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Topic: The first kid who drove me crazy -in a good way. He died almost three years ago.
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MilaBirkin
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From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted March 19, 2016 01:56 AM
  
I just want to know what another person think about our relationship.This is our history. You can read it or not, It's ok. It's below our Synastry and Composite...   
I hope you can understand, lol. Obviously, this is not my first language.
We went to school together when we were kids. I always thought he was cute or something, haha but since fourth grade I started to liking him a lot. I remember we were "fighting" almost all the time but after that he always was hugging me  .
We kissed for first and last time on his 12th birthday. It was the most magical kiss I ever had. I waited for so long for that moment and it was perfect. Since there we didn't talked like before because of our shyness but I remember some girl said he was saying that I was his girlfriend haha  .
My uncle died in those days and I was crying. We (our class) had to practice a song, that song was about love and support like saying "I will always be there for you" "I care about you" and well, we were singing and in one part of the song he screams and looked at me. You know what I mean? He couldn't talk to me because he was shy but he wanted to know that he cared about me, that he doesn't liked that I was sad and crying and it was so cute and funny but mostly cute.
He moved to a neighborhood near the house of my cousin and I always went to her home to be near him. I saw him three or four times (because I was hiding me, lol) but he only saw me once and that was the last time I saw him, alive. I don't know if he recognized me but I don't care.
One day, I had to go to my grandfather's house. I had not planned to go. One of my cousins was there and we started talking. That was unusual, we never talk like that. It was all different. I was drinking tea and talking about meals, and she abruptly changed the topic of conversation to tell me that she found him on Facebook and that surprised me. He has another name and I searched him with his real name so... Ok, I added him and I was soooo happy!! Everything seemed so connected, I mean so "casual" but now I think it was like all planned.
One night I was talking online with two friends and I mentioned him more than once. It was 4 am and I was feeling something wrong, I was feeling something or someone was bad, sad, wrong, don't know so I asked a lot of time to that friend "are you ok?" because I seriously was feeling something. And I was feeling like I HAD to be online siting in there, it was so weird I don't know how to describe it.
And then, I see his profile (we have friends in common so I can see a lot of his profile) and I see ... he died. It was so weird.
Well, I went to his funeral and that was the last time I saw him  .
This is a summary- and I am writing fast, so I can misspell. Sorry.
He is the first one who drove me crazy in a very good way. I was so crazy about him and I never forget him. He was on my mind and since he died he is always on my mind (not in a obsessive-creepy way). I smile everytime I remember him.
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yungang_grotto
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From: love lives forever
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted March 19, 2016 04:21 AM
You're so beautiful. I hope his spirit is happy, soaring with the eagles (don't know why but am inclined to say that)The story is amazing and so is the chart... I've learned.. from Arroyo i think.. that Pluto-Venus conjunctions in a natal chart can indicate the death of lovers... in the composite it makes sense to see this aspect. All my love to you, thank you for sharing your story. Will be looking into the charts more IP: Logged |
yungang_grotto
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From: love lives forever
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posted March 19, 2016 11:08 AM
The synastry biwheel--is he on the outside? Or is that you with Venus-Chiron?IP: Logged |
Nyctea
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posted March 19, 2016 11:42 AM
Beautiful story, thanks for sharing  I'm sorry for your loss, i hope you're ok. quote:
Originally posted by yungang_grotto:
...Pluto-Venus conjunctions in a natal chart can indicate the death of lovers... in the composite it makes sense to see this aspect.
I have a Pluto-Venus conjunction in the davison chart with my SO. Honestly, Pluto scares the hell out of me because of this. I'm not prepared to experience death, not my own death or neither anyone close to me(But who's "ready" for something like this?). I have a 7th house stellium and Pluto is getting closer to my 7th.
