posted December 13, 2014 02:47 PM            

So, hi there! Whether you're new to our cosy corner of LL, or a long-time lurker and recently registered, you're likely wondering who we are; who are your Modly Ones -- Ceridwen, LeeLoo, Lotis, and myself?

I won't speak for my fellow IAM's, (isn't that cool? We're 'I AM''s, guys!) but I'll gladly give you an introduction that's well overdue.

I came to be, bathed in golden light, one autumn morning in 1980, during the first wave of an influx of Twin Flames; the second surge of Indigos, scouting the way for the youngest Millennials presently here on the big blue ball. One I'm proud to call my stepdaughter.

Though I've seen my share of trauma (who hasn't?) in a literal trial by fire which took my childhood home at age 13; that same year, I remembered repressed sexual abuse spanning several years from my extended family (an older cousin). It was a rough realisation.

I was isolated as a young genius with the potential to do really big things, and spent the most of my adolescence either in covert operations, running point as a civilian for government stings in the digital underground, or graduating at the top of my school.

Oh, and I've been an astrologer since 1989. (Don't tell anybody, but a lot of my success as an operative was due to my learning the language of the stars early.) My other big thing was science, and I found myself one of the top debunkers in ufology at 18, the youngest in history for the organisation. So I went to college having created a global research organisation of my own, to bring scientific integrity to the field of ufology and paranormal investigation in general. (Save the Scully jokes; yeah, I'm an auburn; yeah, it was my nickname. Yeah, I finally 'saw aliens' you might say, and my life hasn't been the same.)

My future was really, exceedingly bright. I was unstoppable. Despite a volatile home life (after the fire, my mother fell ill with Grave's Disease, and led to a long period of instability, fear, and some emotional dysfunction; it's all forgiven now) I dedicated myself to helping others and using my gift of analysis to come out on top. I was a young Sherlockian type; intensely private, often escaping into a world of fantasy of my own creation, cultivating the writerly skill set I have today.

The few relationships I had were karmic in nature, and I found my niche early. I just considered it all theory. Relationships weren't my thing, either. (Asexual, FTW.) I was a loner. Oddly proud of my solitary status. This continued into college where the FBI began to take an active interest in my profile, wishing to procure me for their newly forming cyber crimes division. Intrigued, I took point from those who remain some of my finest mentors in law enforcement, and began training with the Quantico curriculum.

Then ... I got sick. Fibromyalgia. Oh, like hell I believed it. But, at 25, the diagnosis was made. Everything fit, too. I was accepted into the FBI. (You ever see 'The Blacklist'? Yeah. The main chick's personality and job title is based on me. As to why? Long story.) I was on my way to DC, where I felt I'd belonged all of my life.

Then I zagged. 28 years old. Out of a bad relationship, accepting my new condition, and preparing for a new start, right as my first Saturn Return kicks into gear.

This young woman went west. Hollywood. Tinseltown. Rather than seeking fame, a place to belong. I was hanging up my spurs. Criminal profiler was not the road I'd be taking in this dimension. I was going to try my hand at joining the ranks of The Industry. Be the Wizard; make the pretty lights and smoke; have the booming voice.

As a producer, it was slow-going. I fell back into old habits. My forensic psych degree parlayed into a private practise. And Alice quickly found herself down the rabbit-hole, in the midst of the City of Angels' kink community. I counselled everyone: dominatrices, submissives, switches, and everything in between. Gender-identity issues. Intimacy problems. Polyamorous relationships.

I donned an alternate ego which, (if you know it, keep it mum) offered me minor celebrity. And, having received an official diagnosis of Schizoid Personality Disorder at age 20, found I really, really didn't like. I got out of the darker, kinky spotlight for awhile. Plus, I was stumbling into too many psychopathic types, some easily homicidal. And, uh, I'm trying to stuff down an innate tendency to go Dexter Morgan on those who show such disrespect for human life.

Found myself back in the shadows, doing what I do best. Working quietly to make big, big changes. Sometimes, I still help out and catch a bad guy doing bad things. Most of the time, I write, perform, sing, research, and use astrology to reconnect with my centre.

Astrology is my 'exhale'. It's the way I relax, unwind, and passionately pursue the secrets of the universe and my soul. (Quantum physics, too, but it's not as relaxing.)

So I'm your go-to gal for karmic relationships. One of your top 'Twin Flame evaluator'. I'll give you the reality, too. I'm no fatalist, but I won't sugarcoat it, either.

Astrology, for me, is a science. It's research and data sets. It's the art of potential energy as captured in a celestial blueprint. We have freedom to do with that energy as we wish. Karmic astrology is a little more cutting. It gives you the straight story, and in extreme detail, should you be willing to truly go through the looking-glass. These days, I am.

And now I'm here to help you.

