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Topic: whats wrong with me
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gemini girl unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 03:12 AM
last night i cried like a baby i feel alone in my soul i just need something i dont know what i cant talk to anyone if i do i cant say anything its like im blank i cant connect with god i broke all my "addictions" recently and i need something to fill the gap or whatever maybe its just my transists when are there gonna be better days cause i cant handle this any more really i dont want to die or anything but i realise that what im feeling nothing is also a feeling i need a passion i need attention i dunno what i want just love without having to pay for it but its probably myself how do i change this cant anyone send me light and love or just healing i dont know advice from personal experience its hard having no one that i can talk to i want someone that really loves me and cares for me IP: Logged |
Battle of Evermore Newflake Posts: 0 From: Registered: Dec 2010
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posted July 27, 2005 03:19 AM
You can make it through Gemini Girl, I have to tell myself that constantly. I hope it gets better for you! Just remember that even if you can't connect with God, he/she still loves you. You are not alone, just talking with people helps, anybody. I'm online if you'd like to talk here, or on AIM, or whatever. My AIM is i3attle0fEvermore . I know this might not be the time to ask this, but do you have a 7th house stellium?
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sue g unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 03:30 AM
Hi Gem Girl,Dont worry, I just went thro a huge breakthro (they used to call em breakdowns), It happened in March after a house fire. I also had to let go of a person who I loved very much, but it was an unhealthy kind of addictive love. No word of a lie girl, I feel fantastic now, the best I ever was. The question you asked about filling the gap, well I pray every day and I have lots of love and music in my life - I NOW bond with healthy and genuine people. Its all about breaking a pattern we created. You will be fine, in fact you will be GREAT - I am gonna send you healing - do you still have photo up? Let the light in girl and you will be fine! Love to you Sue xx xx
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lion king unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 03:45 AM
I'll tell u what?? U'r not alone!! cause even i'm goin through the same feeling!! My gemini girlfriend left me and went out of town for her higher studies and i'm goin through hell!! I guess its only a phase.. You'll soon be alright - just believe.. I'm sending your way lots of happiness.. Take care..Nothing is permanent in this world except change!.. and everything happens for the good. IP: Logged |
gemini girl unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 04:07 AM
hi guys thank you so much BOE sorry dunno what stellium means? my bdate 9 june 1987 16:25 south africa cape town love to learn more about this 7th house stellium and not sure what aim is sorry bit blond no excuse lol let me know thanx in anyway
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monad Newflake Posts: 0 From: Hastings Hawkes Bay New Zealand Registered: Aug 2009
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posted July 27, 2005 07:15 AM
just do what you feel like your best is good enough, I think. 1. Have some understanding of YOU, what you will do what you, could do, etc.2.Have faith in youself 3.Be aware of youself every moment, until it becomes automatic, like breathing. 4. plan something and do it, then you will suceed. 5. Rest 6. Love-focus 7.rest 8. love is free 9 It doesent matter what you do/say, people are only ready for certain messages at certain times. 10. You are right passion is what you need. rest today passion tommorow. 11. Passion for anything will do, make sure people are able to reward you for your efforts. your best is good enough, I think. Stay healty. ((hugs)) forget truth, freedom of speech is more important. WIN IP: Logged |
monad Newflake Posts: 0 From: Hastings Hawkes Bay New Zealand Registered: Aug 2009
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posted July 27, 2005 07:16 AM
create something you likeIP: Logged |
Loopy24 unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 12:41 PM
Here's a big hug. If you've given up addictions its no wonder you feel so awful, addictions are usually formed for avoidance of feelings. All those buried hurts and feelings are coming out now and its gonna be pretty hard. But the good thing is that if you just take your life a day at a time, cry when you need to, try to stay positive and make peace with your past. Have faith and you'll be okay. xxxIP: Logged |
pixelpixie Newflake Posts: 8 From: ON Canada Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 27, 2005 12:50 PM
Monad.. "create something you like" That's good advice!!!! Gemi girl... You'll get through this. IP: Logged |
key unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 01:05 PM
Hi Gemini Girl -I commend you in trying to conquer your addictions. That is such hard work. Sometimes it seems so unfair; you should be rewarded for your efforts - right now. Unfortunately, it doesn't work like that. You have made big changes, so your whole system is feeling out-of-whack. Try not to have many expectations, at least for now. Try to do a few things each day for yourself - give yourself some rewards. You deserve rewards. Take a walk; read a book; get your nails done - hair cut, a new outfit. Go to the movies. I don't know your financial situation is, but it doesn't take money to have a reward. Make a list of things you like that you could do for yourself. It is very important at this time that you surround yourself with people who do not use (drugs or alcohol), or people who are safe for you to be with. If you can't find people like that right now, you will have to be your own good company. Think of yourself first, and what is best for you. Take care, key IP: Logged |
