posted February 12, 2012 04:37 AM            

I used to be delusionally in unrequited love with this one guy way back in 8th grade. He was all wrong for me for lots of reasons (a gemini sheesh) but mainly cos he turned out to be gay. I didnt find out for sure that he was till couple years ago in 2010 and i was totally over him. I laugh at how crazy i was for him. We go to the same school now, me and this gay guy, but i found out he was gay because he had a boyfriend. Later on in the fall of 2010 i saw his, ex boyfriend (the pisces)by then, and i kept running into him and id say tell gemini that i said hey. Finally pisces finds me on FB and we starting talking and he turns out to like girls too and that was the problem gemini had with him.... so he's supposedly bi. So we talked alll over break in winter 2010 and have talked on FB ever since. And he's really into me and i dont understand why! We don't hang out or anything just chit chat. Im his dream girl i guess. I think he's the delusional one now. I'm not into him but at the same time it feels so nice because he really listens to me and we had weird similar experiences and problems as kids. I see myself in him sometimes and i HATE that. I wanna get away from the side i see in him thats like the weird me. I wanna be normal and socialise and i dunno not live some boring blah life anymore. I feel like he drags me down or would if I let myself be with him. He said he loved me but how can yu love someone yu dont hang out with and only chat on the web with? It may sound stupid but, I can't explain how we have some weird connection even if its mostly from internet contact (we hung out a couple times at school thats it. Every time we saw each other I was so uneasy and nervous like i couldnt even look at him. He's the one with social problems yet he said I made him feel at ease. I felt so uncomfortable near him like i wanted to run). I want to block him from FB and get rid of him but I just CAN'T. He can annoy me so much sometimes too but i get over it. And i lose the anger to delete him. Maybe its like im too weak to just get rid of him. Anyway thats the summarised story of us.

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