And there's nothing i can do about it, amazing life huh i was sent for suffering ???  I didn't know about this aspect but thank you, in the future i'll definitely avoid having relationships with Pluto-Venus hard aspects in composite chart. IP: Logged |
mir
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Registered: May 2009
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posted March 19, 2016 12:30 PM
Aw the nascent love for the other sex, so fiery, thrilling and pure..not suprising to find an opposing lunar phase here, it just fits. No doubt about this to be the core attractor. What a pity that we only start to look at such basics when we're under the spell of it ourselves. But even when the spell is broken there's no way back to ignoring. IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
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From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted March 19, 2016 03:45 PM
quote:
Originally posted by yungang_grotto:
You're so beautiful. I hope his spirit is happy, soaring with the eagles (don't know why but am inclined to say that)The story is amazing and so is the chart... I've learned.. from Arroyo i think.. that Pluto-Venus conjunctions in a natal chart can indicate the death of lovers... in the composite it makes sense to see this aspect. All my love to you, thank you for sharing your story. Will be looking into the charts more
Oh, thank you . You seem sweet.
I hope his spirit is happy too. He died so young (17 almost 18). This happened on April(accident) - May(funeral). I was surprised about Venus conjunct Pluto! I think it just so accurate.
Also, Venus conjunct Jupiter, I think that aspect is like a ... big love. After sixth grade we moved to a different neighborhood and started new lives, but he was on my mind at some point (not all the time but yes). Especially when his birthday was coming because it was his birthday and the anniversary of our kiss, ha  . And everytime I was visiting to my cousin at her house was mostly because I was hoping to see him. Then, I finally found him on Facebook and I was imagining our next meeting but it was just not meant to be maybe... </3
It was definitely a very hard time. I remember I couldn't eat , 5 or 6 days after the day of his death . But now it's different. He is part of me. I don't know how to describe it, he is always with me but it's not in a bad way, it's not obsession or anything like that. I feel more sorry for his mum. Last night I was a little bit hmm I don't if I was sad but I was not ok and his mum put a funny reaction on one of my photos I have on Facebook and that made me laugh so I started to think more about him and feeling better  . It's not the first time ha. Thank you. IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 1323
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted March 19, 2016 03:52 PM
quote:
Originally posted by yungang_grotto:
The synastry biwheel--is he on the outside? Or is that you with Venus-Chiron?
Yes, he is. I just realized he has Venus conjunct Chiron!
This is his chart:  Sun conjunct Venus, Jupiter conjunct Ascendant... No wonder he was so charming and funny. IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 1323
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted March 19, 2016 03:59 PM
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Originally posted by Nyctea:
Beautiful story, thanks for sharing I'm sorry for your loss, i hope you're ok. I have a Pluto-Venus conjunction in the davison chart with my SO. Honestly, Pluto scares the hell out of me because of this. I'm not prepared to experience death, not my own death or neither anyone close to me(But who's "ready" for something like this?). I have a 7th house stellium and Pluto is getting closer to my 7th.
And there's nothing i can do about it, amazing life huh i was sent for suffering ??? I didn't know about this aspect but thank you, in the future i'll definitely avoid having relationships with Pluto-Venus hard aspects in composite chart.
Thank you! . I didn't expect such lovely replies. I feel grateful now. Now that you mention Pluto. I have Pluto in 7th house. Last year died a friend of my childhood and I'm not gonna lie, I thought Pluto in 7th house had something to do with all this but now I don't think like that. Death makes you reborn. Death gives you life somehow.
It's awful but inevitable. Agh. IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
Knowflake Posts: 1323
From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted March 19, 2016 04:02 PM
quote:
Originally posted by mir:
Aw the nascent love for the other sex, so fiery, thrilling and pure..
