posted January 15, 2015 11:14 PM
I keep pulling in men with whom the composite brings CHIRON on our DSC in some fashion. Usually involving VERTEX, too. As Lee said, 'you HAVE noticed this, right?' Heh.
It's no coincidence you're having a lot of hard NEPTUNE synastry. Think of the meat of it. What does NEP represent? What happens when we've got squares, oppositions -- even semisquares?
Seems like these relationships / dynamics / relational patterns are here to help you learn something about honesty, truth, perception, deception, illusion, idealism, fantasy, and romanticism.
That's a lot!
So, typically, we break down the core elements. Truth and honesty versus deception and lies. Illusion compared to idealism. Are we relating more on a level of fantasy or reality? How much is rose-tinted versus through-the-magnifying glass?
We all have to do the 'reality check' from time to time. Hard NEP synastries are always reminding us to pay attention to how the actuality might be matching up -- or mismatched -- to the perception.
Conversely, sorting through your 'Neptune issues' can lead to a kind of beautiful, fantastical experience -- the likes of which isn't likely on earth.
My husband and I were talking about how it's typical for couples to fantasise about someone else -- usually famous -- while 'engaged' with their partner. WHILE. He says this is, after all, 'common'. I said it's tragic!
I've been consciously striving, in both of my relationships, to relate honestly and presently during my intimate experiences. Oh, it's hardly all that wonderful, having to face the less glamourous and unsexy reality of relating one-on-one -- and being poor at doing so.
Instead, as I told my husband, I'm determined to elevate sexuality; to experience a total merging on all levels. Here. In the present. Not to escape into some fantasy. It seems dishonest to me -- doesn't it to you? Shouldn't we be WITH our partner -- 100% -- when we're WITH them?
That's a bit of what my hard NEP (and soft, too) synastry has been teaching me. I don't HAVE to be 'satisfied' with the escapism that 'common' lovemaking tends to have as an inherent feature in the modern world. I can strive for BETTER. By making the REALITY its own shared fantasy, built by two, consciously.
My husband also said, 'I decided, when I married you, I'd never have to lie again.' We both respect each other immensely for being what most couples consider to be 'too honest'. We've had to work through a LOT. But when your spouse says to you, 'they tell you to marry your best friend -- and I have,' there's a rare satisfaction in that truth.
And it couldn't have been achieved by anything BUT truth, in our case.