posted August 04, 2015 04:43 PM            

I would say that the whole thing I've read about 'energies turning inward' definitely rings true. I'm extremely introverted, to the point that I get a migraine simply from talking to people - even ones I like! I'm also introverted on the internet, if that makes sense: any kind of 'communication overload' gives me a minor version of an Aspie meltdown. (I have Asperger's Syndrome, so that probably causes it all...)

I've never had a real-life boyfriend, though I'm already in my 30s. I've never even kissed anyone. For me, love is something of a fictional construct. I *feel* love intensely - but remotely. I know this probably sounds weird, but I feel - and understand - other people's romantic feelings better than my own. That's probably why I'm good at writing love stories, and why I'm a successful matchmaker

I'd probably be a lousy romantic partner, to be honest. I'm very on/off. I overanalyse everything - in my own head, that is. I like long conversations only if they're theoretical, or if they concern other people's personal affairs. I don't really have any secrets, but I'm still very secretive. I hate being talked about, no matter how trivial the subject. I can write about myself (as you can see!) but talking about me in person makes me want to scream and run away. I live inside my head a lot of the time, and I hate sharing my headspace with anyone.

I've read a lot about Venus-square-Pluto people being passionate and jealous, but my own feelings of jealousy are a bit odd really. They're very remote, and I overanalyse them so that they quickly disappear. Same with my romantic feelings, alas. I *love* people, but I'm not sure I could sustain the being-in-love part for more than a couple of months. If I'm jealous at all, I recognise the feeling more as being competitive. And it fades away quickly.

I'm passionate about many things (research, writing, etc.) but in personal relationships it's more important to me to be level-headed, fair, and always in control. Some people are strangely infuriated by this. I come across people who try to goad me into more of an emotional response; people who are annoyed about me being 'cold' and 'remote' and 'mysterious', as if I did it on purpose. Also, I have a strange tendency to attract stalkerish types, which is why I'm nowadays wary of being nice to people I don't know well.