No. Of course not. But it's natural to feel that way, given Saturn's hovering over your natal Uranus - the place where we feel free to be our individual selves. Saturn brings us into confrontation with not only what we don't like, but obligations and debts which restrict our sense of freedom. You may feel 'there's no one out there for you', but this is never the case. Occasionally, we choose lives in which we're here to develop independence and inner strength, whereas the focus isn't on others, but our own self-sufficiency and personal efficiency. Being alone is not your fate. A Libra NNode encourages us to relate, bond, and commit - almost to the point of compulsion. Don't leave that Aries SNode behind in your pursuit of companionship; the self-command and bright, innocence of Aries are wonderful traits to balance the cooperative and compromising leanings of Libra. You're a natural for it, too, with Aries Venus. Just remember not to be TOO pushy.
Uranus has been having a time with it, too - creating all sorts of upheaval and disruption in matters of the heart, and even your own self-esteem. (Something which doesn't come naturally to gentle, often self-effacing, dreamy Pisces.) And a Virgo Moon has got to watch it so that they don't give until they give out. Luckily, most Aries Venusians never reach that point.
As Venus rules your Descendant, you've been hit especially hard on the commitments front in recent years - especially this one, and some of last year. But remember, Uranus is trying to teach you something here, as it's coming into conjunction with your SNode.
Have you been too selfish in certain areas - while paradoxically relinquishing your personal power in others? We draw to us the partners of which we feel deserving, don't forget.
Natally, you have weak opposition between your Sun and Moon; accessing your emotions may feel a bit like feast and famine, but there's an exchange there. Your Venus and Mars are sextile, so there's a natural synergy between your masculine and feminine sides. Romance can easily develop it, so long as you're expressing those energies.
Another opposition requiring some balancing is your Saturn-Mars. I'm sure you're used to the Sysiphusian sensation of making progress - only to have to the boulder come tumbling down, forcing you to roll the damned thing back up again. This complicated push-pull of Saturn and Mars can seem as if you're constantly being told 'stop!' right when you want nothing more than to go.
There's a wisdom to Saturn, though, which we develop over time. Saturn in Leo is a bit showier than regular Saturn, too. It's a lot like being yelled at by Simon Cowell right when you thought all was going well. Simon is actually not the rat ******* we think he is. He does truly know what he's talking about, and has 'made' many stars.
Saturn in Leo wants to shine - something shy Pisces isn't so sure about. Truth is, Saturn and Pluto are making a yod to your Sun, demanding that you focus on your own identity and integrate these energies. Before you pass 'Go', collect $200 - and quite possibly, find the right relationship.
What are these energies? Control and restraint.
What does that have to do with your love life?
Everything.
See, it may be commonly overlooked, what Saturn and Venus are trying to do with Pluto and the Sun - because they're in a minor aspect known as tridecile. It's unfortunate this aspect gets so frequently looked over, as it's the aspect of serendipity.
The tridecile is nestled between the sextile and the trine: opportunity and facility. It's also an aspect of fate - as if to say these matters are best understood as not in your hands, but under the purview of the Universe.
A magical thing happens when you take your hands off the wheel and let the Cosmos drive: the energy naturally flows and you find yourself in abundance (Jupiter at the DSC.)
Venus-Chiron is many times burnt and just as shy. But Saturn is on your side. Patience, faith, and self-mastery are the keys to your whole world opening up. Focus here, utilising these traits, and I promise you - you'll become the person you want to be - that you know you are deep within - and the right love will come along and reward you.
That's worth it, isn't it?
Hang in there. It's just a rough time. You have all that you need, right now, in this moment. Believe that - the rest will handle itself.
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