posted October 01, 2017 01:51 PM
hi mirrorcatthe composite is a bit twisted in that there are strong affections but there is also aspects abusive feelings.
with eris conjunct the south node sextile to the moon and eros, there is clearly a very overwhelming sexual/emotional attraction here. which might be the underlying reason he has turned up again.
venus on the ascendat also shows the ttraction between you but with venus square to nessus/pluto/psyche and ixion, the affection has a strong SM feeling .
usually hard venus/pluto aspects are not favorable for a long term relationship because one trues to dominate and control the other. here both your natal charts have venus/pluto aspects, he has venus conjunct to Pluto and you with Venus opposed to pluto.
so it may be possible to work the tensions of pluto/venus out.
your composite already is extremely sexual with eris/node and adding the sexual power of venus square pluto could be overwhelm the emotions. that is the sex could replace the emotional bonding necessary for sincere and devoted love.
it is this desire that seems to allowed you to let him back into your life.
then again as the composite has abusive overtones, you may enjoy the dominate/submissive role.
this can be seen as his natal chart has Saturn conjunct Lilith and nessus opposed to lilth and Saturn. this pattern is square to your natal ceres ,so it seems that the meaner he is, the more your devotion to him grows.
then you node is conjunct to his Saturn which implies that you give him confidence. so he may have come back for a combination of these factors.
the eros/psyche midpoint is conjunct to Jupiter wh8ich may be the glue that keeps your hope up, because this shows that in your romantic dreams , you and he with marry and become faithful.with sedan trine to Jupiter, this might have been a common expectation when your were first together.
Jupiter square to chiron,though,adds arguments and discord to this dream.
the sun/moon midpoint is square to Uranus which adds excitement and electricity to the relationship but it also shows the relationship will be unstable. likely you and he will be off and on.or the relationship will be a "open" relationship where he still has sexual freedom so to speak.
the mars/venus midpoint is square to nessus and psyche. this also is a aspect of SM emotions. that is pleasure and pain are united.so it seems ,as I said, you like to be the submissive to his domination of you.
but my personal opinion is that this type of a relationship will never be long term(unless it is on and off)and it is ultimately unhealthy psychologically . you self worth will suffer because you must always be his foot pad whether you like it or not.
todd