posted May 10, 2022 07:49 AM            

I have missed our talking here. I've been here often, yet my life this past year began an unexpected.

posted May 16, 2022 12:39 AM            

Please forgive my delay but lately I cant focus on astrology at all.....

Thank you for calling me and for asking about my updates and advice ❤️❤️❤️

I am sorry you're struggling emotionally in this situation... I see why this man may be "damaged" inside, his Chiron is attached to his sun-ruler planet Mercury, with his Moon afflicted in the t-square, which is his chart ruler planet... he also has Saturn/Pluto in the 4th house, and so he's emotionally challenged... his dom personality is given by this powerful "block" in his 4th house but it is an unconscious struggle to find self-value and inner balance... He actually seems to be a brilliant man with a deep emotional side, but it doesn't seem to be under control.... with South Node/Neptune in his 6th attached to DSC he needs to work through challenges in relationships, this is a configuration giving great uncertainities and instability in his life path... he seems to be a lonely man... likely even a bit self-secluded, who finds pleasure in his own creativity or fantasy world maybe a self-denial attitude ... ?

I think he's experiencing this great uncertainty right now because transiting Neptune is square to his Mars/Neptune opposition attached to the Nodes, he may be even quite depressed or struggling to find a way out from this negative state of mind... likely he's "losing" his "direction" at this moment, maybe looking for ways to give him relief but it's only apparent relief... Moreover, transiting PLuto is square to his Saturn/Pluto opposition, and likely he's feeling completely stuck and unable to move on... even though transiting Mars and Jupiter entering Aries may offer new energies and positive reaction... Mercury rx is likely triggering a lot of questioning about his life and self-worth, and looks quite emotional. Basically I think that he will find more clarity, purpose and new positive energies as Mercury will go direct again.

I may have to see the composite chart between you two though in order to better undesrtand what is going on in your relationship with him, if you like!

Oh, me... I have been going through an horrible period my friend... Saturn in my Aqua Sun sign literally destroyed me for the whole past year... my health issues were endless and I am still struggling... my dad passed away and it was a deeply shocking time I yet have to overcome, since then I cant seem to get out of my dark state of mind... My love for J is always there and so is my hopelessness... my book was translated months ago, but I have not published the english version yet, I only have my printed copies and didn't have any energy to focus on the publishing at all... I only keep dreaming to give J the book, but I have no clue about when or if I'll ever have the chance... I only know I dont think I'll never forget this man. About him, I know he has a child now and he's getting more successful in his artistic career... transits with his wife are not positive at all, but what do I know?
If you ever feel like drawing cards for me about my future or about J and me, I'd be so thankful!! ❤️❤️❤️

posted May 16, 2022 03:02 PM            

Big thank you for all your magic and caring words ❤️ you always speak the truth!!!!
Yes it was and still is harsh with all events around my dad... funny thing is that I didn't expect to miss and love him SO much. Btw, he was old, but his passing away was only expected few days before as he went to hospital and we were said there was nothing to do, but the fact is that his conditions got suddenly very painful until the end and it was quite difficult to accept to be completely powerless against his suffering...

Sorry I dont have Discord but thank you for asking, I only have whattsapp (I hate having all that stuff in my phone and somehow allergic to the smartphone!)

The question you have suggested is perfect to me 💙 main thing I would ask, yes, if a door with J is still open in the future, even just to give him the book... and maybe if I will be able to overcome my horrible state of mind that leaves me so stuck and hopeless...

Thank you for asking about the book, I didnt have the peace of mind to work on the publishing process at all and so it's not on Amazon or anywhere else yet. But it will be soon, I really need to do this, and I will let you know! I hope I can manage to send it to you as a gift though 💙💙💙

Please please send me the composite chart with this man and tell me what are you trying to look for in this connection? Do you wish to make things work with him? I didnt mention that his Neptune/South Node is very karmic and spiritual... I think he has an higher soul, but for some reason his own issues in this lifetime seem to challenge his connection to this higher Self. Maybe you sense this cause you're in a much more higher connection with your Self and cant find a way to really connect to his own, as this is so difficult for him himself... but this somehow let you feel powerless and unable to establish the deep connection you need and feel with him.... this is why I would like to check the composite and see what's the karmic-soul connection between you two...

