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MineAgain
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posted September 17, 2015 04:22 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Ever since I was a little girl, my mother has been abusive and hateful towards me. She started hitting me and beating me up at 4. This went on for 14 years, until I left for college. She would hit me daily before and after school. I would go to school with bruises. She had some serious anger issues.

She would also verbally abuse me by saying for instance that dog's poo is better than me, that I was a **** , that I would never achieve anything in life. I will always remember when she told me: "Remember that in front of acquaintances and friends, I will pretend that I love you but please remember that none of this is true". I would always cry myself to sleep sometimes from the pain of the bruises and sometimes from the emotional pain. She would destroy my homework, my pens, my clothes ...

She once threw me on the floor and tried to cut my neck with a knife. I managed to push her away but she succeeded in cutting y finger rather deep. I was probably 7.

She would also hit me in public. She sure had no shame.

Then she cheated on my dad and forced me to cover for her. When my dad found out through me, she claimed I was a liar and I made it all up. She cheated twice and my dad forgave her. I even had to apologize to her for "lying".

When she gathered my dad forgave her, she assumed he discredited my words and that's why she started telling me my dad hates me. Everyday, she tells me my dad hates me and wants me dead. I've heard this all summer. Then when I tell my dad about this, he doesn't deny it. She says I'm lying and he goes silent leaves the room.

She also has this bad habit of wanting every single piece of clothes I buy. She took 70% of my closet. Every single time she targets something, she becomes nice, once she gets it, she starts acting mean all over again. If I tell her no, she gets mad and stays mad for weeks. I mean, I was a college student then an intern, I couldn't afford to buy clothes all the time. She's always like: "Why didn't you get me one you ungrateful daughter?". She tells me I don't know how to surprise people when she never bought me a single gift.

When I told her I got my college degree, she told me she didn't care. She was mad and told me my degree was trash. Same when I finished high school. She never wanted to celebrate my graduation. My dad didn't want to either. I had to beg and in the end, they agreed but told me I had to celebrate on a specific day obviously they knew I wouldn't be available on that day.

Last but not least, I got verbally assaulted last Tuesday. The guy told me I was disgusting because I wasn't white and threatened to beat me up, twice. When I got home, I tried to tell her the story and she didn't care. The following day, she called me a crazy lunatic and told me I was making this up. Then she told me I'm a "sinner" and God is punishing me for my sins this is why he sent me this man to attack me and this is why I turned "crazy". She says I should see a psychiatrist. Alright. She told my dad: "I don't understand, I'm the victim here. She got attacked now she's mad at me". She can't comprehend I want to retreat because I'm distraught. Then she threw another shade at me by saying: "This country is amazing" in order to discredit my story and invalidate my feelings.

I feel she is absolutely toxic, jealous and mentally unstable. I believe it is necessary to distance myself from her for my safety and mental well-being. Just when I think she's improved, she becomes worse than ever when I let my guards down.

She doesn't behave like this with my other siblings. She practices positive reinforcement with them.

I've also noticed that whenever I'm in contact with her, other parts of my life are literally blocked. When I distance myself from her, I notice a shift.

Can this synastry explain her despicable behavior towards me?

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posted September 17, 2015 04:31 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for LaceyLeigh     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Is her time of birth correct?

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posted September 17, 2015 04:33 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by LaceyLeigh:
Is her time of birth correct?

I don't have her exact birth time, unfortunately.

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posted September 17, 2015 04:46 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for 3l3n     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I am very sorry to hear this MineAgain. It disturbed me just reading it.

I believe you should distance yourself for q while from this environment. Things will not get any better until both of you sit down alone and away from eachother to think about how serious this problem is or could become.

Leo Scorpio squares are never peaceful until the power games and ego calm down

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posted September 17, 2015 04:51 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Faith     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by 3l3n:
I am very sorry to hear this MineAgain. It disturbed me just reading it.

