Moon in Pisces by Judy HallThis is a sensitive moon that wants to escape from the realities of everyday life. Old patterns include the victim-martyr-savior, and the soul has been through many disappointment as it searches for the perfect relationship.
IDEALS OF PERFECTION
This moon remembers at a soul level what it was to have soul and Self joined with the divine. In the past, however, the soul sought this union through another person. The desire to be united may be so strong that any union, no matter how imperfect, is clung to – and hence relationships can be far from perfect. It is prone to illusions, delusions, and deceptions, the greatest of which is self-deception. As relationships rarely end at the emotional level, ties are brought forward from many lives. Another Pisces Moon ideal is that of self-sacrifice and self-immolation. Pisces immerses itself in pain and suffering. The urge is to take on suffering for others, the reality is to become a victim.
VICTIM-MARTYR-SAVIOR
Archetypes of savior, victim, martyr, rescuer, and persecutor are deeply etched within the psyche. So known and familiar are they that the soul feels completely comfortable falling back into these roles. Lacking boundaries, the soul feels the pain of others acutely. Rather than having empathy, the Pisces Moon falls into sympathetic wallowing in pity.
EMOTIONAL NEEDS
There are overwhelming emotional needs. Pisces flows this way and that, helplessly reacting to each and every emotional stimulus. This soul sees itself reflected through other people. It has great difficulty in being separate. Its urge is to merge into another. It lives through emotions and symbiosis. Emotional demands on other people are high, and the soul resorts to emotional blackmail to keep a relationship – without which it fears it will die. Separation is an enormous trauma for this moon. The soul feels as if part of itself has been torn away. The need is to remain in the relationship, no matter how bad. A Pisces Moon rarely lets go of the past, especially partners. A great part of this soul’s neediness is expressed through the victim-martyr-savior syndrome. Wanting to save someone is an emotional desire. Becoming pulled into victimhood or martyrdom can be such an ingrained emotional pattern that the soul receives emotional satisfaction only when immersed in these roles. It confuses pity with love, sympathy with relationship. The soul needs to be needed. If needs are not met, then the soul seeks escape or solace in a bottle – alcohol, pills, etc. – or in beautiful fantasy. The dominant emotion is guilt, both personal and existential. This soul wants to atone, when it should be seeking at-one-ment with the divine.
LUNAR FOOD
This symbiotic Moon feeds off other people. What you desire is an emotionally melded relationship, which you see as blissful union. What would nurture you is union with your divine Self.
MOTHERING EXPECTATIONS
What the soul seeks is a sympathetic, sensitive mother who enjoys entering into a fantasy world with her child. What the soul expects is to be engulfed by a mother who recognizes no boundaries and sees her child as an extension of herself. Such a mother leaves no room for individuality or mutual growth.
ANCESTRAL INHERITANCE
The family motifs reflect certain underlying themes: dedication to an ideal, religious beliefs, escapism, and addiction. The soul may be expected to sacrifice itself for others, or the parents believe it is right to sacrifice themselves for their child. Personal space and individual boundaries are rare. The ambience is symbiotic and undifferentiated, with little room for individuality. Any attempt to break free from the family is met with disbelief. An attitude of martyrdom pervades the parenting. Two keynotes are: “After all we’ve done for you…” and “What have we done to deserve this?” The positive inheritance is support for the soul’s intuition and psychic knowing. This soul is the natural medium who is in touch with other worlds.
PAST LIFE ROLES
This soul has yearned for union with the divine, so religious lives are common, as is martyrdom, mysticism, and psychic vision. This is the poet and the artist, the fisherman and the sailor.