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threepoolsoflight | Hi All, my boyfriend who I thought was my soulmate took his life on March 3. His first attempt was Feb 14, Valentine's Day. I feel soooo awful right now, and that I should have done more in those final days. Can someone give me insight into his transit chart? Thank you! |
Randall | Bump! |
frida | I am terribly sorry for your loss 🙏🕊️🤍 Wishing you peace and lots of love during this difficult time. |
threepoolsoflight | Awww, thanks frida! |
threepoolsoflight | Awww, thanks frida! |
threepoolsoflight | I checked my natal chart with transits and found that tUranus was crossing my DC...makes sense that the relationship would end...though never thought it would end so horrifyingly |
SleepyDiary | quote: Originally posted by threepoolsoflight: I checked my natal chart with transits and found that tUranus was crossing my DC...makes sense that the relationship would end...though never thought it would end so horrifyingly
So sorry for your loss. I have no idea what he must have felt or thought in those final days you probably know more than what any of us would know. |
threepoolsoflight | Thanks for the condolences SleepyDiary! I wish I (or anyone else) knew what he was feeling. He kept his emotions locked inside until his second to last day. He had been stressed over seemingly minor things and no one suspected he was in as much pain as he was. The only thing that makes sense to me is if he had betrayed me and felt guilty about it. At the beginning of March he kept saying he didn't deserve me. But maybe he was just depressed about getting older.
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threepoolsoflight | Also, I posted the wrong chart. The second day was March 2. I forgot about the leap year |
SleepyDiary | I see that he is heavy in Water and this is very challenging to have he must have been a very deeply sensitive guy with his Sun, Moon and Mercury in Water signs and having his Moon in the first house. Pisces moons can be confused and take on a lot of emotions and never really knowing what they truly feel this is a placement with such deep empathy that it can make them depressed because they feel all kinds of emotions. I also see that he had Moon conjunct Saturn and this is another challenging aspect to have and people with this aspect can be depressed. Saturn will put a damper on things and to the Moon it`s influence will be on the emotions. Saturnians can really put themselves down when they are at a low. He also had Moon square Mars which i think can have someone be impulsive with their emotions and not think things through when they are caught up in their feelings and he also had his Moon opposite Uranus which can have someone`s mood be unsteady. Pluto was also on his Moon which can have someone look at death as freeing and somewhat idealise it. I think he had been dealing with depressing feelings for longer then what he may have shown which i think he was incredible at hiding this is what makes Pisces influenced people a mystery because no matter how long you have known them their will always be a side you haven`t seen to them. In those days i see that his natal Pluto was opposite transit Sun and again this may have intensified those feelings of wanting to just end it. You loved him and he loved you I just honestly think he was just too sensitive for this world after looking at his chart. This man i think had incredible depth and so much feelings in him that i don`t think he knew what to do. Again i am so sorry for your loss and in time i hope you manage to heal |
threepoolsoflight | Thanks SleepyDiary, your insights totally resonate. My sun, mercury, and moon are also in water and I have a Pisces moon too, so I could relate to some (but not all) of what he was experiencing. He definitely was so hard on himself for such small things that it was heartbreaking. Thank you once again. |
SleepyDiary | quote: Originally posted by threepoolsoflight: Thanks SleepyDiary, your insights totally resonate. My sun, mercury, and moon are also in water and I have a Pisces moon too, so I could relate to some (but not all) of what he was experiencing. He definitely was so hard on himself for such small things that it was heartbreaking. Thank you once again.
You two must have had so much intuition and psychic moments going on between you with both being so dominated by Water i bet a lot of times words weren`t needed between you two. He had a lot going on with his Moon and probably had a lifelong battle trying to figure out how to handle all those different energies on his already very sensitive Pisces Moon. |
threepoolsoflight | Yes we did! We always said the same thing at the same time. I had several psychic dreams about him in the beginning, even involving minor health issues he didn't know he had. I did have a clear visitation dream from him a couple nights ago. He was so happy and smiled at me. It gave me some peace but I still miss him terribly. |
Randall | Bump! |