I believe you should distance yourself for q while from this environment. Things will not get any better until both of you sit down alone and away from eachother to think about how serious this problem is or could become.


I agree, your mother sounds extremely toxic, and I hope you can figure out how not to be around her or her energy.

So sorry you have had to endure this abuse.

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posted September 17, 2015 04:57 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by 3l3n:
I am very sorry to hear this MineAgain. It disturbed me just reading it.

I believe you should distance yourself for q while from this environment. Things will not get any better until both of you sit down alone and away from eachother to think about how serious this problem is or could become.

Leo Scorpio squares are never peaceful until the power games and ego calm down


Thank you very much for your help

I think you're right, we both need distance. That is for sure.

I was away for about 6 years because I went to college abroad. I'd only come back for the summer or Christmas for a week at a time. Sometimes I wouldn't come back at all.

The first year, she threatened me from afar because my dad found out about her affair. When I went home for the summer, she kept throwing insults at me and forced me to apologized or she would pray for God to punish me. I developed strong anxiety as a result of this.

Last year, she reiterated the cheating and then the nightmare started from scratch. I moved away again and came back for the summer. I spent this last summer at home and that's when she told me about my dad hating me and she reverted back to hitting me and asking me to go to a psychiatrist because God turned me into a "crazy" woman as a punishment for my sins.

I have a feeling this is deeper than just a Leo/Scorpio square. I feel as though she has some deep rooted issues. She doesn't seem to have any conscience. She's never apologized for anything. I'm always apologizing for everything. She actually thinks I deserve this kind of treatment.

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posted September 17, 2015 05:03 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by Faith:
I agree, your mother sounds extremely toxic, and I hope you can figure out how not to be around her or her energy.

So sorry you have had to endure this abuse.


Thank you very much, Faith Your support means a lot. I can't tell my story to my friends, so I'm trying to heal by talking about it online. I however believe I will go back to therapy because what she put me through this summer really dragged me down to an extent. I have to get rid of this nightmare once and for all.

I never noticed how much her negative energy blocked my own path. The few moments I blocked her out of my life were quite positive (I reached the highest grades in college, I became more career minded because I had more confidence in my abilities, I dated guys, I made friends). The moment I allow her back in, she drains me and my life remains on standby.

My dad never stands up for me. He takes get pleasure in always telling me I'm in the wrong and defend my mom's point of view.

No one ever stood up for me, not even my siblings who all tell me: "This ain't my business".

I sometimes feel as though I'm fighting against invisible demons because no one ever takes my point seriously or tries to feel for me. None of them ever lifted a finger.

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posted September 17, 2015 05:11 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for llewsacm     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
She is the Leo, correct?

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posted September 17, 2015 05:12 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for 3l3n     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I am not very experienced in reading charts so well yet.. But Leo/Scorpio is the first thing that struck out.
All relationships I have experienced around me were quite intense with squares between these signs.
Passion, jealousy and hatred.
I would imagine the same energy would erupt in different ways concerning family.

Keep your head high and stop listening too anything she has to say, unless it's something you consider serious.
Try to clear your subconscious as early as possible from this abuse.
Be well and stay strong.

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posted September 17, 2015 05:12 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by llewsacm:
She is the Leo, correct?

Yes, she is. I'm the Scorpio.

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posted September 17, 2015 05:18 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by 3l3n:
I am not very experienced in reading charts so well yet.. But Leo/Scorpio is the first thing that struck out.
All relationships I have experienced around me were quite intense with squares between these signs.
Passion, jealousy and hatred.
I would imagine the same energy would erupt in different ways concerning family.

Keep your head high and stop listening too anything she has to say, unless it's something you consider serious.
Try to clear your subconscious as early as possible from this abuse.
Be well and stay strong.


Thank you very much for your words

She never talks to me on a "serious" level unless it is to criticize me, ask me about the clothes I bought, criticize my dad or talk about religion. I don't remember a single "intellectual" conversation.

