posted September 25, 2015 03:18 PM            

Currently tr. JUNO is 0°00 square composite JUNO
tr. Mars is 0°00 square composite Saturn
tr. Sun square comp Neptune (exact also)
tr. NN quincunx composite NN 0°27
tr Saturn conjunct composite Saturn....

just got off the phone, asked him not to come back, we can't live together... I need to be focusing on my daughter... He knows the reasons so I didn't want to get into a long conversation. It went fairly smoothly considering the intense turmoil of recent weeks.

He'll be wanting his things.. And I did leave room for some future possibility of some kind of relationship or working together which doesn't involve me supporting him in every way and complete co-dependence... so we'll see if it's a radical readjustment or a total break....

Probably wise to make a total break but the thought that it might be workable is more gentle for our hearts and allows a more organic, compassionate change I am hoping.

I'm confused given the karmic implications of our relationship, hoping I have done what needed doing and am not backing out early. I simply can't continue as things were, and I know he was hoping we could weather the storms which were considerably affected by the stress of circumstances..

posted September 25, 2015 03:30 PM            

Despite all the goings on about Neptune in that thread i never considered it a very significant player in our synastry or composite... twas my totally clouded opinion... And boy have i learned Neptune lessons! Write in depth. I need to get my head in order and write some of my thoughts about it down.... Anyway, to answer your question, in part at least:

We do have a 12h stellium in composite including our Sun Moon and Mercury (Libra). My Venus is conjunct these, and he has Saturn and Pluto in the 12th, also overlaying my 12h and the composite 12h...

posted September 25, 2015 03:34 PM            

Exact CHIRON aspects put us under a spell of some kind. It's as if we become robotic in regards to whatever area they involve. The karma must be resolved -- it must get cleared, and we end up almost automated in order to do so.

I agree that certain karmic transits will come along to test everything, or, potentially, blow it apart -- if it's time. My ex-bestie won't unfriend me, but she's all but a frenemy now. It's such a surreal state of being. I guess we clearly did what we had to do.

Do you feel stronger in the aftermath? Probably not yet. But, perhaps, you will? And it'll become clear that you did what you two needed to do? What had to be done?

posted September 25, 2015 03:41 PM            

He really threw me off course in a lot of ways; just being around him caused my organizational drive and dynamic creativity to get all foggy... It still worked and sometimes was great, la dee da.. I'm still confused and vascillating somehow, but it just takes him saying one thing on the phone for me to be absolutely certain this is a big relief!

I blame the Saturn Mercury square.... aaall the hard Mercury stuff.. Mercury-Mars double whammies, and obviously Mars square Pluto. My Pluto is square my MC (our MC)-- and his Mars is there. There was potential for doing great things together perhaps. The Saturn return for the relationship also coincides with Saturn on our 2nd house cusp and honestly the realness and intensity of money issues really cut the air off in the relationship.

posted September 25, 2015 03:47 PM            

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Originally posted by Aunt Anomalia:
Thanks for sharing. Neptune can mess with one's head so easily. At this point I believe it's better to be paranoid or/and pessimistic about fresh love objects.

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posted September 25, 2015 03:48 PM            

I don't know if Chiron is to blame in this one exactly. We do have some Chiron conjunctions (my Jupiter/Vertex on his Chiron and his Moon conjunct mine)-- but we have very few hard aspects to Chiron (unless you count the Venus-Chiron square in composite... which is probably significant!). I've come to think that Magi are on to something with the Chiron thing, although they leave the Moon out of it and I think they have good reason.

I think Chiron is really a planet of true love because if we can touch one another's woundedness and reveal our own and our love deepens it's very profound and beautiful... I'm not saying it right right now... But I do think it can be very positive.

posted September 25, 2015 03:52 PM            

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Originally posted by Aunt Anomalia:
Thanks for sharing. Neptune can mess with one's head so easily. At this point I believe it's better to be paranoid or/and the pessimistic about fresh love objects.

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posted September 25, 2015 03:58 PM            

I STILL cry sometimes, and it's almost been a year. A YEAR.

Any time I find myself in a home decorating-type store, I get a little tearful, thinking of the ways we were going to decorate the apartment we were planning to rent together.

Ugh. It just breaks my heart.

I'm not going to run next time I see it, but I think I'll NOT let myself get SO caught up in it. I won't think, 'where have you been all of my life?' and allow myself to glom onto them -- as it's something I NEVER do anyway.

But she was different somehow. We were soul sisters. We were hardcore twin souls. We'd been bouncing into each other in other dimensions for ages. And the thought of getting to be real bosom buds here ... it just ... it was too good to be true.

posted September 25, 2015 04:06 PM            

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Originally posted by yungang_grotto:
Yepperz

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To be honest, this combo is a potential disaster waiting to happen imo, especially if the female has the Cap Moon. You said Cancer baffles you. With me it could be speaking different languages, I'm a Cap btw. I don't know if I could handle more than 1 Cancer placement in my bf and the Moon could be the worst. I have a Cancer SN but I have little appreciation for Cancerian traits.

posted September 25, 2015 04:13 PM            

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Originally posted by yungang_grotto:
Was it your moon or hers?? I don't feel as emotional about the breaking up part so far as I did about the getting together part, myself. I hope it isn't terrible for him.

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She's the MOON; 0º30.

Just ... completely flipped out on me. It was so uncalled for, that I was privately resentful for weeks. But if she needed me, I was still there. I put a line out periodically for months. She'd respond JUST enough in the sense so as to not seem overtly angry. But nothing more than that.

posted September 25, 2015 04:13 PM            

Ah... Yeah... I've dated several Cancers, one for nearly 4 years. He was a Scorpio moon though ♡. The last guy before this one had aaaalll the Cancer, crazy Cancer stellium..., and I hated him intensely by the end. I'm a mega Scorpio so maybe I'm a bit more tolerant of Cancer than you are, given my tolerance and good will towards the Cancer Sun (although I think if I had to date him again I might be much more perturbed and I may have been extremely perturbed then and just don't remember properly).

posted September 25, 2015 04:19 PM            

We have ASC 1º15 conjunct, too.

That's weird. ASC conjunct, and CHIRON-MOON?

I really think twin soul is the best way to describe her. And my karmic soulmate, to be honest. They feel so similar to me. They can both bring out such an intense enthusiasm, passion, and drive in me and also drive me to the depths of despair, feeling lost, confused, and totally abandoned.

I don't meet many early/mid Virgo risers. It was astounding that her ASC is on mine, and we're both Libra SUN-PLUTO's, with MOONs opposite each other's.