i don't understand why you want to have your username cancelled, you could simply not use it.do you want someone to change your mind? are you asking to be convinced to stay?
what were you looking for when you came here, have you been disappointed? this place is an openspace and if it doesn't belong to everyone, then it's .... empty. it's you and all others posters that give it its life. don't you see your comments are the air posters breathe. don't you like this fresh air yourself?
nobody on this forum is perfect. we always grow, and change our views. ask me about that. i can't say i've deeply changed but i'm not afraid to do it publicly. may be the internet is giving me enough space to be myself, may be this interactive interface is easier to deal with than life on that respect, just may be...
i really don't see how cutting the ties with this forum will change your personal situation in any ways. and the fact you publicly ask for it makes me wonder if you are not asking for something else. some attention... in that case, STAY!!! you'll have some attention here. and i dare to say some real attention. people are most of the time genuine here, and willing to give back to others. if you need to cry or share something you haven't done yet, then do it. people will respond with compassion and those who don't are here to remind you that most of us need the same kind of help. you should simply ask.
everyone should feel free on this forum... to do or say anything.... and leave if they want to (but do they really want to?)
ps: right now life is far too busy and complicate for me to give you any more attention than that, but there's so many people here, you should find comfort if you wait a bit.
tkae care,
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a little present kindjali