I've met one Leo male and although there was a "love" "hate" aspect to our dynamic, I didn't hate him per se. He was so kind and warm. The complete opposite of my mom (he had a Libra Moon and a Cancer Venus though). The only thing I thought was similar to my mom was his love for attention which would drive me insane. Other than that, he's someone I got along with perfectly when there was only the two of us. If there was a crowd, forget about it ha.

Yes, Scorpio/Leo dynamics are quite challenging to begin with. It's highly unfortunate when such challenge has to be experience with one of your parents. Oh well.

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posted September 17, 2015 06:31 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for llewsacm     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
She has venus/uranus square your stellium in the first. When she's set on an idea, you wont be able to change her mind. Ever. I believe the square is causing the abuse, if I had to guess.

You now have Pluto transiting your dc into the 7th. This will be a energy force in your life that focuses on any relationship that is not serving a purpose in you life. Those that are not will be transformed or abandoned altogether.

I understand first hand how difficult it can be to sever ties with an abusive parent. It also comes with the expense of leaving behind other family members that are connected to the abuser. I also know that the longer you expose yourself to an abusive relationship, the longer it takes for your soul to recover and feel worthy of love from others. It will be your choice how to handle this situation, but the cosmos is giving you the opportunity to reexamine this relationship now and set into action what will benefit you in the future.

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posted September 17, 2015 08:46 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for angel4845     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
MineAgain,

I understand what you went through i went through something very similar BUT with my father and we both fought a lot me and him(my mother wasn't physically abusive but she is emotionally abusive and she did nothing to stop my dad from hitting me because she wanted to control me) i was an angry child because i grew up with my parents yelling at each other and arguing and my dad being a raging alcoholic when i was 4. i have managed to have a better relationship with my father now but there are times where we do argue and he has brought the worst out of me considering that i still am dependent on my parents. he has abused me physically and verbally and emotionally so much while growing up that i can not sit in the kitchen table if he is standing behind me cooking, i simply move on the opposite side of the kitchen table because i can't stand his energy!!!!!!! it aggravates me!!!!! i don't want him close to me ever even if its loving i don't!!!!! we have sun opposite sun EXACT. and we have venus square mars (I'm venus). and we have nessus conjunct my dejanira and my nemesis on his sun(i fought back with him a lot when he would target me)

**huuuuuuuuug**

PS: my dad would also hit me when we would go on vacations he was always hitting me all the time for 15 years til i turned 18 years of age.

Again, im sorry what your going through and I think you have done all that you can do. I agree with the others on this thread. You also have some astrological placements in your natal that gives me some markers why you are going through such a thing like this I will have to look more into your natal chart to explain.
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posted September 18, 2015 03:47 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by llewsacm:
She has venus/uranus square your stellium in the first. When she's set on an idea, you wont be able to change her mind. Ever. I believe the square is causing the abuse, if I had to guess.

You now have Pluto transiting your dc into the 7th. This will be a energy force in your life that focuses on any relationship that is not serving a purpose in you life. Those that are not will be transformed or abandoned altogether.

I understand first hand how difficult it can be to sever ties with an abusive parent. It also comes with the expense of leaving behind other family members that are connected to the abuser. I also know that the longer you expose yourself to an abusive relationship, the longer it takes for your soul to recover and feel worthy of love from others. It will be your choice how to handle this situation, but the cosmos is giving you the opportunity to reexamine this relationship now and set into action what will benefit you in the future.


Thank you very much for this analysis.

I think I will cut her off and my father for good. I just don't want to leave my little sisters behind but since she treats them with utmost respect, they probably won't need me anyway.

This morning, as I was preparing my breakfast, she threw a broom at me. She saw me in the kitchen and threw the broom. I hadn't even uttered a single word. She obviously was trying to get attention to stir another argument which she would use as a justification for hitting me yet again. She really needs to get herself sorted out and I'm going to erase her from my life before she causes some irreparable damage.

