posted December 10, 2014 11:47 AM            

Its like I needed someone to push me against the wall and slap me in the face figuratively and you did that...

Since then I have been focusing on my career goals and marriage and my personal growth and plan these three things to be my focus..

I am not exactly saying you were 100% right but I will admit you were right in some levels.

I do have the power to not FEED the memory of my ex and direct that energy and focus to productive things. It doesn't mean that I have to completely forget and pretend that we didn't happen but its the acceptance that this is in my past and I must live in the present.

Since I moved back to Miami I have not seeked him but he has been in my mind. I had mostly let go of him TBH but this last year (november 2013-november 2014) I got sucked in again for a number of reasons: saturn transit and chiron transit. Chiron is transiting both of our moons and saturn has been activating but is now separating thankfully his Sun, my Psyche and our composite midpoint Apex and Reaction point. Further our progress composite is in scorpio at 29 degrees right now and transit saturn will be conjuncting this soon. Scorpio been obsessive and saturn dealing with karma and limitations I got sucked back into our past.

The other reason is that I experienced some trauma in Nov 2013 that completely put my life upside down and since I have moon in pisces in the 4th ruling the 8th this sort of thing can trigger in me going back to the past to remember other trauma as well as good times.

Life is hard for everyone and I am doing my best with what I have been given but its clear that now is the time to release karma I have with him which can only be accomplished with true acceptance in all levels and by living in the present, striving to be better and by been grateful for what I have.

posted December 10, 2014 05:32 PM            

Thank you!