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Topic: Disappointment
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thebigeliza
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posted January 22, 2006 04:14 PM
 
It disappoints me so
to listen to the arguements
we are here to rejoice and learn
we are here to love and help
but it seems as if its all been forgotten
blown away by these negative currents
I come to this site in Linda's name
to learn and pass on what I can to help
she was a wood ox,just as I am
and she would be just as disappointed as I
if she were to see some of you fighting on
subjects of who is right and who is wrong.
My mother is in the hospital dying of luekiemia It takes something that huge for you to stop,look around and realize how horrible this world really is.It also makes you realize that if it has to be filled with jealousy,hatred,and other dark traits,YOU should do your best to keep these traits out of your body,mind and soul.I believe every being on this site is extremely sensitive and very deep emotionally.Therefore it is very easy for us all to get our feelings hurt now and then.Thats when you must stop that vengeful voice coming from within and say "I shall not stab back for that will do nothing but harm.I will transcend this,I must not let these negative vibes cloud up my beautiful pink sky.I must rise above this"I am going through a very hard time right now.It seems as though everyone around me has caught this "negative cold" and my body is becoming very weak fighting it.I am afraid if I do not find a positive being to help me through this right now I will not make it.I love this site and everyone in it but there is so much negativity it is killing me so I am going to have to leave.I have to devote all my energy right now to my Mother,who needs positive light in order to make it through this luekiemia.Same thing with all my friends and family who are being negative telling my mother She doesnt know how hard it is for them!!!! Im sorry I went on a rampage.I just hope maybe by me saying this I can help to get this site to be a little more positive.Like it used to be people were just arguing in just one forum but now its all of them and I cant read one post without getting really depressed because you all can transcend this stuff but you are succumbing to it.Now of course its not everyone here,most of you are trying to make it be a positive place too, trying to help stop the fights or like me,just stay out of them.Anyways I love all you guys and you've all taught me some beautiful things,including what Im talking about here.But I think this needed to be pointed out and hopefully cured.I dont think Ill be here for awhile,but I send my love,light and positivity.Please do not respond back in a negative way,because it will only hurt you and your quest for ultimate greatness.
Love always,Eliza jane Libra/Scorpio IP: Logged |
astro junkie
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posted January 22, 2006 08:09 PM
thebigeliza -Sorry to hear about the rough time, and I don't mean to gloss over it in any way. It's your experience alone. By all means, go be by her side and do what you need to do. I'm sure I speak for each and every person here, no one would like to think they've contributed to your negative experience here. But when you're going through a really sensitive time, it feels like you've got open wounds all over the place. As always, feel free to receive the support many are ready to provide you, but always remember that we are bound by the format which we find ourselves in. I hope you find support among people closer to your proximity. ------------------
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marsconjunctmercury
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posted January 22, 2006 08:23 PM
Eliza. Sorry to hear that, and maybe your refering to the little spat i was involved in on here. That's just my personality. The way i am. And the others involved. That's just the way they are.
I've been through things comparable to what you're going through. Sometimes it's even more painful when a persons demise is dragged out far longer than your mothers'. This is the situation i have found myself in with my mother. I can't stand my father, and my mother 'falling down', and from a place of prominence as she was, tore me apart years ago. She nearly died twice - once because of a suicide attempt! Now what will happen eventually is inevitable and slow to arrive. But life goes on as they say. I should't change who i am becuase of horrible things that happen around me or to me. I'm still stubborn, combative, persistent and jovial by nature. Why should i change? Your qualities are something the world should not take away from you either(unless it's for the better). I see where you're coming from though and there's no need for nastiness in the world. No need at all.
Being you is your gift.------------------
4th December 1974 18:00GMT Isle of Wight UK Pixelpixie:
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I love the idea that the world is not how it is, it is how WE are.....
Helps to stretch the concept of open mindedness with a little compassion and understanding, and in that, true forgiveness.
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Peri
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