Pure... quote:
not suprising to find an opposing lunar phase here, it just fits.
why "it just fits"? I don't know about lunar phase. IP: Logged |
mir
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posted March 19, 2016 06:56 PM
Mila, you have to visualize the Moon in its orbit around the Earth and then take the starting point of New Moon to understand this all. It's not exactly stuff for beginners I can imagine although in fact it should be, given the fact of our luminary importance. You find opposing lunar phases nor same phases hardly mentioned throughout astro-world. New Moon and Full Moon are opposed to one another for example. Even as a waxing semi-sextile and a waning quincunx. Or a waning sesquisquare and a waxing semi-square to name some. Like yin & yang, those 'just fit' and connections which carry those are -because of that- way more prone to come off the ground than other less fitting phases. IP: Logged |
yungang_grotto
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From: love lives forever
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted March 19, 2016 07:52 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Nyctea:
Beautiful story, thanks for sharing I'm sorry for your loss, i hope you're ok. I have a Pluto-Venus conjunction in the davison chart with my SO. Honestly, Pluto scares the hell out of me because of this. I'm not prepared to experience death, not my own death or neither anyone close to me(But who's "ready" for something like this?). I have a 7th house stellium and Pluto is getting closer to my 7th.
And there's nothing i can do about it, amazing life huh i was sent for suffering ??? I didn't know about this aspect but thank you, in the future i'll definitely avoid having relationships with Pluto-Venus hard aspects in composite chart.
Well... then there are those who say Pluto-Venus is a twin flame aspect (iq, and probably more).
I have Pluto square Venus 1 degree in composite with my special one, and i wouldn't trade it away... deep pure love does transcend death, and this aspect speaks to that. It isn't the same in all cases; every pair is absolutely unique Take heart nothing to fear... IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
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From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 15, 2018 12:20 AM
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Originally posted by mir:
Mila, you have to visualize the Moon in its orbit around the Earth and then take the starting point of New Moon to understand this all. It's not exactly stuff for beginners I can imagine although in fact it should be, given the fact of our luminary importance. You find opposing lunar phases nor same phases hardly mentioned throughout astro-world. New Moon and Full Moon are opposed to one another for example. Even as a waxing semi-sextile and a waning quincunx. Or a waning sesquisquare and a waxing semi-square to name some. Like yin & yang, those 'just fit' and connections which carry those are -because of that- way more prone to come off the ground than other less fitting phases.
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waxlobster
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From: Birmingham
Registered: Mar 2011
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posted January 15, 2018 06:38 AM
Oh Mila, I am so sorry for your loss, your story has moved me so much. You describe true love, so perfectly. Just visiting your cousin to be near him ♥ that's beautiful. Perhaps you are closer now, with his energy as part of yours than a real life relationship would feel. I don't know, but I my heart was spilling over reading that. x ------------------
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MilaBirkin
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From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted January 15, 2018 11:14 AM
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Originally posted by waxlobster:
Oh Mila, I am so sorry for your loss, your story has moved me so much. You describe true love, so perfectly. Just visiting your cousin to be near him ♥ that's beautiful. Perhaps you are closer now, with his energy as part of yours than a real life relationship would feel. I don't know, but I my heart was spilling over reading that. x
Ohh, you are so beautiful  . I didn't expect to have a reply like this now. Thank you! You just made my day . I wish you the best. IP: Logged |
waxlobster
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From: Birmingham
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posted January 15, 2018 01:52 PM
Thank you Mila, you are beautiful too ♥. The way you describe love is so true and unconditional. It has inspired me.I really appreciate you sharing this story with us. ♥ ------------------
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WhiteMoon
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posted January 19, 2018 11:32 AM
Such a beautiful story. He must be happy that you still think of him.IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
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From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted June 11, 2018 03:05 AM
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Originally posted by waxlobster:
Thank you Mila, you are beautiful too ♥. The way you describe love is so true and unconditional. It has inspired me.I really appreciate you sharing this story with us. ♥
I love this. Gracias <3. IP: Logged |
MilaBirkin
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From: Cordoba, Argentina
Registered: Jul 2015
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posted June 11, 2018 03:06 AM
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Originally posted by WhiteMoon:
Such a beautiful story. He must be happy that you still think of him.
Oh. Wow. Thank you. 😭💞💜💜💜💜 IP: Logged |
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