posted May 06, 2018 09:43 PM            

It’s not like “merging” in the sense that you want to make babies with the other person. It’s the feeling of wanting to LITERALLY “be one” with the other person. You feel so comfortable with the person that it’s almost impossible not to give physical touch.

I feel like this with my partner. I feel so comfortable around him, I cannot resist touching him—whether it’s a kiss or a hug or cuddles, etc. Sometimes, I have images run through my head whenever I get this feeling. The images always show my soul and his soul literally merging.

There have been times when I’d leave the house without him when we fight, and I’d get this indescribable feeling that it doesn’t feel right not having him around. It’s not even that we are co-dependent. Believe it or not, we have our own separate lives, hobbies, and friends.

The feeling is not one-sided, either. When he left for a month to go on a trip, he messaged me saying he felt alone because I wasn’t there with him. He said I was his home. He also likes to give me physical touch and affection. The one time when he wanted to have sex while he was intoxicated, he called it a “soul bond”. I found it odd even though he was drunk.

I wonder if this can be seen in either synastry or composite charts? And if so, what aspects or placements would indicate it?

posted May 06, 2018 10:31 PM            

My ex and I have Priapus trine Priapus with my Priapus activating by conjunction his Isis conjunct Osiris and his Priapus conjuncting my Osiris which septiles my Isis and septiles my Moon; we also have isis/osiris double whammy by trine and sextile. He is the only person I actually wanted to have babies with and many years after I broke up with him he wrote me a letter saying he regretted not having a child with me.

The day I met him I was pulled towards him like a magnet, a force stronger than me, the desire to merge was intense from the start, I kissed him immediately and we did not separate for a few hours, just kissed nonstop. Every time I see him even many years later that super strong pull is there, last time I saw him I couldn't believe I could still feel soo strongly that desire to merge like it was day one.

"Priapus (h22): compulsive desire to merge physically and totally, great physical attraction and desire."

posted May 07, 2018 11:36 AM            

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Originally posted by Desiring Shadows:
Wow I do sound like a typical moon saturner

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Ironic you posted that at 11:17 which is my exe's birth date LOL.

You have a point but I feel even heartbreak is destined and serves a purpose.

There are days I have not felt this way but most days I feel I would do it again every lifetime. My hope is that I would handle the separation part better each lifetime that passes because of my growing understanding and faith that we are immortal.

My experiences with him feels super natural and when we meet in the dream world although is periodically and stretched out it also has that super natural quality to it.

Don't get me wrong I like moon square saturn, it does have this innate ability/gift to protect itself which is quite awesome but I would do it again, I would risk that level of heartbreak again, I did get through it and grew bc of it.

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posted May 07, 2018 11:43 AM            

My partner and I always feel this thing in our hearts when either leaves the room initially, like an automatic "were are you going thing?" but naturally we are attached, 11 years together...he misses me when I am upstairs and he is downstairs. We do have a stellium in the 8th in composite.

posted May 07, 2018 12:51 PM            

SLQ, what Prispus or Lilith aspects do you have with him ?

posted May 07, 2018 01:28 PM            

His Lilith in Leo conjunct my Sun and my Lilith trine his Moon in Cap.

posted May 07, 2018 02:55 PM            

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Originally posted by Solar_Leo_Queen:
I have Priapus at 28 deg Aqua and he has his at 4 deg Aqua. No aspects, except his Priapus opposite my Sun and conjunct my Uranus.

His Lilith in Leo conjunct my Sun and my Lilith trine his Moon in Cap.

The only thing I could think of is we have exact Venus trine Pluto in our composite. Idk what else. His Pluto does not square my natal Venus. It’s too loose.

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Check both Priapus, H22 is Priapus and H21 is Lilith but the opposite point of Lilith H21 is also Priapus.

His Priapus opposite your SUN is significant.

The only other person that I felt a desire to merge with his Priapus conjuncts my Agapenor and trines my SUN forming a Grand Trine with my Alma conjunct Lust so Priapus aspect Sun could explain that desire to merge you have with him.

His Priapus in Capricorn conjunct my AGAPENOR
My Sun in Virgo
My Alma conjunct Lust in Taurus

It was a lovely grand trine.

"I have Priapus at 28 deg Aqua and he has his at 4 deg Aqua."

^So they are 24 degrees apart! That would make it part of the 15th harmonics, when you divide 360 by 15 you get 24 degrees.

I am confused bc I have read that quindeciles are part of the 24th harmonics and have also read that quindeciles in connection to the 15th harmonics. The 24th harmonics use 15 degree increments and is why the quindecile aspect comes from that series but the 15th harmonic is called quindecile bc of its connection to the number 15 but it has 24 degree increments.

"The 15th harmonic indicates a facility and ease in expressing
oneself creatively (Cochrane)"

"24th Harmonic: The 5/24 aspect is a hybrid of the square and
sextile aspect, the 7/24 aspect is a hybrid of the square and
trine aspect, and the 11/24 aspect indicates an unrelenting
headstrong determination, with disruption and upheaval.
(Godefrey). The 24th harmonic indicates resources avail-
able to the person. The person is motivated to develop these
resources but not with the intensity of the hard aspects. The
meaning of hte 24th harmonic aspects is strongly influenced
by the numerator, and the 5/24 aspect is more subtle and
creative than the 11/24 aspect which is intensely motivating.
The 7/24 aspect is a bit constrained, introverted, and focused
(Cochrane). The 11/24 aspect indicates a tendency towards
being obsessive-compulsive (Ricki Reeves, Noel Tyl."

http://www.astrosoftware.com/harmonicfirst32.pdf

posted May 07, 2018 03:13 PM            

That explains what I talked about earlier, we do have this weird automatic reaction to separating that is instinctual..like when he lives the room or I live the room, we kind of have this strong automatic but initial reaction to it, like a 3 second separation anxiety lol.

posted May 07, 2018 07:07 PM            

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Originally posted by Orange:
Hypa,
Answer my question, woman..