She sure must have some narcissistic personality disorder or bipolarity. No sane individual being would behave like this at 55. She hasn't evolved at all since she my childhood. She's gotten progressively worse.

She has no conscience, no empathy and doesn't seem to practice introspection very much. She's always the victim and I'm the attacker. It's been like this since I was 4.

It's so sad to have to cut your parents off but sometimes, you have to do what's best for you. I can't possibly go on like this or I will most definitely end up with a disorder of some sort.

I strongly believe that what goes around comes around though, even if I'm not there to witness.

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posted September 18, 2015 09:22 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Soltze     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Unfortunately I think you should indeed cut them off. For your own well being.

With Moon and MarsRx in the 12th, the last thing you want is to have all that pain inside of you and get sick eventually.´

Maybe one day you will build yourself an happy and healthy family and stop this horrible cycle of abuse.

Wish you the best

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posted September 18, 2015 04:25 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for polkadotstars     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Sorry to hear about the abuse you have endured. I do not know you, but you do not deserve to be treated like that. No one does. She seems entirely toxic and it might best for you to stay away from her. I think a counselor would be extremely beneficial for you, when you are ready that is.

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posted September 18, 2015 06:10 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for angel4845     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Mineagain,

I know somebody else a female who is in her 30s now and she went through the same thing. Her mother was very abusive physically, jealous pretty much everything you described she had the same thing while growing up. She also has Mars in the 12th house BUT it's not retrograde and it's in scorpio. She has Mars opposite karma and has her NN conjunct her VERTEX In the 8th house. Also her mother also cheated on my friends father as well (her parents never got married despite they had 2 children after her) also her mother never beat or hit my friend's brothers and sister ONLY HER.

Where is your asteroid child placed mineagain?

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posted September 20, 2015 11:27 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
@angel4845: I'm sorry to hear about the situation with your father. I know how it feels to be treated like less than nothing by someone who doesn't seem to understand the harm in their actions. The energy that emanates from such people is so bad that you indeed cannot stand to be in the same room or you might implode.

In my case, I'm not lucky because they are extremely religious and they use any opportunity to criticize my personal choices.

Today I was told I wasn't even allowed to get myself a glass of water. I was again called names because I took a glass of water and didn't realize there I had left a few water drops on the table.

I've already lost a couple of pounds because I don't stay at home at all. I'm scared to go home at night. I leave at 9 am and come back at 10. I don't have the right to use the kitchen because when she's in there, she slams utensils purposely to "scare me". Hence, I can't buy my own food and cook. I have to eat out and be out 7 days a week.

It's draining because on top of the abuse, I can't even eat or sleep properly.

What does the Moon and MarsRx in 12th house mean in concrete terms? I don't really know how to interpret this sort of terminology.

I have no idea where the asteroid "chart" is located. I'll definitely generate a chart to see.

I'm definitely planning on cutting all them off once I get a job. They don't need to remain in my life to make me miserable.

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posted September 20, 2015 02:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I don't know if you guys believe in signs, but today, the sentence "divorce your parents" has been stuck on my mind all day.

Then when I got home this evening, I came across an article listing the reasons why you should cut off your parents in certain instances. It also explained how there is no shame in distancing yourself from them in extreme cases regardless of the stigma attached to this measure.

I believe coming across such article was a sign, especially as the poster rarely appears on my feed.

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posted September 20, 2015 02:11 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for angel4845     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by MineAgain:
I don't know if you guys believe in signs, but today, the sentence "divorce your parents" has been stuck on my mind all day.

Then when I got home this evening, I came across an article listing the reasons why you should cut off your parents in certain instances. It also explained how there is no shame in distancing yourself from them in extreme cases regardless of the stigma attached to this measure.

