yes yes yes. I know.
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NN sabian, " A POWERFUL STATESMAN OVER-COMES A STATE OF POLITICAL HYSTERIA."
SN sabian, "AN ANCIENT SWORD, USED IN MANY BATTLES, IS DISPLAYED IN A MUSEUM." this. this.
UNION sabian, "A WOMAN FEEDING CHICKENS AND PROTECTING THEM FROM THE HAWKS." )The need to face the antagonism of "powers of darkness" as one attempts to feed the mind of as yet helpless and frightened apprentices.(
SUN sabian, "A BUTTERFLY WITH A THIRD WING ON ITS LEFT SIDE." )The ability to develop, for inner strengthening, new modes of response to basic life situations.(
MERCURY sabian, "THE SIGHT OF AN AUTUMN LEAF BRINGS TO A PILGRIM THE SUDDEN REVELATION OF THE MYSTERY OF LIFE AND DEATH." )The ability to discover in every experience a transcendent or cosmic meaning.(
PLUTO sabian, "A FLAG BEARER IN A BATTLE."
MARS sabian, "AN OLD BRIDGE OVER A BEAUTIFUL STREAM IS STILL IN CONSTANT USE."
Just a rant.
An exhale.
A save.
I'm fine.