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posted May 16, 2022 03:21 PM            

Your inquiry on J and receiving your book.
Q: "Will Stoika get to hand J, her book"
Ace of Coin - Knight of Coin - Knight of Swords.
I see this as this deck as perfect for this Q. Yes, you'll deliver it and you'll both be over the rainbow at this moment. He will be so proud of you as you hand it to him.. this isn't looking backwards with this creative venture you're sharing. It's moving forward. He is investing in some material way in this book you've created. Maybe buying several copies. He is interested in spending time reading it/them. As a Hermit might. ALONE in a cherished location. Maybe his study? He will seek spiritual guidance at the time he's in your book. There's mystery in the connection he feels with you as he reads your words in a very personal way. As he knows you and feels this connection still.

*Clarification* 2 of Wands
Watching for a moment of coming together once again. Your book is a catylst in his wanting to come together in a potential reunion.. this is mysterious though, the sky is looking murky yet yellow like the sun. He's uncertain yet hopeful.

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Q: "Will Stoika and J reunite, after her book is received"

6 of Cups - Empress - Two of Pentacles .
He is looking back at you with such a loving heart. He sees you as the beautiful one you were in the past. You are the Empress, you feel an abundance of love for him and he feels it. You both want this reunion. I feel the the book reception is the marker to bring this fwd. You both will have a reunion but the juggling is in the future once again. It's not wanted though, you see forever in one another.
*clarification* Again the 2 of Wands. Here I need to say this time, the world is behind you two. You both feel there's a great uncertainty but you both look at this opportunity to turn your back on everything else - beyond the two of you.

I pulled a "camera" card out. Idk if he'll have a photo engagement for his career but this may be the opportunity for your reunion. I pulled it for your giving your book to him too. So it might be same day.
Idk it could be two photo ops for hus career?

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Q: "What does the future for Stoika and J look like"

Moon Fell out - MYSTERY.
The Sun - 9 of Wands - King Of Wands.
A beautiful happy future with each other though guarded. Possibly due to his karmic ties he's been stuck in. Your passion will be strong and balanced.

It does seem you'll

*Clarification*
The tower.
Yes. It will be but much will be destroyed in the process to getting to this beautiful future. It may become difficult in the steps getting there that murky sky we saw in those 2 of Wands cards, are on the other side of this. It seems the 2if Wands energy is the seed that will blow this tower up to clear a bright future together.

I pulled an additional card: Cassette.
Some old Music, and or speaking on an old tape or other format, will spark this future. Revisiting the past but looking at the future. There's much found in this old sound .. might it be the music you two share?!

Just to see what this one brings-
Q: Is the story of Stoika and J remaining unfinished"
The Devil - Death - Knight of Wands.

Attachments, addiction and or wrong thinking, that has caused you each to be stuck in places that brought no happiness, will come to an end. Charging forward, you both will feel a fire lit within towards one another.

*clarification*
King of Coins.

Material balance. Stability in this offer that you as a couple are offered by the Universe. This is too about healing! Both your bodies, minds and spirits. The reality is you both find immense healing in the other so this story is far from over.

Please let me know, my dear if anything feels possible, if it creates more Qs.

posted May 16, 2022 03:42 PM            

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Originally posted by Stoika7:
You the most lovely lady on Earth ❤️❤️❤️
Awww, I have been missing you so much too!!!
I actually quickly came from time to time and have read some of your posts and great readings ❤️ but I never was in the mood to chime in or anything....

Big thank you for all your magic and caring words ❤️ you always speak the truth!!!!
Yes it was and still is harsh with all events around my dad... funny thing is that I didn't expect to miss and love him SO much. Btw, he was old, but his passing away was only expected few days before as he went to hospital and we were said there was nothing to do, but the fact is that his conditions got suddenly very painful until the end and it was quite difficult to accept to be completely powerless against his suffering...

Sorry I dont have Discord but thank you for asking, I only have whattsapp (I hate having all that stuff in my phone and somehow allergic to the smartphone!)

The question you have suggested is perfect to me 💙 main thing I would ask, yes, if a door with J is still open in the future, even just to give him the book... and maybe if I will be able to overcome my horrible state of mind that leaves me so stuck and hopeless...

