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Originally posted by Somna7H:
Not everyone is for everyone.
I get it.
It wasn't my fault.
I am never wrong.
Only I met wrong people.
I will keep searching for new people who are made for me. I will forget these two people soon. I need better people in life who will understand me.@Stoika7
Thank you very much.
You explained it nicely in brief.
Would not go that far. Your chart indicates that you have a very sensitive ego with the tendency to take things too personally and to hold onto grudges, hurts, slights too long and too much. (indicated by things like a combo of very strong Moon, Cancer Sun square Mars, Saturn, Pluto conjunction, Taurus Asc, etc)
You have a lot of anger and resentment inside of you, which I have seen expressed on this forum to multiple people at different times. You have written about having so much anger as to wanting to really hurt people.
Until you consciously face and deal with your shadow issues, and transform/heal them, people, especially women (because they are typically more sensitive to and aware of vibes), will be wary and mistrusting of you. They can sense/feel that dark red energy.
I am not trying to hurt or upset you by saying this, but trying to get you to face some of your deeper issues.
You have good things in your chart also. That same personal sensitivity, could become very helpful to others if you become more others, empathy/compassion, and service focused. You can learn how to tune into others deeper needs. Eventually, I could see you becoming like a good counselor or the like if you transform/heal yourself.
Try to find a healthy outlet to funnel/channel your anger towards. Preferably something physical. But above all, consciously realize and keep in mind, that holding on to anger, resentment, grudges etc towards others does you no good, but only harm. It fills the body with toxins and weakens/imbalances same. If people do you wrong or hurt you, realize that karma is real and they will have to face it some point. Meanwhile, let it go.
Let go and let God is a big healing theme for this chart and orientation.
Also, do you like to sing? With your Taurus Asc and chart ruler, Venus conjunct the Moon in the 2nd House--singing would be very healing for you to engage in more of. It doesn't have to be in front of or for others, if that makes you uncomfortable. But it has a healing, balancing, and centering effect in general.
Also vocalizing frustration, anger, pain, would be another good way for you to deal with those red energies, besides physical stuff like say hitting a punching bag or the like.