posted November 07, 2015 01:45 PM            

After a lot of introspection, and hanging out back and forth with both women, doing maybe a few things wrong and causing a growing tension with both, I've finally made a choice, it was very hard, and it is very hard, but I feel it's for the best (or not):

The Musician

I've met this woman in a journey deep in the country, where we, in an amazing night we improvised together in a jam session in the wee small hours, me on the drums and her on the bass, we played funk and it was one of the most amazing experiences I had this year.
I didn't meet her for months, but the memory of that day was present for both of us, so one day, after having a set of songs, she was the first person I contacted to form a new band, and she was interested, and we also had a time together in the massive protest happening in my country (see the internet for the student protest in Paraguay for details). 26 years old, A formally trained musician, a bass player like me, but far more technical, she has deep grey eyes and a more outgoing personality, a single mom, with a lot of struggles now in her life. Lots of common things and an instant musical chemistry, which I never had before in a way like I experienced with her. I broke up my rule of never being attracted to a mother for the very first time with her. A stupid rule, but I have many fears of being involved with a mother, but that's another story for some other day.

Yeah, I'm hanging out more with her, and after one day when we went to a music conference this last tuesday, I've realized my feelings for her and decided to move forward.

Being with her makes me realize how much I should grow up, as a musician and as a person, after seeing her playing shows with her other bands, trying to make some extra cash to give her son the good life, how hard she makes efforts, and how she enjoys playing music without being arrogant or snobbish, and of course, being more confortable with her, and the pleasure of making music together.

But I know the road will be hard, very hard, full of arguments, tears, adventures, songs, troubles, but all will be worth it, if it becomes real.

This woman has been through a lot of sh1t in her life, like me, but she has fought through hell and back again and went forward, and the more I'm with her, the more I feel deeply for her, but I know it will be hard, because of the musical bond, which is one I want to treasure, the fact of enjoying this yin-yang connection and learning a lot about life with her, let's see where it goes, I'll take it slow for now

The Synastry

The Composite

And the Natals

Cheers

posted November 14, 2015 10:36 AM            

And also she told me that she only had one relationship so far, a 10 year relationship, with the drummer of her previous group, who's the father of his son, but was an abuser, hit her, mistreated her, and almost took "her soul" according to her words, and that she never loved him. The point is that is that after we met, a few months later is that she finally broke up with that man, an that made me think a lot.

But anyway, I can tell now that making music with her is one of the most amazing things I've ever had in my life, and I hope that me and her can have a great relationship in the future, but I think for now she's not that ready for it, after her previous one.