I believe coming across such article was a sign, especially as the poster rarely appears on my feed.


yes indeed mineagain, i totally believe in a ll of that too it is a sign o_O

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posted September 20, 2015 03:49 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for angel4845     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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@angel4845: I'm sorry to hear about the situation with your father. I know how it feels to be treated like less than nothing by someone who doesn't seem to understand the harm in their actions. The energy that emanates from such people is so bad that you indeed cannot stand to be in the same room or you might implode.

In my case, I'm not lucky because they are extremely religious and they use any opportunity to criticize my personal choices.

Today I was told I wasn't even allowed to get myself a glass of water. I was again called names because I took a glass of water and didn't realize there I had left a few water drops on the table.

I've already lost a couple of pounds because I don't stay at home at all. I'm scared to go home at night. I leave at 9 am and come back at 10. I don't have the right to use the kitchen because when she's in there, she slams utensils purposely to "scare me". Hence, I can't buy my own food and cook. I have to eat out and be out 7 days a week.

It's draining because on top of the abuse, I can't even eat or sleep properly.

What does the Moon and MarsRx in 12th house mean in concrete terms? I don't really know how to interpret this sort of terminology.

I have no idea where the asteroid "chart" is located. I'll definitely generate a chart to see.

I'm definitely planning on cutting all them off once I get a job. They don't need to remain in my life to make me miserable.


let me post something from an article from this placement that you had asked with those with moon and mars retrograde i the 12th house. i have a friend with moon in the 12th house like you and he says the description totally fits him best. here:


In astrology, the Moon rules the mother, and often reflects a parent who was hospitalized, in prison, mistreated, psychologically ill or in some other 12th house institution. The Mother may have even passed away early in life, or sometimes she is very difficult to a get hold of emotionally and supportively. A female figure in early childhood may have been incredibly sensitive and made many sacrifices for the family.

Many people with this particular kind of Moon keep their feelings hidden away, and some will experience a sense of loneliness and isolation, feeling unsupported, helpless and defenseless by some early event in childhood, and looking out towards the sea for some kind of life-line.

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Mars Retrograde in gemini - this is my interpretation and understanding of this. When mars is retrograde in gemini, the qualities of gemini that are in retrograde will be EXALTED and EXCELLENT more so then having a mars that is without Retrograde. and since gemini is a masculine sign, in a masculine planetary placement such as "mars" and its retrograde this placement becomes very strong and useful.

now, when mars is retrograde in any sign if its afflicted then the use of this planet and energy, the individual handles with the people, society, and environment that's around them will make it very challenging towards these people and the environment they are in. These people will either be double trouble or they will be aggressive or selfish in some ways and possibly a bit more self centered when it comes to handling the sign and energy of this retrograde planet only when the more afflicted it is by the planets. the more afflicted the more drama or challenging conflicts this person creates to those he/she effects around them.

another important thing to also take notice is the HOUSE it is in......i dont know if your mars is afflicted when i say affliction i mean the (square,quincunx, and opposition only).

anyways......the house it is in is definitely going to tell you a lot about your mars in retrograde so when your exalted mars in witty gemini in retrograde enters the 12th house this makes your retrograde mars HIDDEN in some ways. it may become very difficult for you to express your anger and weapon of use in words in order to defend yourself in the appropriate situation. You may possibly were raised or psychologically held back from your family or someone close to you as a child when it came to expressing your mars qualities. Since the 12th house is also about past lives and karma, you may have overused your mars qualities in past lives that you have come to this life to learn vulnerability and ultra suffocation of people judging and hurting your own emotional and physical strength. Some sort of lesson you came into this life due to the overuse of your mars in your past lives. i don't want to say too many things what are some possibility hidden things when it comes to your mars in retrograde in the 12th house becomes, i know its 'PERSONAL' and i want you to have the privacy you deserve on here. but there are so many things that come to mind that are SOME POSSIBILITIES that were hidden and held back from you while growing up.

i hope this made sense.

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posted September 20, 2015 09:58 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for fireopal09     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by MineAgain:
Thank you very much for this analysis.

