posted May 09, 2017 05:19 PM            

I only found him a week ago. And now he and his wife are on a plane heading this way to stay for one night and spend my one day off with me then fly back home. They should be here in less than 4 hours.

If it sounds sudden or crazy, well, welcome to my life. And believe me, I'm right there with you. I'm nervous and a little overwhelmed, but I'm excited. He and his wife are full of nothing but joy and love. I've been talking to them both individually and all either of them wants is to know me, love me, and do whatever they can to help me do whatever I desire in life.. these are their words.

They have made a lot of promises that I'm wary of, but I definitely want to get to know them.

I dont have her birthday yet, but here is my synastry and comp with my father..

I find it really interesting that his DNA is on my Saturn and he never had more children.

posted May 09, 2017 06:02 PM            

I'm not a synastry pro but fascinating about the saturn-dna but also the child-saturn conjunction. Really literal! Also, his sun on your NN feels significant.

Hopefully the merc-moon conjunction will allow you to talk things through in a sympathetic way.

As for the composite - looks like there's a lot of transits coming together to help. T. Sun conjunct your moon-karma;Venus and mercury returns indicating a fresh start; T. Mars conjunct composite NN signifying action; T. Moon flying past Uranus, and T. Uranus and Mercury (unexpected communication) conjunct composite chiron and mercury...

I don't know what you're hoping to get out of your meeting, but if an honest, potentially healing discussion is hoped for, the stars are certainly pointing in that direction.

posted May 09, 2017 06:23 PM            

I love my parents who raised me and nobody could ever take their place, but all I have ever known of my biological side is my mother's side and I stick out like a sore thumb with them. I'm not like any of them in really any way.

I hold no ill will toward him, and a fresh start is exactly what we are talking about. He gave me up in hopes that I would have a better life than he could provide and with the belief that when I was ready, I would find him.

I want to know him and know my grand parents and the rest of my extended family that he's already told me so much about.

I'm nervous because they are all such over achievers.. He is a senior high voltage electrician, my aunt a radiologist, one uncle a doctor, the other a biochemical engineer.. and here I am, haven't even attended anything past high school. Not that I didn't want to and not that I wasn't smart enough, but I had a lot of stuff happen at the time when I would have gone. My dad passing and getting into a car accident that broke my back being the two major things that held me back. I was 17 and 18 respectively at the time of those happenings. I'm afraid he will be disappointed in me. But he already knows I didn't attend college because he asked and asked if I wanted to go.. and offered to pay for it if I do.

One of the things he and his wife have offered. Any school I want for any degree I want in any field, as long as I am happy.

posted May 13, 2017 06:41 PM            

Well, that is me right now.

I don't even know where to begin except for the love that is being poured from the hearts of my father and his beautiful wife. Because that is the basis for everything else they have overwhelmed me with. True and unconditional love that has been waiting to be given for 30 years.

I found my family, truly, in these people. Others who share not only my blood, but my spirit, too.

I wish I could explain the feeling. It is like I found a home for my heart. Something I haven't felt in a long time.

And then the promises made..I'm astounded by the things that have changed in my life in the last two weeks.

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posted May 19, 2017 02:09 PM            

How are you to grow when you can barely afford to maintain what little you have?

The town that I am in has low wages and a high cost of living. I got lucky enough to work for one of the best companies in town. But it is still a job. Not a passion or a love. And although I do not make minimum wage for my state, quite a bit above it really, to live on my own would be a financial hardship. I know I am not the only one who lives here who suffers this.

But I have love with me again. Support from all sides. And the permission to do what I want with my life as long as I have passion for it.

I'm saying goodbye to my great job, to my home of 25 years. To go take a chance on a family who is providing me a wondrously amazing opportunity. To learn who they are and how much of them is in me. To a completely new place, but not completely foreign as it is only about 40 miles from where I was born.

I'm afraid, though. Because I am leaving something so special here. My best friends are here. 2 of them that I've had for 20 years each. I will be able to come and go as I please, I was told. But it's not the same as telling my bestie I need her in the middle of the night and driving to her house. I'm not sure how my heart is going to take that when it comes up. Or my other bestfriend who has been my partner in crime since we were 11 or 12. We have done everything together and to not have him with me when I go is terrifying. I have my own strength, but he loans me his as well

I am trying not to focus on that. I am focusing on growing. Once I have achieved what I need to feel content with who I am in my life, returning home could be an option. Or maybe build a new home and have them come join me

This is not what I thought would happen when I started searching for him. I wasn't sure what to expect. So I, of course, went over a million scenarios in my head. I'd thought I had covered all the possibilities, but they threw me a curve ball.

posted May 20, 2017 02:11 PM            

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Originally posted by Orange:
such an amazing story. Happy for you!

Do not forget the people who raised you, thou! You are what you are because of them.
Don't fret about the changes, you are in good hands/
I also changed my life more than a decade ago, left my familiar surroundings and moved across the ocean in another continent, thousands of miles away with absolutely no familiar faces around me and a few dollars in my pockeet, but life goes on.
I'm sure you'll enjoy your new life! We are all rooting for you.

