Liz, were you a gymnast? Did you strive to achieve balance with strength in body and mind?You suffer terribly from criticism and carry a suspicion that if other's see faults then these faults, you think, are due to family traits, name, history etc. You are proud of your family but at the same time think they are to blame for anything that you fall short in.
You have so many interests and things you would like to do that you think people should be able to live for 200yrs to cover it all.
But you restrict yourself. You make excuses for not stepping out of your comfort zone and purposely hem yourself in. You tell yourself things, like 'I don't deserve it, or I wouldn't do it justice if I had the chance anyway, or even, people like me don't do well with that so it is better not to do/get involved in it.'
You are so boxed in that you are bored. You have a multitude of things you would like to do and explore, and as already said, feel you could fill a few hundred years, however you get involved in much. You are involved in a lot of small 'manageable' things - like collecting things, and being part of groups, but it is all sort of light surfing, and much is on a mental level. I see a large strong magazine that you are actively involved/subscribe to - it could be this site even or another, but it looks like a big thick magazine, that has been going for some time and has 'new age' type articles, and showcase topics etc.
You are annoyed that partners have never measured up to the childhood boy heros of stories. You could be a boy scout den mother because you love the traditional type of fun and adventure of boyish stories. Frogs and snails and puppy dog tails, fishing, climbing, pocket knives, marbles, and sports have inspired you over the years.
You could have been adopted. There is a situation around your birth and early years as to who you would live with perhaps, but it all sorted out for the most part.
You generally like your face but you would like to have a lower forehead hairline and would like to move your ears position to your head a little.
Is it possible you were whipped as a child? You are in two minds about such punishment/treatment of children, and the jury is still out in your mind, because on the one hand you think such treatment is cruel, cruel, cruel, but on the otherhand you have led a fairly upright life and have been a good person - not likely to commit some of the crimes of what seem to plague us today in frequency and type of crime.
You have many attributes, and some you can develop further in particular.