Thank you for asking about the book, I didnt have the peace of mind to work on the publishing process at all and so it's not on Amazon or anywhere else yet. But it will be soon, I really need to do this, and I will let you know! I hope I can manage to send it to you as a gift though 💙💙💙

Please please send me the composite chart with this man and tell me what are you trying to look for in this connection? Do you wish to make things work with him? I didnt mention that his Neptune/South Node is very karmic and spiritual... I think he has an higher soul, but for some reason his own issues in this lifetime seem to challenge his connection to this higher Self. Maybe you sense this cause you're in a much more higher connection with your Self and cant find a way to really connect to his own, as this is so difficult for him himself... but this somehow let you feel powerless and unable to establish the deep connection you need and feel with him.... this is why I would like to check the composite and see what's the karmic-soul connection between you two...

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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❤️ Stoika,
I enjoyed working with you before. You a
are an incredible reader if energy. I'm happy my readings did offer true, clarity. Your readings too, It's very beautiful to see you patch together stories in the charts. You are gifted. Your music and relationship studies. You ease many of our hearts. 🦋

It seems maybe your Dad left in time to be there with you in a Spiritual essence.
You're more spiritual than you might realize. Your Dad is going to bring you guidance. He's not suffering any longer and I feel he wants to be there on the other side for you to speak with. As he offers you comfort from there.

I agree regarding the apps. My guy is the only reason I opted to load discord. It was removed before he made a strong suggestion. Which I am happy I finally did get It. It's our main lifeline towards one another at this time.
I'm okay ready for you here. I also relate with the feeling you have about not chiming in. Life does take a strong light, center stage where we sometimes go off from our intention. Life brings so much unanticipated. Good and often not good.

That is sweet. Thought "I want to buy" your book. I'll watch for it when you tell me it's at the market. 🙂

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I'm going to respond more but your reading my heart matter. Thank you! I feel bad that things have been so heavy for you.

I think we both have had a strong taste of Saturn these days. He's been at my Sun, moon and Venus.

I'll get our composite charts. In a bit. I need to respond still to your results. You are VERY good at reading him too.
I'll add the charts and notes on your reading soon. Thank you!

posted May 16, 2022 05:00 PM            

I still have to process your amazing reading, you said so many important things... you have the magic to make me feel good and smile, it's like a sudden big ray of Sun giving powerful bright energy!! And everything you write is like a vision, a picture. I do believe you are an amazing writer and, speaking of books, I can imagine you write some magical fairy tale full of higher meanings! Did you ever think about doing this?

I'm thinking, we can certainly exchange our email address if you like, and keep in touch also when we're not in here or just to make it more private, I'd love to keep this deep connection with you ❤️ and so I could ask Randall for our email exchange....

Re: your reading about J and me... as I said, it put a big smile on my face, it's all beyond any of my expectation since I have lost hope about this all since a while... I still have deep wishes, but thinking realistically I cant find hope at all... and so your words just re-open some of that buried hope... last thing I want is to give myself false hope, but at least I can give myself some positive motivation to keep going, which is what my connection with J always gave me and I seem to have lost...
So your reading leaves me with much more positive view for the future and good energy, which is what I mainly need right now to recover 💙💙💙
Well, your prediction certainly resonates with my feelings that whether we meet again and I can give him the book, it would certainly be a definitive turnaround for me, in the best or worst outcome in any case... and I feel there's also much truth in what you say about the possibility of healing each other... and the Tower: well, if any of what you have foreseen should ever become true, I am sure it would bring great upheaval in both our lives for sure...
ahah, he buying lots of copies of my book made me smile, that would be funny of him, but its something I could see him do 😄 In any case his Taurus nature certainly matches with the fact he would feel like making it a material outcome of some kind...

Re: photos. You are totally on point bout this! Photo engagement is a big part of his profession, and it has to do with movie industry... could be also an event around a movie? that's the easiest way I could meet him again.
And music, yes, we're both musicians, but I can't figure out at this moment what the music connection may mean in a future scenario...