I think I will cut her off and my father for good. I just don't want to leave my little sisters behind but since she treats them with utmost respect, they probably won't need me anyway.

This morning, as I was preparing my breakfast, she threw a broom at me. She saw me in the kitchen and threw the broom. I hadn't even uttered a single word. She obviously was trying to get attention to stir another argument which she would use as a justification for hitting me yet again. She really needs to get herself sorted out and I'm going to erase her from my life before she causes some irreparable damage.

She sure must have some narcissistic personality disorder or bipolarity. No sane individual being would behave like this at 55. She hasn't evolved at all since she my childhood. She's gotten progressively worse.

She has no conscience, no empathy and doesn't seem to practice introspection very much. She's always the victim and I'm the attacker. It's been like this since I was 4.

It's so sad to have to cut your parents off but sometimes, you have to do what's best for you. I can't possibly go on like this or I will most definitely end up with a disorder of some sort.

I strongly believe that what goes around comes around though, even if I'm not there to witness.



I physically ached while reading your posts. Apparently, you are exceptionally strong minded to survive that house of horrors. Your mother is a monster and your dad is her guilty minion.

You have accomplished so much despite the obstacles and abuse. I know people who have been in similar situations.

Guess what? They ditched the families they were born into and created their own through their friends.

Divorce your parents; all they are giving you is anguish.

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This affected me a lot too reading all this. My parents have always made me feel inadequate, and the pressure caused a lot of issues, they weren't as bad as your 'mother'. Definitely not. What she's done all your life is heartbreaking and angers me a little too.
It's amazing how you're doing law now, I feel so much respect for you, and admire your strength.

You must emancipate yourself. This is so unhealthy and damaging. I'm really surprised you haven't lost it yet. Most people would have had big problems years ago.

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posted September 21, 2015 11:17 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for astra7     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I think it comes a time you have to see WHAT IS and distance yourself from WHAT YOU WANTED IT TO BE.

The blocked feeling you get from being with your mother is because she takes away all of your good luck, opportunity energy from you. Kinda unconscious energy vamping going on there. I wouldn't be far fetched to say that when she abuses you....her feeling is uplifted...feeling of importance as it were.

Now your question is....is she precious that you let her suck all of your good energy and wither away or will you distance yourself from her completely to nourish your life? You can only decide for yourself because it's your life. Many of us had to make a hard decision on this one.

You need to know.... NO LOVING MOther would have treated you in this way and you have a long road of discovering/recovering through therapy because if you understood it, you woouldn't be asking this question in the forum.

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posted September 24, 2015 07:16 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for MineAgain     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
You guys are right. She blocks the good energy that comes my way. For instance, she once saw a ring that meant a lot to me and told me it was pretty (I'm assuming she wanted it because she never told me something was pretty and didn't ask for me to give it to her), Well, two hours later I lost the ring at the library. I haven't found it since June!

I told her about two guys I was once dating, well, they both disappeared on me a week after I told her about them when everything was fine initially. Some goes for friends I mention.

I once bought a lipstick and again, she told me she wanted it. I said no, I lost it on the very same day. I haven't found it since.

Same goes for job opportunities. If I tell her about a job interview I may have, I can guarantee I won't get the job. The interviews I did during the times when I had blocked her out of my life had positive outcomes and I got offers every single time. If I tell her about an interview or a trip, I can guarantee that these will 100% encounter some issues.

A recent instance is last Monday, I had to wake up at 4am to go to a job interview. She didn't know about it and she was still asleep when I left. I got the job on the spot. However, I had another interview on Wednesday and I think she gathered I had an interview because she woke up at 4am to make her own breakfast (she never wakes up at 4 am, ever. She had no place to go that day. She always stays at home). Well, guess what? I had to withdraw from the second part of the recruitment process because of a series of unfortunate events that didn't allow me to attend.

These instances can't be mere coincidences or I'm plain nuts.

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