posted June 19, 2018 10:06 AM            

I have a man that I met and the attraction is off the charts, but I feel it's a bad road to walk down (so I wont be walking down it, but I still want to understand this placement).

I am taurus rising at 18º and my North Node is 1st house 5º Gemini conjunct 6º Chiron. Obviously this makes my South Node 5º Sagittarius in the 7H.

The man's NN is 6º Pisces/SN 6º Virgo

So this is a grand cross/square of a cardinal nature, no?

My dejanira is 6º conjunct his SN in virgo.
I interpret this as him being abusive to me in the past lives, especially since it is in the 4th house, I think I was more like enslaved within the home while he was out in the world being successful. This life I think he would have potential to help me with my career as his NN is in my 10th house, but we also have a mars/pluto conjunction. Our black lilith's oppose each other also.

Anyone want to take a stab as to whether there is ANYTHING positive in this chart worth fighting for or progressing with? I feel like it would just be one long karmic ride and both of us would end up dead at the end of it lol.

I find very little info about North Node and South Nodes forming a grand cross/square in synastry. It just feels like a lock is on the past and the future with no way out. His pholus is also 8º conjunct my Chiron, so I would assume he explodes my pain. Maybe he would allow for a healing, but I've learned enough about pain.

Anyone?