Re: Saturn. Sista, I am having tr. Saturn conjunct my Sun/Venus/Juno right at this moment, and I am feeling like all the burden I took since Saturn entered Aquarius is falling over me all at once... but somehow I also feel it as a turnaround has to come and finally put all this behind my back... I just dont know how to get there right now, I feel consumed and unable to move or react... and then Saturn retrograde this summer scares me a little since it means it's not over yet and there's still a lot to go through until next year.
And how did it play out for you my dear? Do you feel you had to go through a heavy lesson or that you have finally got to a much more stable stage? Or do you feel devastated like I do? I really hope not!!

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your words about my dad and his spiritual closeness... not kidding, it made me cry... Maybe you are right that I am more spiritual than how I believe, since I am not believing in anything anymore... only thing I know is that he's there for me somehow, and he will stay ❤️

And all your so lovely words about me, I am just thankful for your support, it means so much to me ❤️ your readings, as your soul, give so much light, inspiration and faith, and you just SHINE ❤️❤️❤️

posted May 16, 2022 07:02 PM            

Oh my, this is a bit shocking now... I mean, I knew you were an Aqua sista and I always felt the connection, but I didn't expect such a BIG connection 💙💙💙

Aah, you have your Aqua Moon attached to my same stellium as yours (Aqua Sun/Venus/Juno), while I have Moon in Taurus... and so that is why I feel you're such a compassionate big heart, but actually wild free Aqua heart 💙

And yes it seems we're both unhappy in our current longtime relationships... and we're very attracted to platonic "impossible" love with a soulmate...
My nodes are conjunct to the asc/dsc axis, your nodes are square to the asc/dsc axis...! which basically points to strong artistic and psychic talents, but also a challengre to express those and relationship struggles....

aaah, we're so similar, I cant believe this!

Soooo.... about your relationship with this man, I need to say that it looks extremely otherworldly but also involving a lot of both your subconscious issues... The Composite Noth Nodes is attached to Chiron, opposite Uranus and square to Saturn... this shows that there is a struggle between the huge intimate and healing potential and the efforts to have this powerful connection actually manifest in a quite challenged scenario and with both personal issues... Here it is clear that Saturn square Uranus/South Node makes it difficult to make things grounded and stable in the physical reality... It doesn't look impossible to meet in person in the potential event of one of you traveling to meet the other, in fact there's the lovely Grand Trine involving the Moon in the 9th house, where also Neptune stands, Mercury and Saturn, this shows a great emotional and intellectual compatibility, but also the chance to actually travel across the world to meet each other... even so, with the Nodes attached to the Saturn/Uranus square, there is the awareness that your "physical connection" would not take to stability due to your different life locations and stable situations... also Chiron is attached here, and so you both feel that whatever this is about, it is strongly healing, but through the burden of Saturn square Chiron and the instability of Uranus square Saturn, which may actually be what your strong psychic connection is all about and that maybe, in the actual possibility of finding a stability in the earthly plane, such a soul connection would not be acknowledged in the same powerful way.... this is confirmed by Vertex conjunct to DSC, which is a strong indicator of a soul connection that takes place in a higher dimension which is difficult to manifest in the earthly plane.... this doesnt mean that an actual "earthly" realtionship is not possible, but that whether it takes off, the Vertex psychic connection would not easily manifest in a fullfilling way, leaving most of it mainly exist in a otherworldly higher plane.
At subconscious level I have to say that Neptune quincunx the Mars/Venus conjunction is incredibly drawing at sexual and spiritual/romantic/platonic level, but it is about the high idealization of each other that may come from your deepest own dissatisfation in your actual lives, as if you both find a way out or the only fullfillment through your connection. This configuration also points to cultural differences and that there's need to work about an unbalanced deep understanding of where the other comes from, literally and culturally...
Be aware that Neptune quincunx Mars/Venus can also (generally) signal the following: a friends with benefit affair, an extramarital affair, or that there is not enough clarity and opening up, something may be holden back: or the purpose of the relationship doesnt have a clear direction and vision.

