Really thanks for doing interpretation even if you don't know me =))My north node is in capricorn in 12th house.
Even if have Jupiter trine Venus transit going on now, still i am not too much happy.. Even in my best time, if i am like that, imagine the rest...
You are right it is not unluckiness, it is a curse. Because of karmic-debt or whatsoever..
I think i am born to give not to take which means never happiness to me..
Thanks God Pluto in 8th and in scorpio getting trine from Moon, i can easily regenerate and heal myself..
In this natal chart only thing seems good to me that outer planets including saturn have harmonious aspects.. that is all. No matter how i am clever or enourmously creative or talented, inner planets brings chaos in to my life...
İ dont see the benefit of Jupiter bi-quintile Uranus or Mars biquintile Neptune by the way.. I have slightly Uranus septile Pluto as well. Because of the moon and mars rx i cant just use my talents or recognise them.. This is why i am so unlucky... Well i am a nurturing person but still i prefer a natal chart that indicates a early death or disease rather than this chaos bringing useless chart. It is like a girl showing his legs but she does not allow you to get laid with her... world says you have talent but you can not use it. Where is the fairness?
And in my 9th and 3rd houses i have venus in sag and mars in gemini which causes me to be both mentally and psyhically hyperactive so i cant just concentrate or learn easily even if i am clever... i have all human makings and conflicts in me.. rage vs passiveness, dream ve reality, imagination vs mind, love vs freedom, nurturing vs get nurtured, art vs science, intuition vs instinct.. i am really tired dealing with my stupid mind..
really funny i guess. i am not a suicidal melancholic all time sad emo kid but even i just cant get alone because there is always someone tries to help me and makes it generally worse, the answer of me being saved lies in my north node.. just "trial and error then get responsible".. so i will leave everyone in my life start a new one so i can accomplish what my north node demands..