Btw, in my synastry my Priapus conjunct his Venus exact at 0 degree.....grrrr

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I called it the break up of the century as an attempt to portray the level of emotional pain accurately LOL maybe my venus conjunct mars in Leo does not help in the over-dramatization department........

But you remember I mentioned we have moon conjunct and parallel moon with transit saturn and transit pluto forming a tsquare with our moons when we broke up. Add that tr Chiron was on my moon/pluto midpoint and squaring his Saturn. Tr Chiron activated my Moon/Chiron/Pluto golden Yod. Total Epic Disaster! hahahaha

I went into deep depression for about 4 years, every cell in my body felt like death for a long time, I felt like the walking dead, like a zombie.

posted May 09, 2018 04:17 AM            

If priapus is desire to merge, and it is in trine to venus, I would think that just expression of love and beauty would activate this and draw each partner closer to the other?

In the composite, Lilith is conjunct the Sun/Venus/Mercury Stellium and Priapus is obviously opposing it. It trines Vesta.

posted May 09, 2018 02:42 PM            

My Priapus sextiled his Sun conjunct Venus and His Priapus conjuncted my Alma/Lust and trined my Sun. I just met someone online born the day bf the birthdate of this last fling lol, we have these same aspects, their charts are identical except this guy has Leo rising and other guy Virgo rising and new guy his moon is at early degrees aries opposing my late degree sun in virgo.

I feel Priapus gives that fear of loss bc you get attached quickly.

My guess is priapus double whammy involving sun, moon, venus or mars or couple asteroids are powerful stuff. Whether it is priapus to each other's sun or his sun to your priapus and her moon to his priapus, same with venus and mars; Priapus to each other's venus or mars or his priapus to your venus and your priapus to his mars.

posted May 09, 2018 05:35 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
The last guy I had a fling with we did have that merge thing going although I didn't let it happen, the elements were there though but I didn't surrender to it, he did though.

My Priapus sextiled his Sun conjunct Venus and His Priapus conjuncted my Alma/Lust and trined my Sun. I just met someone online born the day bf the birthdate of this last fling lol, we have these same aspects, their charts are identical except this guy has Leo rising and other guy Virgo rising and new guy his moon is at early degrees aries opposing my late degree sun in virgo.

I feel Priapus gives that fear of loss bc you get attached quickly.

My guess is priapus double whammy involving sun, moon, venus or mars or couple asteroids are powerful stuff. Whether it is priapus to each other's sun or his sun to your priapus and her moon to his priapus, same with venus and mars; Priapus to each other's venus or mars or his priapus to your venus and your priapus to his mars.

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posted May 10, 2018 02:48 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
We live in different states (CO,FL) and last time I lived in FL I made sure not to see him, I felt in my gut that I shouldn't, I had a feeling that he was involved in a more serious relationship.

I did see him about over a decade after our break up and like I said earlier Every time I see him even many years later that super strong pull is there, last time I saw him I couldn't believe I could still feel soo strongly that desire to merge, it felt time had not passed.

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posted May 10, 2018 03:43 PM            

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Originally posted by Orange:
How is Priapus conjunct Neptune ( chart ruler ) in synastry ?
Seems like both planets seek merging , no?
His Priapus conjuncts my Neptune at 0 degree, while my Priapus conjuncts his Venus at 0 degree

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posted May 11, 2018 06:51 AM            

Our priapus' are tightly inconjunct.

My h13 Lilith is conjunct his sun/moon midpoint (so other priapus is opposite), his h13 (and BML) is conjunct my SN, meaning his other priapus is very much in his Moon-Destinn-Union tight conjunction that conjuncts my NN.

posted May 11, 2018 09:12 AM            

However his Pholus conjuncts my Chiron.

posted May 11, 2018 07:26 PM            

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Originally posted by Orange:
I wonder about this Pholus asteroid and if it is really potent. And who explodes whom?
In my synastry with my love I have my Pholus exactly conjunct his Venus.

Actually I have my Pholus conjunct tightly my Priapus (on my ASC and North Node) and they conjunct his Venus at nearly 0 to 1 degree.

However his Pholus conjuncts my Chiron.

That's his Venus here on my stuff --->

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Woah that's pretty full-on! Ami Anne has written some strong pieces about pholus - especially conjunct chiron, as she has that herself. She describes pholus as 'exploding' what it touches, so it's like a massive combustible magnifying glass maybe.

Pholus conjunct Venus would suggest to me overwhelming feelings of love, the pholus person would bring out the feelings of love in the Venus person. I don't know, say Venus person quite likes cats - the pholus would explode that into an urge to open a cat sanctuary.

Pholus conjunct chiron would bring a lot of lessons around pain, healing, overcoming wounds... From what I've read, pholus was largely a benevolent centaur, so potentially less likely to create violent situations?

Either way, this relationship is clearly significant, with the NN-venus, Asc/Dsc stuff too...