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I have been feeling so wonderfully optimistic about having this very nice doctor do my full surgery which I need or I will possibly not live through the Summer 😭😰
Well he had his nurse call and tell me that he will not do the life saving surgeries and
Severe neurological damaged, RX drug reactions, and severe neck arthritis, hunchback, because of my other very bad health issues Add in heart problems and degrees of paralysis and Heriditary Angioedema type3 and the possibilty that it might be impossible to intubate me and more problems, and well, now I am being told that
I will die because no one will operate because they are scared to.
WTF⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😵😳👽
If I do not get the surgeries I will most likely die in the near future.😵👽💀🥀😐So now what⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️
Dying a horrible lingering d eath or chance dying whilst under anesthesia⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😆⁉️⁉️
I would rather risk the surgery which if it does not kill me has a good chance of making it so that chemotherapy and radiation can finish curing me of all of the cancers.
Without the surgery I am terminal.
With the surgery etcetera I can live years more and even be cured💖😎
So now what do I do⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️
I had so much faith and trust in the guy whose name I have Lexagrammed/Lexigrammed 🤞
I was happy for a day but now am so close to just giving up and ending it all.
I am about out of coping energy and ideas.
I do not want to die but fuchhkng no way am I intending to do it in a hospice etcetera.
I would do it in my own way in my choice of nature and peace not on a vile nasty hospital or rest home.
Rant over.
I feel so utterly lost.😵
And running out of time🧭
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