posted April 16, 2015 09:53 AM
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Originally posted by LeeLoo2014:
I'm noticing Anteros/ASC and Anteros/NN which I think is very nice, experiencing feeling loved. Mars/Uranus however needs a lot of action, pretty unpredictable opposition.
We both are high energy ppl, we like to keep moving so I can see that.
He can call and say I miss you, I could be in town tonight but I have to be back at work tomorrow morning....do you want me to come up?
I say yes, and 3 hours later he's here. Then he has to leave again in the morning.
Or he will call unexpectedly in the afternoon saying he will be getting the night off and ask me to meet him, so I'll jump up and drive the 3 hours to meet him. At least that's how it was last time we were seeing each other.
I didn't handle it so well and it was part of our breakup. I wanted more stability....
He couldn't change anything at that time.
While we were apart he went out and bought his own business so now he doesn't work for anyone.
Even though it will never be completely calm it will get easier once his company is totally paid for, at least then he will be able to chose his time off because he's the one delegating the work.
Things like what's happening right now, he's in a valley, has been for a couple days....so he has no cell signal. Last time we were together things like this drove me crazy and I got mad because I thought he was ignoring me. He didn't want to feel like he had to answer to me constantly so he wouldn't always tell me when he was going to be out of cell service area.
We have a tight DW Uranus square Mars, neither of us like to answer to the other, lol!!
But I think this provides hope-
My Saturn opposes his aqua Mars and squares my own scorp Uranus in my natal chart tight. So I'm used to this stress.
My scorp Uranus is on my Kaali and on his scorp Venus, so there's also that frantic energy, we discussed in the other thread, created through this aspect. He knows he doesn't want to lose me.
I'm assuming it's my Saturn there that makes me want to work it out and keep trying even though it's not easy.
His Saturn is trine my Saturn, sextile his Mars and inconjunct my Uranus.
The other Mars/Uranus square touches this also...
My Mars trines my scorp Uranus on his scorp Venus
His Mars trines his Uranus also
His Uranus sextiles my Saturn
So maybe we both have enough Saturn glue that will keep us from walking away.
I guess while we were apart he missed me enough that he went searching for me and was told I had gotten married and moved away.
He said he was totally crushed and realize even more what a mistake he'd made by not being more respectful of my feelings. When he thought he'd never see me again he said he got seriously depressed.
Then we ran into each other and he found out I was not married....well, from the second we reconnected I could tell something was very different.
Where he had been calm, cool and collected somewhat aloof, couldn't give a damn(aqua mars)...now he seemed very humbled and willing to give up control.
He seemed completely submissive and asking me what I wanted about everything, whatever way I wanted was the way he wanted. He's following it up by actions(only been reconnected 4 n half months though) so far he will do anything to make sure he keeps in contact, before it was me who was doing all the work now he is. He's said he doesn't ever want to lose me again.
I get that security and stability isn't going to be the "normal" type of security or consistency with us. I will need to rearrange my thinking and be ok with him being gone a week at time, 2 times every month.
But the 2 weeks he is at home he will have nothing to do but spend time with us...he has several kids(none at home) and so do I (3 at home, but my oldest is getting ready to go to college) His kids live close to him and go to college in the same town as he lives...so if I move there it's not like I'll be alone. Where he lives only 45 minutes from his worksite, so I'd be much closer than now(3 hours away) and he can go home here n there for a few hours even during the weeks he's working.
Anyway....that's how I see Uranus working it's unorthodox ways into our relationship. Do you agree or is there more than that to Uranus?
Am I fooling myself into thinking it's going to be this easy when it will actually be worse?