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What you did sounds much more daunting, I'm only traversing states, not oceans, but who knows where it might lead? If my current desires are realized I could end up in a graduate program in Cairo. But let's take it one step at a time, I'm pretty familiar with making life changing decisions on the fly, but this is a lot bigger than my normal change. I have the same nervousness I always do before starting something new. And then I do it and I'm like, "Why were you nervous?"

For those who raised me and where I came from, I am my father's daughter through and through and everything that I do now with my biological father and family I will do in the manner he taught me. With the gifts of experience that my life has provided I can mesh with people of all walks of life and I like it that way. I was just discussing a couple days ago after having gone fishing that I can catch, gut and filet a fish, then put on heels and a cocktail dress and have it served to me graciously

I could never forget where I came from. It has made me who I am and I love me very much. Not to say that there aren't any areas for improvement, but my parents raised a decent human and I love them both for putting the time and effort into doing so. Also, for giving me the best life they possibly could have which was filled with unconditional love. It taught me to love that way. Which is why I can open my heart to this man, my biological father, now.

posted June 05, 2017 01:33 AM            

Transiting Uranus is on top of your Mc right now. Did you know that?

Natal solar Arc Sun/Mercury are conjunct Uranus and the Mc(31 years)

Solar Arc Mars/Uranus are square the Mc(31 years)

Solar Arc Mc is conjunct natal Moon(31 years exact)

Solar Arc Asc is opposite natal Jupiter.(31 years)

Trans Saturn is on your natal Sun/Mercury, Mars/Uranus right now.

Trans Saturn is on your solar Arc Moon by opposition(31 years)

You and your Dad have natal Mercury/Moon conjunct. Your Merc/Sun conjuncts his natal Venus.

Your Dad"s natal Jupiter conjuncts your Solar Arc Jupite
(31 years)

Your Dad has Moon/Neptune opposite. This I see a lot when it comes to adopted children, children that lose contact with parents, adoption, missing parental figure or paternity issues/disputes.

My only concern is your Neptune/Venus square-which is strongly idealistic. As you mentioned that you feel like you have found the family where you belong etc

Just be cautious of those high expectations as no family can completely be absolutely everything we want etc.

Also Pluto/Asc square natally does suggest that you go through some radical changes in your life(Uranus/Mars -Sun/Mercury incl). So you find yourself powerfully altered by meetings and encounters.

For Pluto/Asc folks, a personal one on one bond is very much desired. The individual desires complete acceptance from the "other" . And if any parts of them are rejected, the depth of the bond is compromised.

posted June 15, 2017 01:32 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
Still going well?

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Oh yes, very much so. I am currently packing up my life to say goodbye for a little while. I'm going to be moving down to be with them for a while to get to know them and my home. I may end up staying there or going elsewhere. That part is kind of up in the air at the moment.

posted June 15, 2017 01:53 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Wow.

Transiting Uranus is on top of your Mc right now. Did you know that?

Natal solar Arc Sun/Mercury are conjunct Uranus and the Mc(31 years)

Solar Arc Mars/Uranus are square the Mc(31 years)

Solar Arc Mc is conjunct natal Moon(31 years exact)

Solar Arc Asc is opposite natal Jupiter.(31 years)

Trans Saturn is on your natal Sun/Mercury, Mars/Uranus right now.

Trans Saturn is on your solar Arc Moon by opposition(31 years)

You and your Dad have natal Mercury/Moon conjunct. Your Merc/Sun conjuncts his natal Venus.

Your Dad"s natal Jupiter conjuncts your Solar Arc Jupite
(31 years)

Your Dad has Moon/Neptune opposite. This I see a lot when it comes to adopted children, children that lose contact with parents, adoption, missing parental figure or paternity issues/disputes.

My only concern is your Neptune/Venus square-which is strongly idealistic. As you mentioned that you feel like you have found the family where you belong etc

Just be cautious of those high expectations as no family can completely be absolutely everything we want etc.

Also Pluto/Asc square natally does suggest that you go through some radical changes in your life(Uranus/Mars -Sun/Mercury incl). So you find yourself powerfully altered by meetings and encounters.

For Pluto/Asc folks, a personal one on one bond is very much desired. The individual desires complete acceptance from the "other" . And if any parts of them are rejected, the depth of the bond is compromised.

Asc/Pluto can get defensive and exclusive when they feel judged/interfered with or ridiculed. There is a suspicious layer of character therein.

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I was aware of Uranus, it has been hovering there for about a year now, dancing back and forth across my MC. When it first approached I left my job of 6 years to pursue a completely different type of work. And now as it goes back over it, I am making choices that will alter my life and career in a very drastic matter.

I will be relocating to a town very near my birthplace so that natal Pluto/Asc square will be activated, as well as the sqaure from the Moon's nodes to that axis.

Thank you for the words of caution as I do have a tendency to play out that Venus-Neptune square at the worst possible times. I have tried to approach this with as much detachment as possible, but as you can see, after a month and a half, I'm moving. Although I think the change has a lot more to do with my natal Mars-Uranus. I have always made sudden and seemingly drastic changes. It's a theme my life has.