posted November 13, 2017 09:27 PM            

the fact that you are asking this question shows that you have repressed the answer.

looking at the composite chart, but not the synastric chart you posted, the sun is square to Nessus exactly.this is a aspect of abuse. usually sexual. a T-square is formed by the Saturn opposition to Chiron which by itself is an aspect of abuse.
Venus is conjunct the south node which is also found very frequently in sexual abuse environments.

usually individuals in your situation have hard pluto/mercury or pluto/ moon aspects which shows the issues are unconscious and therefore unknown.

but you chart has mercury opposed to Neptune
which implies,in light of the existence of a mental block, you are using alcohol or other substances regularly if not to an excess so to keep memories blacked out.
you are in a very fragile state to because emotionally where you are.so take care and be cautious/if this is a serious issue in your mind now. I suggest seeking some counseling.