posted June 07, 2008 07:51 PM
What I can remember of the spread, good and bad mixed in. I had 3 sword cards in it as well. I should had written it down, sorry I didn't.Ok, so in January for the new year I had a friend do a 10 card spread for me in the 6-9 month position I got nine of swords reversed...I recently visited back home and got it in the 0-3 month (which is still the same time period) but this time it is not reversed. I'm worried a little, nah a lot.
Here's the story and I am wondering if it has to do with this perhaps..4 weeks ago my grandma died, 2 weeks ago my best friends mom died. And I recently (3 weeks ago) quit 3 jobs working with one specific guy.
He was looking at child porn (5 year olds) on the work computer and I've been kind of looking for a job since but working 60+ hours a week made it difficult. So I just quit when my friends mom died they knew I was going to leave and not be back there. I had given more than fair warning.
So, here I am back in my house today for the first time in three weeks. Little money and no job. I had to get out of there, and all I can hope is if I try God and/or the universe will understand why i did what I did.
Is this card saying I screwed myself? Perhaps, I shoulda stuck it out working with this guy? I just felt so wrong, I was molested as a kid and my boss knew it bothered me. I told him, and all the guy got was 2 days off work. I am confused and extremely worried.
Could that be what the card is talking about? Or perhaps another death?
I am not surprised I got it, I worry naturally a lot. Now it's just x10 and for good reason.
Any ideas? If nothing else just atleast hope or pray or wish me to get a job really quick if you could. This can mean death though, yes? In any kind of sense be it spiritual mentally or physical, yes?
I am still a bit new to tarot, but I have done a 10 card since Jan and I didn't get it. I only got the nine of swords with the same friend. Bah, I don't know. Maybe I just needed to tell someone how completely scared I am and that card did not help. Or maybe it did, we'll see.
Anyways thanks for reading this,
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Is there a spread I can do to maybe get more insight or to push me in the direction I need to be going?