sue g unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 02:47 PM
Beautifully written Key, wonderful advice - how are you doing now? IP: Logged |
sd09 unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 10:26 PM
come with me if U wanna live,U ll live ,ILL Be BAcK (terminator)sd09IP: Logged |
LibraSparkle unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 10:29 PM
Was that a marriage proposal?... or a death threat? sd09~ You're too funny. IP: Logged |
DayDreamer unregistered
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posted July 27, 2005 11:53 PM
lol LibraSparkle IP: Logged |
LibraSparkle unregistered
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posted July 28, 2005 12:03 PM
sd09~ Where are you from?IP: Logged |
gemini girl unregistered
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posted July 30, 2005 12:14 PM
guys thank you so much ur all so sweet really needed this i think ill get better if i move closer to my purpose whatever that is the moment u feel dead i figure its cause ur not where ur supposed to be anyway i really appreciate u allIP: Logged |
heatherbelle unregistered
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posted July 30, 2005 12:21 PM
you're not alone gemgirl, believe in your S-ELF...you have come so far to concour your addictions, take this time to reflect on that and be proud of yourS-ELF! Keep going luck and love awaits you...IP: Logged |
Touchstone unregistered
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posted July 31, 2005 09:42 AM
Dear Gemini Girl, I am sending you lots of healing light right now. I empathse with all the things you are saying, feeling in a similar situation myself about where I'm headed. You've done so well to conquer your addictions. It must be rough going on without but in the long-run you will feel the benefit. Just keep telling yourself that. What do you like doing for hobbies and things? Try concentrating on what you like doing and have some 'me time' and don't feel guilty about it. Everyone needs to nuture themselves now and again. The advice about creating something you like sounds good. Indulge your inner child. Find out what you like doing and it may help you decide on your goals for the future also. Talking to someone may also help if you find talking helpful. Do you have anyone around that you feel you could share things with? If not, you could chat online to me via Yahoo or MSN if you have an instant messaging account set up with either of these. Your birthday is one day before mine and I know Pluto isn't too far away in opposition at the moment from our natal suns. I'm not sure what orb is allowed but I feel the destructive/transforming energies right now so you may be feeling this also - as if your life feels as though it has come to a dead end and needs to transform into something new. This does not need to be devastating. Something new and beautiful could rise from the ashes. Anyway, take care and I'm thinking of you. Touchstone IP: Logged |
sd09 unregistered
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posted July 31, 2005 06:34 PM
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astro junkie unregistered
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posted August 12, 2005 12:41 PM
Just reminds me of something of a theory I brought up here before. That more cerebrally focused energies tend to be dependent on "routine" as a fallback, and I think more emotionally focused energies tend to be dependent on "ritual" as a fallback.Don't know if you can decifer the differences I see inherent here, but perhaps the point I'm trying to make is, the "routine" prone tend to think they are REALLY DIGGING DEEP, when it's really just exhaustion from their logical wheels spinning away. The "ritual" prone think their intuitive magic potion is perfectly logical, when it's just their ability to FEEL DEEPLY. Both of them come down to a form of superstition. Either way, just don't make yourself the brunt of the voodoo. Yesterday I was watching that show on TV about people dating online - can't remember the name. But I wondered to myself why those who get into an "online dating rut" can't seem to master any other "dating skills". Listening to the men and women comment on their first or second dates revealed something to me last night. Those who had a difficult time refraining from over-analyzing THEMSELVES couldn't break out. Those who were able to sort of relax and place trust in the cosmos had the most luck because things were allowed to fall naturally into place. Seemed like the overly analytical times are those when we have trouble TRUSTING. When you've been hurt, or seemed to have "tried everything" with no success, it can be extremely difficult to get back into the saddle. Trust that your heart is stronger than your mind. If it takes time, be easy and patient with yourself!! All you're really doing is learning how to be more trustful. Forget about stressing over what you are doing wrong, or what you lack. And trust that we are all here to LEARN, and NOT here to land a perfect ideal of forever-after. Easier said than done, I KNOW! ------------------ ... it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness IP: Logged |
gemini girl unregistered
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posted August 12, 2005 03:30 PM
astro junkie thank you can i just say im not trying to honey u but u r brilliant i have never agreed more with anyone u know ive always believed that we kinda have all the answers we need and things happen to us so we can realise it if that makes sense and u just hit it spot on for me so thanx really appreciate that ray of light its totally true the trust thing im such a control freak but with the aries that im with now ill never admit it anyway thanxIP: Logged |
astro junkie unregistered
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posted August 13, 2005 12:53 PM
All right! Cool... Glad it made sense to someone else!------------------ ... it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness IP: Logged |