The strong pull and connection at romantic level you feel is given by the Jupiter/Moon midpoint opposite to Mars/Venus... this is clearly a potential powerful aspect of "falling in love for life" !! Even so consider that The Chiron/Mars-Venus midpoint opposite Uranus and the Juno/Jupiter midpoint square to Psyche in a potential actual stable relatiionship in the physical realm and daily life would be very demanding in deveolping a deep intimate synergy and inner knowledge of each other in order to not turn out in easy arguing and critical attitudes against each other... maybe this is already manifesting in your long-distance connection, when you just look for even unrealistic pretexts to question the relationship...
As for transits, with tr. Uranus conjunct to Mars/Venus opposite to the Jupiter/Uranus midpoint there may be an upheaval and strong ups-and-down/on-off situation. The nodes are also going towards this opposition and this may be a further struggle between deep loving feelings and the physical separation, it may bring a letting go or abrupt separtion or it may bring unexpected moves for renewed connection a plans for a future meeting in person... in any case something unexpected and somehow radical...

aah, my friend, we are similar also in putting ourselves in such emotionally powerful and challenged situations!!

Looking at the synastry, my feeling is that he's REALLY crazy about you. But there is also a strong sexual pull here, not to mention possible manipulation, jelousy and power struggle, it looks very "wild" and somehow out of control.

Honestly I believe that he making an issue of you being married it doesn make much sense when you're so far away across the planet, so what's really his point? Mainly jelousy I guess... not an issue that is challenging your relationship since it is clearly already challenged by the physical distance. What does he exactly expects from you to do? Leave your husband for someone who maybe you won't ever meet in person?
Yes the energy between you two is quite overwhelming, but Composite Chiron/North Node in the t-square with Saturn-Uranus seems to loudly demand: what are you really going to do or what are you willing to do to make this relationship grounded in the physical realm? Is it true love or a projection of the love you crave (you, him or both) that you don't have in your actual lives, even so through a connection with a soulmate? Or, are you willing to keep loving this soulmate by accepting the long-distance/platonic nature in this lifetime and make it "true love" no matter what?

posted May 16, 2022 11:11 PM            

"Do you think our getting to the in person side, we'll be able to overcome this?"

Yes I think you may overcome this, but in the physical realm your relationship may play out differently compared to how you are experiencing it at long distance... the Vertex on the axis may test your relationship as to see if your "higher plane" connection can work out also on the earthly level... this is an highly karmic challenge about true love given by Vertex and also by the Chiron/Nodes square Saturn. This means that such a kind of configuration can work out if you both are very true to yourself and to the other and if you are in complete synergy, both with your own Self and with the inner world of the other... otherwise Saturn square Chiron/Nodes may bring a lot of bitter issues...

So, as for your uncertainty and resistance, you likely feel the truth of the big challenge and unknown you may face once you take this connection on the physical and daily life, it's big and it takes to completely commit to such an "higher" selfless love, which is not always so easy to maintain in the earthly sphere of relationship...

Transiting North Node will be conjunct to the comp. Mars/Venus at the end of the summer/september/october... so this is the favourable time you may meet him in person...

In your prog comp chart though, Uranus/South Node is conjunct DSC and square to Saturn... this means that there's distance and great instability at this moment, even though your psychic connection is quite strong... so I guess that you may have to overcome this moment of great uncertainty in order to successfully plan a meeting in person for september/october...

Oh I forgot to mention that in synastry your Nodes are conjunct his IC/MC axis, and his Nodes are square to your Pluto... this is extremely karmic and binding... you both feel you're family and foundation for each other, you both feel a great inner transformation through your connection.

Yes you and me have a very similar experience sista! Same powerful karmic/psychic/otherworldly experience with the ideal "one", same situation of long distance, separation, challenges to get together... how long have you been in this connection? I am into this with J since six years, can you believe it?!

posted May 16, 2022 11:30 PM            

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Originally posted by MoonMystic:
Stoika, in terms of our twin almost dobs, I was wondering how long have you been in your one connection, non J one? Did it turn into more a brother/sister thing? Mine has same chart as mine, we're both same rising signs. Mine further in deg. He was married to his first wife whom I believe was his actual True life mate. I think the idea of me was all that connected him with me, I thought if him as a confidant, best friend. He clearly lost that facet with me long before now.
Sagittarius/ Gemini
Seem to be divinely paired.
Is J younger than you?
We both have that same stellium involving Juno. As well your Pallas may be nearby where mine is. My asteroid name is on sabian "barometer". I'm empathetic which for outside self energy is frustrating.
It is challenging. My readings are more me channeling as if late too.

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