I'm a multidimensional intuitive scientist and creative professional. I'll use basically everything I've got to give you a complete portrait of the situation. And I've pretty much done every kind of astrology under the sun, and possess high expertise in much of it. But I'm ALWAYS learning.

So don't get disheartened if the shrink comes out and says you're lying to yourself. I don't believe in holding back; I believe in helping. And don't be upset if I don't see Twin Flame signatures, or your karmic relationship is likely to teach you lessons and be self-limiting. I try and approach things with a more Zen perspective. A true Stoic. (Thanks for that, Vajra.)

As an astrologer, I'm a hard ass. I want results, and I'll give them to you. We can then run the commonsense test together to see what's REALLY going on. I also have dozens of research projects running at any given moment. I can't get enough knowledge. I can't get enough learning people and things. I love working with you because it improves my experience and gives to me something neither of us had prior. It's unique, and I flat out enjoy it.

Be mindful that many things always in the background and offing means I may not get immediately back to you. But it will happen. As I've been a pro for the past 20 years, I'm delighted to work with you in an official capacity, too.

So. Welcome to IA @ LL.

This is me. (In a very condensed, hardly comprehensive nutshell).

posted December 13, 2014 03:25 PM            

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Originally posted by I'm so cappy:
If I haven't known your chart, I would've thought you're a Leo after coming here.

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:: arm-pump through gritted-teeth :: YES!

North Node personality, Level 4 unlocked!

In truth, I was raised by a triple Leo mom, and a lunar Leo father. My PSE was in Leo, and my NNODE is, of course, Leo. 12H, too. It wasn't an easy access.

posted December 13, 2014 03:38 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
My Moon Dwad is on 25 Leo.

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posted December 13, 2014 04:14 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Nothing wrong with us. We are Leos, sort of. how could anything be wrong with us?

It`s the world who has never been ready for us, you know? Itīs them, not us. We are queens!

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posted December 13, 2014 04:39 PM            

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In truth, I was raised by a triple Leo mom, and a lunar Leo father. My PSE was in Leo, and my NNODE is, of course, Leo. 12H, too. It wasn't an easy access.

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posted December 13, 2014 04:39 PM            

Or should I say Copy-Cats
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posted December 13, 2014 04:41 PM            

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Originally posted by LeeLoo2014:
Or should I say Copy-Cats

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posted December 13, 2014 04:48 PM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Hey, Ceri, where's yours?

Lee? Lotis? C'mon! Don't be shy.

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posted December 13, 2014 05:20 PM            

*learn to distinguish to unite myself*

probably a bad translation ^ but you get the point and in my own language it sounds AWESOME while still selling it to the world as *ME*.... came to this world completely lost in higher dimensions / past lifes / soulmates etc .. everyone & everything was fine and God itself u know.. aaggh... crazy! I even couldn't feel my body anymore.. but hospitals told me I had one.

posted December 13, 2014 05:28 PM            

then we proceed to this:

then we split the PREY!!!!!! and we devour it separately (or maybe together?? I have to think about this)

posted December 13, 2014 05:30 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Mine what?

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posted December 13, 2014 06:30 PM            

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Originally posted by Pretty Theft:
Damn! Amazing life! I love LA, I grew up there. Lived in Hollywood for 3 years. Definitely some of the weirdest times I've ever had.

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I'm a Dallas girl, PT, but I've got to say, they call it La La Land out here for a reason!

Plus, following with the Leonine theme, my Virgo ASC becomes Leo here in LA.

As to my amazing life, heh, I've been told I should write a hell of an autobio someday. And I will; once I've written everything else that I need to.

Hollywood. What a wild area. I've got my sights on the outskirts of Beverly right now. Venice is lovely, but it's time to turn the page. Well -- soon. I'm grateful, and I'm fortunate, for everything it's brought me.

posted December 13, 2014 06:52 PM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
As to my amazing life, heh, I've been told I should write a hell of an autobio someday. And I will; once I've written everything else that I need to.

Hollywood. What a wild area. I've got my sights on the outskirts of Beverly right now. Venice is lovely, but it's time to turn the page. Well -- soon. I'm grateful, and I'm fortunate, for everything it's brought me.

Boy, LA will give you some powerful experiences.

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Yes, it sounds like a William Gibson novel. Especially Spook Country.

posted December 13, 2014 09:29 PM            

I have a strange yet depressing pride in being the most "normal" presence. Though Ice may be THE most normal, albeit in a fluffy bubble.

posted December 13, 2014 11:45 PM            

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Originally posted by Blind writer:
Yea, you're missing a few chapters. Like the Hermione phase. Or the serial rapist who is outside the system. Or the Hollywood jerk who stole your script. Or the klepto. Or the childhood friend-turned-monster. Or the - okay, I'll stop now.

I have a strange yet depressing pride in being the most "normal" presence. Though Ice may be THE most normal, albeit in a fluffy bubble.

You make life interesting, vicariously. Keep it rockin'.

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