posted May 20, 2007 08:50 PM         

3:30am this morning...I get 3 text messages and one voicemail from my Taurus ex. He NEVER calls me, let alone in the middle of the night. He seemed distraught, so I figured I should give him a call back. We talked from 3:30am until 10:30am...then again from 11:30 to 12:30, and AGAIN from 5:30pm to 8:30pm. I have never spent 10 hours on the phone with anyone in my life, but this doesn't really surprise me, seeing as this is how we've always been. I haven't even slept yet. The conversation was great. The first 7 hours felt liberating. We talked about the past, we talked about the present, we talked about the lovers we've had since we were together. I didn't feel a hint of jealousy. We laughed so much. This is what I've wanted for a long time...for us to come to a point when we could be friends. When he called me back at 11:30, he asked if I would want to go to the Jimmy Buffet concert with him in Cincinnati in June. I hesitated, but I said sure. I figured he'd decide it wasn't a great idea, or forget about it all together the next day. The third time we spoke, in the evening, the conversation shifted. He was more reflective. He reminisced in complete detail about the first time we were intimate together 7 years ago. He kept prodding me with questions about my last relationship. He told me that he thought that the last few guys I've dated sounded like jerks and that I could do better. I told him that they probably would have thought the same thing about him. He told me that he had always found me intimidating...which I never knew. He brought up the concert again, and how badly he wanted me to go with him and how much fun he thought we'd have, but that he knew there would be a risk involved. I told him that I had no intentions of living my life on rewind. I love him DEARLY, but it's not the same. I don't want to go backward. He's still just as troubled as he always was...if not worse. The thing is, now I feel a little sad for him. Right now I feel fairly comfortable about the situation, except for the fact that he is in my head now, which, I guess is to be expected, but I WANT to concentrate on the Pisces. I'm also concerned about the prospect of going to this concert...which may not actually happen. However, if it does, Mr. Taurus and I are a very atomic pair face to face. SOMETHING always happens...at least, it has in the past. I would hope that we'd both have enough self control, but I never know.

I'm very confused. Why is this happening right now? I had really pushed him from memory, but now, out of the blue 10 hours on the phone???? That isn't normal is it?

posted May 20, 2007 09:03 PM         

The new friendship sounds wonderful!! Take it slow and really get to know each other.....

(I'm glad Taurus isn't ruining your dinner anymore, sweetie )
I'm so proud of you, the growth you've experienced in the last year!!