HiBelow is my chart, i'm looking for help regarding a recurring theme in mylife which i don't know where it from.
Gender: female
Age: 32yo
Sun: scorpio
Moon: scorpio
Mercury: scorpio
Venus: scorpio
Mars: capricorn
Jupiter: scorpio
Saturn: libra
Uranus: sagitarius
Neptune: sagitarius
Pluto: libra
North node: cancer
Ascendant: capricorn
2nd house: aquarius
3rd house: pisces
4th house: aries
5th house: taurus
6th house: gemini
7th house: cancer
8th house: leo
9th house: virgo
Midheaven: libra
11th house: scorpio
12th house: sagittarius
In my life, i ALWAYS AT ALL TIME, involved in some sort of obsessive love affair with a guy, can be reciprocal, can be one sided, but now i recall there was never a time where i can live calmly without romantic obsession. It's not rare for me to be blissfully happy for being single and not having any romantic feeling with anyone before OUT OF THE BLUE, some guy said the right thing, flirted the right way that i considered out of this world sexy and the obsession starts. Sometimes it's mutual, sometimes it's onesided, doesn't matter, i always engage in super, over the top, passionate romantic affair ALL THE TIME.
Frankly it's tiring, i have more than one time to myself that i'm willing to brush off relationship aspect for now and focus on my career goals for now cause that's what i genuinely want but it seems the universe does not allow me so. The crazy thing with this sudden intensity is that, it's so intense it's taking over my brain sometimes i need to place my self in calm and quiet surrounding before i move on with my life - that's only before another romantic affairs hit me on my nose.
What's going on around here, which part of my chart determines this outcome and how can i minimize it? I have found a potential solution where every involvement with guys early on will be strictly sexual, and move on. I don't know though, i'm affraid it's playing with fire and i get my heart broken.
What's your thoughts?
Need help,
Vanessa