posted June 12, 2020 07:03 PM            

I just need to get this off my chest as at the moment it's driving me kinda crazy.. maybe someone can share some insights on what to do..
Sorry in advance for the novel ^.^!
So I started at a new working place in a small office (around 20 to 25 employees) at the end of April where I met this Aqua guy. He started at the same time as me and was supposed to stay till September. He is much younger than me but we both look around the same age (I do look very young). From the moment we first met he started staring at me with such a sparkle in his eyes.. Whenever we were in a group setting, I noticed he usually couldn't take his eyes off of me the entire time, even when someone else was talking. As he is so young he is still rather shy (he looks rather confident though) and he also talks in a rather low voice.
For me as a Scorpio, at first I'm not a huge social butterfly, though I warm up quite fast (especially compared to other Scorpios lol). Most of us employees have their own office or it's two people sharing an office. I have an office of my own and so at first I was in it most of the time and didn't leave it much, so I didn't see my colleagues often. After some time, it was about the end of my second week, my Aqua dude started coming to my office with questions and requests all the time (I was kiiiind of his superior but there are three other women who are the actual superiors and who have worked there for years, I was just in a higher position than him). He came rather often and sometimes it was quite obvious he asked stuff that I couldn't have yet known, instead of going to the actual superiors straight away (who are right next to my office btw...). He also told me stuff about him and his family while asking those questions. So it seemed like he wanted to be near me. I was quite flattered and I have to admit I was already rather smitten by him the moment we were introduced to each other. Around this time I started to warm up to the other colleagues as well, so I was leaving my office often and walking around all the time. He was sharing an office with another guy who is a little bit older than him. I also liked his colleague very much (but only in a platonic, friendly way) but I always just came into their office when I had some stuff for them as I don't feel comfortable just sitting down and starting to chat.
One day there was a third colleague in their office, also a young guy, when I came in with some work. After we were done and I was still in the office the third guy started asking personal stuff about me and we just started chatting and I stayed in their office for two hours as we four totally got along with each other talking privately. It was so nice and "natural" and super funny, we laughed a lot! From that day on I often came into their office and then stayed a bit and we just talked. He told me stuff about himself and his family again. I dressed up for my Aqua guy a lot and I noticed the him checking me out on several occasion and also his body language was speaking volumes in terms of him mirroring my gestures and his body always pointing towards me.
I was totally euphoric when suddenly, at the beginning of last week he was informed he and the other young colleagues will be ordered back to their work or training (starting again June 15th, his last day was today) because of Corona-restrictions easing in our country. He seemed to have been quite nervous and "stormed" my office twice asking me who will be his replacement and what will happen, etc. I talked with our boss about this as I have no saying in this and our boss said that if he absolutely wanted to stay he could, he would just have to say something but he negated it and said that it's better this way anyway because he still has so many exams. A bit confusing to me but ok he's an Aqua hahaha.
I was kinda sad knowing that he would leave but I thought that now all of us "young" colleagues get along so well we could maybe finally meet in private after they stopped working here, so I wasn't too disappointed. A couple of days before this, our boss ordered me to write all the private numbers of those young colleagues supporting us down (for emergencies). So Aqua guy and the other colleagues know I have their numbers. No one has asked for my number though fyi.
Anyway I even made a cake today for him and some others leaving (others had already left on Wednesday), I told him in the morning I made a cake (but didn't say I made it especially for him) and that he should try it. He joked and said he's gonna let his colleague try first and if it's safe he's gonna eat it too, haha! We chatted privately a bit throughout the day today too.
Then, the end of his working day was nearing and I was in my office today, rather nervously as I awaited his goodbye but guess what, it never came! He just left without saying goodbye.. What's the worst to me is that he said goodbye to everyone BUT me. I felt so ****** and angry after this -_- Since we're not friends on Facebook or anything it seems to me like this was it for him? Am I right? And well, now I don't know what to do or how to feel.. A couple of days ago some other female colleague said to his colleague while him and me were also there that we should meet for drinks some time and his colleague said that we should make plans and then just let him know and tell him when and where but my female colleague is not a fan of the Aqua dude and I'm not sure if he even heard/realised what she said. I tried telling my female colleague that I like the Aqua guy but she didn't really get it and thinks that I'm too old for him (or he's too young for that matter).

So yeah anyway, did I just imagine him liking me the slightest bit? Or is that an Aqua thing to just run off? Should I text him??? Or am I just a colleague to him and he was just being nice? I'm on Facebook with my actual name but the paranoid Scorpio that I am, before I started my new job I adjusted Facebook in such a way that people can't find me if they search for me because I didn't want my boss to find me there and I can't change it for the next 40 or so days (insert a huge, fat facepalm here). I did find him on Facebook but I don't want to add him as I previously had bad experiences adding or trying to add (non-romantic lol) colleagues or former colleagues on Facebook plus it might seem creepy, dunno.. I really really just like him so soooo much

If someone's interested I could also post his birth chart.. Thank for any advice in advance <3

posted June 13, 2020 03:10 AM            

As an Aqua woman I can say that sometimes we prefer to avoid "drama" and too emotional goodbyes, so the fact that he said to goodbye to everyone cept you cause it would make him nervous is still a possibility :-)

posted July 06, 2020 05:20 PM            

quote:

---

CountablyInfinite wrote:

and he also talks in a rather low voice.

---

The above quote from you btw is so Aquarius! lol all my life "Can you please speak up".
I think the Air quality of Aquas is very much like the Fae realm. We are often quieter.

In terms of this guy you like, I see Aquas (including self) as hummingbirds that fly about collecting nectars. Often finding nectar we like and wanting to return to it but might be distracted, dis-swayed or feel maybe 'less than', relating to grounding ~ Air is their home. Finding ourselves in commitments can be frightening. If as you say he's younger, this could be the case but a few more thoughts come to mind. One he could feel ridiculed by his peers about your age difference.
or second .. this is big and sadly a possibility, it could be this pandemic, as you said at your wk it is largely involved now too. Are you from two differing generations?

Gads, this is more than I wanted to say but you deserve to know, not blow in the wind. Believe me - I know both sides of that life lesson!