posted October 22, 2015 08:13 PM            

it's been 1.5 years since we've split. everytime we engage energetically, whether it be on the phone or in person, that deep intensity is still there.

maybe i'm young and naive, but i both love and fear the intensity we bring out in each other...

i suppose i'm just looking for a broader energetic perspective on the dynamics... i'll post some of our synastry aspects... please tell me if you feel i'm deluded in my thinking, naive, or if this is really something special <3

infinite love!!

his mars trine my sun and my mars trine his sun
moon oppose moon
venus oppose moon
his pluto sextile my moon and his moon trine my pluto
his saturn oppose my ascendant and my ascendant square his saturn
sun sextile venus
his mars square my venus
his saturn square my pluto
his uranus sextile my pluto
his venus trine my pluto

i value your opinions so much!

edit to add recent shower revelations:

I suppose I am having more memories of the incidents that make me feel that i may be delusional in this. Although the relationship began with him pursuing me and me being uninterested (i was into his best friend)... He proposed after 2 weeks and i felt that he was so into me... I was uncertain. But something made me hold on.
Anyways, he has recently told me that he never actually loved me.
That he was only with me because he thought i would go crazy if he left me.
he looked me in the eyes and said "I WILL NEVER BE WITH YOU AGAIN"

of course, there is that side of me that says ohhh look how much i affected him..

Am I out of my mind?

I always thought that he was so into me... But hearing those things really made me wonder if I had been deluded this entire time... Thinking that he was into me when in reality I was like a lead weight tied to his ankle...

posted October 22, 2015 11:15 PM            

Your Mars squares his Venus, your moon and Venus fall into his 8th house and his Mars falls into your 8th. That would explain the intensity you feel regardless of how much time has passed.

posted October 25, 2015 09:49 PM            

Anyways. Chiron on the ascendant can be soulmate material. Chiron aspects in relationships can make someone really addictive. Chiron promises healing old wounds and also that you guys are very aware of the wounds and what hurts the other. Which can be very close or destructive if you turn on eachother. It can be a sacrificing energy as well. Ride or die.

Also I noticed the north node in the 5th house. There is a karmic energy that broght you two together in a romantic reltionship

posted October 26, 2015 01:10 AM            

I am no expert but I wanna say that there is really something deep in your relationship, and both of you feel it.

posted October 26, 2015 06:11 AM            

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Originally posted by missblyss:
well see, at the time it seemed like he had been pursuing me for a while.. i wasn't interested at first. when we finally got together he was very aggressive, wanted to be my boyfriend immediately. wanted to get engaged after 2 months. talking about marriage and kids in first weeks.

But recently I THINK I may have caught him being very manipulative about some things. I am not 100% sure though... But it is weird because for the entire time we were together (4 years) I viewed him as a very genuinely good, straight-forward guy. I am wondering now if that is just the image he was putting off and he was actually a lot more manipulative in the relationship that I ever allowed myself to see... Honestly, for so long I thought he was just SO in love with me, I was in love with him too... But also felt restricted by him. and was unsure he'd ever be able to give me enough freedom to be happy

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Your fixation on how much he was into you makes it seem to me like that was part of the initial attraction for you, as opposed to just a pure attraction of wow I like him. Correct me if Im wrong.

posted October 26, 2015 12:57 PM            

There is a lot of dw plutonian energies between you two, and pluto tends to be highly manipulative. Gives intensity but also lots of game playing, on both sides. I don't consider Pluto a loving energy anymore, no matter how HOT people claim it to be.

posted October 26, 2015 01:46 PM            

Honestly, I think I didn't know how to handle being loved so much, even though I did enjoy it. I had never been treated that way before.

Since our relationship has crumbled, he has flung himself fully into another identity. He now says he will never be in another relationship again. He sees women as "b*****". His heart is closed. I am not sure if I am part of the reason that this has happened. :/

I wonder if my Pisces sun gave him a false impression of who I would be in a relationship... Then my virgo moon.. trine saturn, left him feeling emotionally unfulfilled in a way. I remember many times of him begging me to just say what I was feeling.. It was hard for me, the words that needed to come out felt like they weighed a million pounds.