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Topic: It's so hard to walk in Saturnian shoes
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pocketrocket
Knowflake Posts: 86
From: Italy
Registered: May 2017
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posted July 14, 2018 01:05 PM
  
So.. i find my significant relationships to be very very intense, unpleasant,unfullfilment, some of them with anger, shame..etc.. and i've checked some synastries with family, relatives, friends and ofc ppl I love/d..
And in almost all - the one who feels bad, hurted, dissapointed is the one with Saturn role! So, it's not my mars or moon that hurts so much, it's this big guy, the one who is hidden, who brings internal discomfort, the one who is slow and unhappy... So, it's not easy to handle that massive energy squarring arround it's planets and other's planets.. and i think to myself.. omg what a torture i must brought to others!
And the times i was harsh, cold and maybe little evil to others, it was all already in me, i felt that burden every time. It's like every energy i sent, the stronger it becames in me.. like i grow it..
I dont find it pleasant to reveal i am that saturn in my relations.. sometimes is good, but when you realise that acctually you are the bad guy, not the hurted one, it makes you wonder.. IP: Logged |
Randall
Webmaster Posts: 98561
From: From a galaxy, far, far away...
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 15, 2018 11:51 AM
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ScandinavianCrab
Knowflake Posts: 195
From: Scandinavia
Registered: Aug 2013
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posted July 15, 2018 02:53 PM
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Originally posted by pocketrocket:
So.. i find my significant relationships to be very very intense, unpleasant,unfullfilment, some of them with anger, shame..etc.. and i've checked some synastries with family, relatives, friends and ofc ppl I love/d..
And in almost all - the one who feels bad, hurted, dissapointed is the one with Saturn role! So, it's not my mars or moon that hurts so much, it's this big guy, the one who is hidden, who brings internal discomfort, the one who is slow and unhappy... So, it's not easy to handle that massive energy squarring arround it's planets and other's planets.. and i think to myself.. omg what a torture i must brought to others!
And the times i was harsh, cold and maybe little evil to others, it was all already in me, i felt that burden every time. It's like every energy i sent, the stronger it becames in me.. like i grow it..
I dont find it pleasant to reveal i am that saturn in my relations.. sometimes is good, but when you realise that acctually you are the bad guy, not the hurted one, it makes you wonder..
It feels like you have walked a fair part of the road you must travel to come to terms with your self. IF you want to find happiness, which I'm sure you want. Now for the remaining part of your road to redemption I would advise you to see a therapist, if you can afford it. If you find a good one it will be the best money you ever spent on your self.
Otherwise try to find someone outside of your life to talk, a priest, a curator etc. And make sure to work out and make your body sweat a few times every week. When you're healed you can make that Saturn an asset for your friends and family instead of what it has been in the past. IP: Logged |
two-headed-she
Knowflake Posts: 49
From: LA
Registered: Mar 2013
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posted July 17, 2018 12:43 PM
Can you talk more about the placement of Saturn in your chart? House, sign, aspects, etc?IP: Logged |
Randall
Webmaster Posts: 98561
From: From a galaxy, far, far away...
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 24, 2018 04:10 PM
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sassaqua
Knowflake Posts: 363
From: Oz
Registered: May 2011
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posted July 24, 2018 10:53 PM
I would like to hear more about the placement of your Saturn too  I feel like Saturn is a strong point of my chart, and one of the planets I've worked hard to embrace. Over time of course. IP: Logged | |
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